[Deviant Nation] Cyn's Journal

Update..once again

Cyn — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 21:51:40 GMT

So all weekend I was at the toronto NIX convention I am super excited cause some of my tattoos got photographed for magazines.

So hopefully I will see some in there...I am super super excited.. & happy I had so much fun past all the drama can not put that many girls at one booth without drama but I did have fun...

I just emailed my love to see if she wants to photograph a few sets for Deviant nation since my other photographer keeps flaking on me...so time to find somebody else that will not...

well I am going to go shut all my windows since there is a screaming kid outside...lol...& eat some junk food..I miss you girlies & thank you for all the comments on my last journal about my new hair..I think I might want to get a new hair cut I do not want to cut much off just a trim with a new style...

what do you think? cause I am growing my hair out & do not want all kind of split ends...
P.S. I CAN FINALLY CURL MY HAIR I did it for the convention I am so so happy...YEAH!!
xoxo

New Hair...Again

Cyn — Mon, 09 Jun 2008 05:24:50 GMT

Hey I finally did my hair last night, & I am totally in love with it...turned out exactly like I wanted...
what do you think??

I put chunks in my bangs, made both sides green but did my side burn hair lol..turq & did the back all turq also put a big chunk of green at the very back at the top of my head...I think it turned out better then I thought it would it was a pain in the ass to dye sine it was on myself but I love it..

xoxo

Full update..

Cyn — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 22:06:40 GMT

So I am going to do a total update since I have not been on much...

We have been looking for a house to buy we found two that we really like now hopefully when we go to see them this Wednesday that they are identical to the photographs that they have up & not from 2-3 years ago lol..some people have done that it has upset me cause we waste all the time going up there & it does not even look like the photographs its sad..

so wish us luck there cause the one I am totally in love with & want so bad..its so beautiful..

Last night we went bowling with my parents haa haa it was so fun first we went to wild wings for dinner they had wings I had chili cheese fries god I was burning for them I wanted them so bad I could not find anywhere that made them now I do but there chili is a little blaa not much flavor thats the only part that sucks.

?make amazing chili so if you ever want good chili come by I will make you some lol..& I make amazing cheese cake lol..wow did I ever go off topic lol well we went bowling & had fun I won one game out of 6 haa haa paid 80 bucks for 6 games how fucking horrible is that lol..

& today we went to pick up some tattoo ink & needles form our suppliers I ended up getting some new jewelery for my face I got a new septum cause the one I had was too horrible for my teeth I got bioplastic it feels so amazing..I also bought two new balls for septum she did not have any circular balls so I have to wait till she does with the color I want, I picked a new color I picked a green its so pretty here are some photographs... as you can tell my gems are on the bottom my my septum I wanted ones that were threaded in & not just glued on...thats why but I like it lol.can not see it from the front but when I turn my head like to the side you can see them lol..eh I love them lol...Derek thought they were stupid lol..

Everything is the same color as my scarf I love green so much fav color well other then Turq lol..ok two favorite colors lol...

Still kind of dealing with my moms cancer she does not really talk about it still she wont but I Hope she is okay maybe sometime soon she will let me know how she is doing instead of hiding her feelings..

& tonight we are going to buy a new duvet yeahhh not lol..stupid dog peed on ours we have to take it to the cleaners tomorrow so we need a blanket for tonight so our solution is going to buy a new one..I still can not believe she peed on our duvet I cried I was so upset she was going outside on her own since she was 8weeks old..so its upsetting...

anyways I am going to go & watch Law & order SVU its getting good I do not want to miss anything..
xoxo

The Flu

Cyn — Tue, 06 May 2008 04:25:24 GMT

So I still not have been on much but I wanted to do a really quick & really short update
I still have the flu it sucks a lot...I am in so much agony I effing hate it so as soon as I feel better I will be sending in my set I know I have been meaning to send it in I just can not look at the computer screen very well right now it hurts my migraine which sucks even more...

I am going to head to bed & see what I can do about my sending my set tomorrow I also have to find the cd it is on since the bf cleaned out everything on the computer & put everything on like 6 discs or more lol...god knows...lol

thank you for everything everybody said on my last journal...I do seriously appreciate it..
xoxo

Hectic

Cyn — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 02:58:41 GMT

So its been really effin Hectic here,

Big thing is my mom has cancer & wont talk to me about it every time I ask her about it she changed the god damn subject it pisses me off...she just says yeah I have another appointment bla bla bla...its like I know that now talk to me tell me what happened at the last one...

ahhh she makes me want to scream so I have a set ready I just have to fill out the paper work & so forth & let Gwen know about it..I am excited I hope it gets accepted...so bad... crosses fingers...

I have been so busy thats why I have not been on line at all been out out & out ever since the sun & warm weather has came inside has sucked mind you we bought an air conditioner for 100bucks brand new from walmart thank god yes got it before the prices went back up to normal price which is like 200 & up...so that made me happy...

on another note I am really getting into a new thing with stones & crystals & healing & stuff like that I have to go pick up some tarot cards cause somebody stole mine which still angers me till this day..lol...& pick up some more crystals/stones derek bought me a bunch of things I will make another journal tomorrow showing you everything its a lot...lol...

but I am going to head eat something I have these horrible cramps & back pain & it really sucks ass I hate it...but everybody cross your fingers hopefully the set gets accepted...

xoxo

PINK HAIR

Cyn — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 05:21:24 GMT

Here it is what cha think I am totally in love with it...so so much..it did not bleed I had to wash it with freezing cold water which sucked...cause I got so use to washing it with hot water...

I seriously got brain freeze it sucked...lol

xoxo

Before, New hair...

Cyn — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 23:52:02 GMT

So I am dying my hair right now hot hot pink & bubble gum pink here it is so far now the test is will it stay the way it is when I wash it...cold water of course..which is going to suck I got to use to doing hot water with the blonde & black so now its back to the cold water...ahhh

here it is so far...hope you like...& on another note I do have a set but for some reason the images when they downloaded from the camera well they wont open so now I have to re do the set which really upsets me cause I really liked the set & thought it was perfect...

any who have to take another set tomorrow....with the new hair ahh bonus...

here it is...right now cant wait till I can take it out I am going to leave it on till its dry...maybe...I might be too impatient for that lol...

The weekend

Cyn — Mon, 07 Apr 2008 21:35:07 GMT

First of all thank you to everybody that comment on my last journal about my hair...

So this weekend was a blast...

Derek had Kyle & his friend over which brought there puppy which is a whole different story lol...did some more of kyles tattoo...

& then we went to pick up Natalie well DEE & her hubby Ben from the train station so we sat at the train station waiting & waiting we thought that they did not come I was so upset hoping that they were ok...fucking stupid me & of course derek is stupid too not just me lol...we were waiting & they said they were going to the whitby one so we drove to whitby but then we found out that the oshawa station is in whitby but its not the whitby one there is one of of 401 & brock we were like fuck we must have waiting an hour at the oshawa one..

to find out that we were at the wrong one we speeded to get to the other one hoping that Dee & Ben were still there they were thankgod I felt so so bad..they did not seem to care though thank god...lol..

so we got back to the house were kyle & his friend were got the drinks out & me & Dee talked a shit load thank god somebody I can finally talk to & thinks like me lol...what a change...so we were all drinking it was like 3 in the morning when we decided hey lets go to walmart but derek cant drive hes super pissed & the rest of them are drunk minus me & kyle, kyle did not drive so I had to drive I love driving lol...it was fun except when I did not know what way to turn to the wheel to turn the car & they kept telling me the wrong way lol...

so we got to walmart haa haa..this is the funny part...Ben is like well you guys go that way & I am going to cause shit lol...which he did...then that got derek going so the security guard which I might add I could kick his ass was following us around & so were a shit load of people that worked there I just told the boys that if they got me kicked out of my 24 hour walmart they were going to get my foot up there ass...which I totally would have...

so Dee told Ben to go sit down lol..so he did...he sat on the floor being good...lol

then we came home & drank a lil more lol..we were up till 8 in the morning..I decided to take a nap I was so tired..lol...

so I woke up to ben still awake & dee passed out on the floor lol..she looked so cute...so in the morning we went to pet smart to pick up some things for Elektra like a harness & a new leash me & dee ended up picking the purple one...lol...I had such a hard time deciding...

then well from there we took Ben to the hospital since he decided he was going to fight a mail box & his hand was obecity all puffy & looked so fat so we took him there..the fucking nurse at the hospital was a bitch I am suprized Dee did not punch her out...I would have almost wanted to lol...they told him he had to have surgery on it...the next day...so I have not heard anything back from them yet but I do hope that he is okay & they are such an amazing couple I can not wait for them to come back..well they have to she forgot shit here lol..

ooh & we took them to the train station but they missed the last bus so we got to drive them all the way home...they have such a pretty house well I only seen the outside but its pretty fucking tall...

Also I have to dye her hair & take her to JYSK...& so forth...I miss them already but the weekend was so fun then yesterday Derek took me out bought me my hair dye bubble gum pink & hot hot pink now I just have to dye it lol..find a way to dye it...

we went to mcdonalds to eat.., then Derek took me to the movies we went to see the ruins its a very nasty gross movie I LOVED IT...then bought me dinner which was a large pizza with 2 mushroom & 2 broccoli so good...& watched I am legend fucking did not like that movie at all...it was so boring...but he loved it & that is all that mattered..

ooh & he also got me 3 new movies, stardust, skin walkers & the hitcher I love the hitcher fucking awesome movie..

anyways I am going to head here are some photos from this weekend Dee & Ben have more on there camera...hopefully she comes back down see...I miss them.. next time me & Dee will have to get a photograph together which we did not do:( I did not even think of that lol... unless snap happy Ben got one when we wernt looking not sure...

Dee & her mustache hee hee...we are up to no good:D

Ben

Kyle & his puppy Stella

My baby Derek

Dee & Ben

xoxo

MY NEW HAIR

Cyn — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 20:31:13 GMT

Here it is...the back is all cut off like a boy again I love it...no more hair on my neck YES:)
Ooh & Derek bought me a new GUESS bag yeah I am happy...very happy...

xoxo

Getting a hair cut...

Cyn — Tue, 25 Mar 2008 21:15:18 GMT

I am sitting listening to Pilot speed - Alright I fucking love this song so much...

So these are the ideas for a hair cut..since i do not want to cut too much off I think I have figured out which one I want..kind of lol...
It started with these..

Its between these two..& of course the second one I would get some extra extensions after my cut..maybe I might like it without them do not know till I try its between these two..

I def am looking for side sweep kind of bangs...I love them...& then after a cut its going to be a total dye change bleach it all out & then god knows what....

So what do you think...
If you have any hair cut photos that would suit me do post them as well..for extra help..
Need opinions...

xoxo

My eyebrows

Cyn — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 03:52:23 GMT

So I finally got my eyebrows done I really like them...
I think they suit my face lol...not much has been up here shitty weather its been so horrible here,
the snow the ice rain the rain yuck its just so dark I can not wait for summer to come...

snow kind of makes me sad...I like summer...hee hee..
excuse the no makeup just woke up look lol

xoxo

Photo

Cyn — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 23:30:02 GMT

So I am getting really bored, so I decided to play with my camera...then I decided to edit some photographs of myself & this is what came out of it lol...

which I made my default too but this is the whole thing lol..
So here is what I leave you with....

"WARNING": I drank a lot of red bull today:D

Video Blog...

Cyn — Sun, 02 Mar 2008 21:13:32 GMT

Finally decided...

Cyn — Wed, 27 Feb 2008 04:33:29 GMT

I finally decided what I am going to do with my hair I am going to bleach my hair out till its like white blonde which one take much one - two tries depends on how white I want it...

then get some extensions & I am going to dye it blue & put a bunch of lime green chunks all through it but only underneath not any on top what do you think...

I have not figured out what blue to do yet though.. here are some thoughts of the blue...I love the fishbowl...but cant get it here which sucks... but I am going to try..

but this is the green I want to do for the chunks..I kind of like these two colors together...

& in other news not so happy news...I wanted to buy this puppy she is a jack russel, she cost 300bucks but I do not have 300 which really sucks...

Cause I TOTALLY fell in love with her...the first puppy in a while that I have ever thought I would be happy with...but its funny cause when I am looking for a puppy but cant find one I have the money but when I want a puppy which this is the first puppy I have wanted since I Have been looking....& I do not have the money its angering lol..

isnt she cute...:(

ooh & P.S. I am sending Gwen a set..hope it gets approved not sure if it will but its worth a try..

xoxo

Bored with my hair again...

Cyn — Fri, 22 Feb 2008 01:33:19 GMT

I am so bored with my hair again I am thinking of dying it all red not sure yet though...

this is what it looked like red...well & some black lol..

I am so just bored of the black & blonde I Need something different or maybe all blue since I like blue a lot I wanted to do it all fish bowl but you can not find it anywhere here which sucks...

so I do not know what to do any suggestions?

here is my current hair...cut & color...its getting so long...
I can not believe I am actually letting it grow out...
but I am dying to cut it but I have not yet lol...

Thank you to everybody that read my blog about my dear friend an update on that he donated 14 of his organs there for saving 14 different lives he is even suprizeing me in death he such an amazing guy.

xoxo

Why I have been MIA...with pix

Cyn — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 21:21:14 GMT

So I have not been on for a few days one of my close friends passed away...yet again it seems like everybody around me is passing away I am so scared what is next...life just is not fair...

& people wonder why I do not believe in god no offense to any that do, I am judging you in any kind of way but I have had a horrible life & people keep dying almost 2 years ago now I had 3 people close to me that I love dye in one week...& now this & before David...

Mike Conley was such an amazing guy he was the kind of guy that could not get mad at you no matter what you could piss him off to the max & he would still be smiling at you...he was such an amazing guy still is in my mind..he gave 14 of his organs away to save 14 different lives & that made me so happy thats just how amazing of a person he was..

I went onto a site to know about it & it showed the crash & I did not know what to do I wanted to throw up it was so horrible his truck was like a pancake I balled my eyes out..every time I hear a sad song or think of death or Conely I cry...I should be use to people dying by now so many people have passed away in my life...but I am not I get worse & worse each time..

I will miss him so dear...he did a lot for me...
I just wish I got to see him more..

on another note:
Derek took me out for dinner last night red lobster, bought me a 60dollar wallet that I wanted from GUESS...here it is..:

he also got me this cute long written card it was so adorable...

& bough me a blanket & pillows there faux fur grey I love them & a comfy outfit since mine was stolen...

& also I have both of my 1/2 in my ears now which I am totally happy about...

I am going to head I have not slept too well...& I am as hungry as hell..
xoxo

I feel YUCKY...

Cyn — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 03:47:02 GMT

So I have felt yuck for so long I Have my days were I do not my boyfriend kind of knows how I have been feeling but I am pretty sure that I should maybe go to the hospital to see if there is anything wrong cause the headaches just seem like they are getting even worse.

I get a headache almost everyday runs in the family but lately they have just been so horrible I can not even think it hurts to watch TV & go onto the computer but I have nothing else to do when Derek's not home & at work.

So I have to do something or I will bore myself to death....even though I am already bored enough.
Eh I am going to go & take a shower & try to get some sleep other then that I might write again tomorrow..

I also have to contact my photographer so we can make a date to make a set...
xoxo

So hard not to touch...

Cyn — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 02:56:34 GMT

I bet you though this was something Perverted eh lol....

Sorry not this time...

So as of the past month I have been growing my eyebrows out I have been doing very good with not touching them so they are all yucky & growing out looking right now my eyebrows are pretty not fat there just not thin lol....there medium haa haa..

So letting them fully grow out is hard but its cause I want to change the shape of them but do not know which one to pick but I like the way the arched ones are... ex.specialey Olivia Wilde's I love her eyebrows so much maybe a bit thicker but the arch is so pretty do you think that they would look good on me? I wonder..

Olivia Wilde:

Angelina Jolie:

Keira Knightley:

xoxo

My package..with pixs

Cyn — Sun, 03 Feb 2008 04:22:14 GMT

So I got these beautiful babies in the mail the other day finally the bitch at the counter would not give them to me cause I did not have a drivers lisc so I went back the next day with a different girl & she gave em to me thank god...she said the other girl should have given them to me I had my SIN, birth certificate & health card...but she said she could not take any but the second girl said that it was bullshit so she gave em to me YEAH...

here they are...I love them I like how when they move they turn colors like the green turns a darker green its nice & the blue turn pinky purple so awesome..
excuse all of the finger prints thats what I get for having all glass tables in the house lol..

so I am taping my plugs right now almost at 1/2 so I can put my 1/2 ones in then my 9/16 then these beauties yeah I am super excited...
xoxo

Snail Mail...angers me sometimes...

Cyn — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 23:23:28 GMT

Short but Sweet...

So this morning the door bell rings at 11am I was like who the hell could that be its the mail girl she has a package for me I can see it in her hand shes like that will be 26something I was like what the fuck lol I just woke up c'mon give me a break lol...

Shes like it went over the boarder I was thinking your fucking kidding me right I mean why pay more when its goes over the border I mean then why the fuck do we pay to begin with when we send it out whats the point of shipping & handling if you have to fucking pay again when it gets there...

how fucking stupid...

So I have to wait till tomorrow to pick up my package cause Derek has all the money & hes at work in belleville..grr I was so angry...I want my package lol..

stupid mail people will do anything for more money its BULLSHIT...

xoxo

New Hair...I wuv IT

Cyn — Fri, 25 Jan 2008 02:48:10 GMT

I did my hair bleach a lot of the black out & still have half a bottle of bleach so I am happy about that so can use it anytime I want more blonde in my hair lol..I love Clairol it turns my black to white blonde so good would not change using it for the world....

here is my new hair..I wuv it so much well for now lol..

Hope you like it as much as I do lol...as you can tell I love posting photographs lol...

xoxo

Ahh another Sunday

Cyn — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 23:24:13 GMT

So its Sunday again, sundays are so lazy I do not know if it is just me or what but I am LAZY lol..& the fact that my cat Jack Skellington kept me up all night crying which he is doing right now he has food water clean litter everything, he just wants attention but he wants attention under my bed lol...

Hes a brat all my cats are..there my babies they come before anything..even myself lol...

So I have been talking to some ladies about making me some dreads I am super excited now I just have to get the money for it lol... & I still have to think of colors but I want them like this but longer & different colors..

She makes her own & there the best dreads I have ever seen I love them so much so I might pay 170 for a full head but I keep thinking that its so much when the last girl that was going to make them was only 100 but I do not know.. but I really want them I know I want them to be black but & that turq color she has in her hair but mostly color less black...just have to figure out if I want another color or not....maybe green not sure lol...

got any suggestions?

xoxo

Felt like ass

Cyn — Wed, 16 Jan 2008 03:23:28 GMT

So I am going to start drinking my weigh powder because I look like ass I am so god damn thin & I eat so much.

Its bothering me cause I use to have some boobs & now I do not really have any so hopefully the weigh powder works & helps me gain weight cause I am sick of stuffing my face & not getting anything in return.

I love food do not get me wrong I could eat all day but god let me gain some weight.
I love my fruit, vegies, white meat, eggs everything I eat a shit load of random products I eat right so I do not know why I can not even gain 10 pounds.

But I am going to try my darndness to gain at least 5 - 10 & work out at the same time.

Not much has been going on in my life I went shopping on sat it was so fun I got the nicest things in the pickering mall I got a blue shirt that works in so many ways it can droop in the front, droop in the back, off one shoulder off both shoulders & it came with a material belt tie thing its a royal blue I love it.

Also got a winter hat with pom poms on them its all black with a pom pom on the top too lol fits my face nicely & a beret that is so nice its knitted white & light brown with sparkley yarn through it too I love fits perfect not too big or anything.

shopping makes me happy..
ooh update on my painting the background is done thats about it I will finish it sooner or later.

xo