[Deviant Nation] Danielle's Journal

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Danielle — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 14:29:47 GMT

I really want to dye my hair... but I don't know if it is safe.

Monday I go for my ultrasound. I'll ask the ultrasound nurses what they think. Then Wednesday I go for my meeting with the ob nurse lady. So I'll ask her too. I want to go dark again for the winter. I think Ed wants me dark too after we were looking at old pictures of me with dark hair. I'm just worried about the effect of hairdye on the baby.

I'm sooo nervous that something bad is going to show up on the ultrasound. <~nervous face... We are just so prone to bad luck. And have bad pregnancy histories on both sides of the family. Plus my miscarriage and molar pregnancy. It's like we are happy and want to start planning and doing stuff like normal parents do, but we don't want to cling to the idea of actually having a baby because we don't want the depression again if it doesn't happen. I'm so torn up inside. I can't wait to get this ultrasound overwith and see what they say.

The appointment is at 10:15 ... I gotta get someone to work my shift that day. Hopefully someone will pick it up. If not I'll call out. My first call out doesn't affect me.

Tonight we have a washer and dryer being delivered. You do not know how happy that makes me! I can do all my laundery tonight. Yay clean clothes. We really need hangers. Maybe this weekend I can go buy some. I dunno if we'll have the money or not. I have to put aside the 258 for the ultrasound.

Oh we got a new cat... Did I mention that? He's totally lovey, but a spazz in the morning so I can't sleep much longer after Ed leaves for work.

I got all sappy and teary eyed reading the paper this morning... So I bet you are thinking aww I bet she was reading some really sad news article ... nopes I was reading the section telling about all the stuff going on for Christmas downtown. I want to be about to go to the tree lighting ceremony the day after thanksgiving but I'll be at work. So I got all teary eyed. Blah, stupid hormones. I also want to go on a horse drawn carraige ride.

Eww new cat just pooped and he is stinking out the room.BLAHQ ... grossness. Litter box has to move. Ick.

Oh his name is Samson by the way. We really don't just call him new cat. He is currently trying to get his nose into my glass to drink my crangrape juice. He's all about Ales. He was drinking Eds last night.

I had pumpkin pie for breakfast. Not exactly the most nutrious thing I could have eaten but it was damned good.

Welps gotta go finish getting ready for work. Laters.

Alice in Wonderland

Danielle — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 01:04:39 GMT

Johnny Depp is going to be the Mad Hatter. In 2010 Burton is putting out Alice in Wonderland. That cast looks fantastic.

I can't wait to see this movie.

Also found out today that the last Harry Potter movie is coming out in at least two parts?!?!!!! Part one is in 2010, but no date for part two. The second to last movie is scheduled to come out in 2009.

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Danielle — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 00:40:26 GMT

Got a camera from freecycle today. First thing I've gotten since moving to Ohio. I can't wait to play with it. I need to get some 110 film.

Umm besides that not much going on. Washer and dryer being delivered tomorrow. That's cool. Then I can have clean clothes whenever I need them and not just when it is convienient for someone to wash them.

I'm bored and tired.

Trying to chacha but no questions are coming in. Makes me even more tired.

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Danielle — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 13:32:04 GMT

I feel like because I haven't posted in a few days I should have a bunch to say. I don't think I really do but this is my attempt at a blog today.

It's early, and cold here. Possibly snow flurries today. Bah humbug. I don't like the cold. Specially seeing my blood is all thinned out from being in Florida for so long. I can see lots of time indoors this winter. We need a tv.

Speaking of tv.. we caught up on Weeds. Wow I can't believe what a hanger the end of season four was. I'm dying for season five to start.

Only a few more episodes left in true blood. I really hope they bring it back for a second season. I love it! Ed isn't into it as much, but he didn't read the books.

This week we are going to see Twilight. I loved the books, again he's never read them so I doubt he'll like it as much as I might. But I'm already a lil worried about this moving because the characters don't look anything like they did in my head. I really hate that.

Then on the 26th we are going to see Transporter 3. I love that guy.

Next Monday I go for my ultrasound. There's 260 out of my pocket. Still trying to figure out how to come up with 878 for the blood work :-( I really dunno what to do about that.

But so far as I know the pregnancy is going well. Everything feels normal.

Yesterday we got a cat. He had been at the pet store since June. We felt bad so we brought him home.

Meant no sleep last night because all night the dog was chasing the cat around the bedroom. :-( I really need some sleep. I'm about to start sleeping on the couch while Ed sleeps upstairs with the animals.

Tomorrow I'm off. I'm going to go to job and family services and see about getting healthy start. Which I think is like medicaid but not really. I dunno what it is. But hopefully it'll help pay for the bills so I can get that bloodwork done.

My head has been itching like crazy lately. I dunno what the prolem is. I make Ed check for lice all the time. I'm like lice paranoid. I don't have them, my head just itches. Hormones from pregnancy maybe? Or maybe I'm just loosing it.

We named the new cat Sampson. I need to make an appointment for him to go to the vet. We have seven days since buying him to take him to get the rest of his shots and stuff.

Umm yeah like I said not much going on. I just found ways to ramble about the lil bit of stuff I do have.

I need to go get ready because I have to stop and pick up a platter on my way to work for the team eat in today.

Hope everyones having a good day and got more sleep than me. I might fall asleep at my desk today...

I'm tired...

Danielle — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 14:37:03 GMT

Like super tired. I haven't gotten any sleep in like a week. Every time I roll over my boobs hurt and I wake up. Plus i keep having these dreams that I'm late, or that I overslept, or that I can't sleep and so I wake up. :-( Ughs, I'm sick of it.

I'm taking two different kinds of prenatal vitamins and one of them makes me really sick to my stomach. I gotta go to work and I don't want to today. I'd rather curl back up in bed and sleep.

Poor Ed is really sick to. I'm thankful I haven't caught it but I feel horrible for him. He feels like shit. Everyone should go over and leave him feel better messages! He's coughing up his lungs really bad. And the cold meds aren't working. He has the body aches and pains, he's tired. Sinus' are killing him. And he never gets sick so of course it's ten times worse because he is sick now and he's not used to being sick.

Okay I've gotta leave for work or else I won't get there on time.

Laters lovelies.

News

Danielle — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 14:28:02 GMT

So Ed and I found out this weekend that we are pregnant! I'm really excited about it. Went to the doctor yesterday and they told me I'm seven weeks. We know he is off a week or two in his estimate, but oh well, the first due date isn't normally right anyways. He told us June 29th.

We are both very excited but also nervous. This will be my third pregnancy. The first was a miscarriage, the second was a molar pregnancy so we don't really want to cling onto the idea of the pregnancy yet until we are in the clear.

At first we weren't going to tell anyone until we were in the clear. But it is hard to keep that kind of news to yourself even if you are nervous about it.

Plus if something bad does happen and I'm ubber depressed for a while I guess it is better for people to know why.

So I'll definately keep ya'll posted!

Today I get to try to find the money to get an ultrasound and some bloodwork they want me to have done. Plus I'm going to call cfs and see if I can get medicare or caid or whichever one is for pregnant people and maybe wic. But I think we make to m uch money for goverment assistance ... even though we don't have money to pay for the doctors bills. *crosses fingers* here's to hoping someone can help.

Off on my search or I'll never get my day started.

Laters.

todays day...

Danielle — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 11:47:26 GMT

8am drs appointment

gunna try to get there early so I can hopefully be seen early and then get out early

10:30 till 7 work... Blah long day.

Then I'm prolly gunna come home, eat dinner and go to bed.

Tomorrow I'm off again. Gunna have Ann over to watch the True Blood episodes we missed while I didn't have the internet and she didn't have the hbo. Can't wait to watch those shows.

Gotta call my Mom today it's her birthday! Need to get her a card and gift certificate this week. Is it wrong that I kinda want to wait until her birthday gift from me gets here and I see what she got me before I buy her something? Yeah I think it is wrong...

Welps off to go text Ann to wake her ass up because she is going with me to the doctors. I hate doctors so having someone there will make it a lil better.

Laters lovelies.

oh yeahs we have the internet again!

Danielle — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 13:53:08 GMT

Day off today. Had yesterday off too, but was to busy to update. We spend yesterday with my goddaughter running around and doing errands and stuff. I was soo tired I took a nap from five till six and then went to bed at nineish.

Woke up at seven. It's heading for nine now and I'm already thinking about going back to bed.

Trying to get ahold of my friend Ann so she can run an errand with me, but I don't think she is awake yet. If I wasn't so against going on my own I would have gone at 8am when the place opened.

Work tomorrow then have Wed off, then work Thur-Sat.

Fri Ed gets paid and I'm pretty positive he is going to go adopt a cat. We fell in love with one at the adoption place when we went to get Lulu licensed. The cat totally adores Ed. Just curls up on his lap. The cat won't be a lap cat for me though. As soon as Ed left to take my goddaughter to the restroom the cat got off my lap and wandered away.

We'll see what happens.

Okay off to go try to get ahold of Ann again and if I don't I'm gunna take a nap till her lazy butt wakes up.

a lil update

Danielle — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 14:36:36 GMT

I don't even know where to begin! Still no internet. Using my friends while I do laundery at her house.

We moved. New addy is up in penpals group for SM and I.

We are both working. Yay work.

Lulu is adapting to the newness well.

Our house is a disaster because we have no shelving so we have no where to put our stuff away at.

Sat I am having a bday party at my house so I'm stoked about that. Although so far it's looking like a small gathering so we might move it to BW3's instead.

Fri night we might go to COlumbus to see The Cruxshadows ... Yay!

Tonight I'm gunna drag SM to the store to pick up Swallowing Darkness. Can't wait to read that book. I was gunna go get it yesterday but I was sooo tired I didn't want to leave the house once I got home from wor\k.

I keep hearing gunshots go off. Sounds like a machine gun. Odd. Wonder where it is coming from.

Its almost ten am and I'm already bored. Not having the internet or tv or anything is kinda boring.

SM and I sent in our votes last week. I'm happy. First thing this morning SM woke me up to show me who won. I knew Obama was going to win. I really hope this is the start of something great and new in this country.

I have so much catching up to do here. Off to go move the laundrhy and then I'll be back to catch up on journals if I can.

xoxoxox

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Danielle — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 23:34:02 GMT

Still alive. Don't have time to update. Moved into a new place. Broke as hell lol. Hopefully in a few weeks we'll have the internet again. *crosses fingers* Miss ya'll.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Sorry this is so short. Just no time.

Byes

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Danielle — Mon, 13 Oct 2008 21:09:37 GMT

We made it to Ohio! It seemed to take forever. But all in all the trip wasn't to horrible. Really cramped with everything in the car.

I was sooo excited to see SM again! Yay nookie lol.

I'm hanging out at Anns house right now. SM is at work till eightish tonight. So I'm having dinner with them and then going and having dinner with SM and his family.

I might end up living two houses down from Ann. Yay! I just have to talk Ed into it. It's a lil more expensive than the place we were looking into but I think we can afford it. I'm going to write it all out and show it to him. I went and looked at the place today. The lady is willing to give us a deal on it.

I'm tired. I hope dinner is done soon so I can eat and then go home and get a nap in or something before SM gets home.

I miss having the internet, but I've survived without it this far haha.

I hope everyone is doing well and than you for all the well wishes.

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Danielle — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 01:21:33 GMT

I'm really kinda depressed tonight.

I guess thats all. I don't have much to say.

Thanks for all the well wishes on traveling. I can't wait to leave Sat. I wish we could leave sooner.

Ughs Fleas! I want to leave now. I'm sick of being eaten alive. Help?!

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Danielle — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 12:48:48 GMT

So today is my last day with this district. Then Tomorrow I pick up my friend and Sat we head for Ohio. I can't wait! knowing I'm only a few days from seeing Satansmonkey again has me all giddy and happy!

I still have packing to do and the house to clean.

I've been eaten alive by fleas. I have bug bites all over my body! Nothing I have done has gotten rid of them. Ughs!

I think I got my ipod all set up now! With most of the songs I don't want on it off. Now to see if this itrip thing for the car I bought when I try to use it in the car works.

my laundry smells funny. I dunno if I like the combination of dryer sheets and laundery detergent I have.

After tomorrow I dunno when I will have the internet again! So it might be a while before you hear from me! Where we are staying there is no internet. But I have friends who have it so if I go chill with them I can use their interenet.

I do get myspace on my phone ( www.myspace.com/xxdeadxstarsxx) and I can check my email on my phone (desolate_twilight@Yahoo.com) if you wanna keep in touch until we get our feet on the ground and get everything set up.

I dunno if I'll have time to post tomorrow with going to pick her up and all that stuff. But if not I love ya guys and hopefully you are all still here when I get back!

xoxoxox

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Danielle — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 23:59:49 GMT

How the Frig do I get songs off of my ipod?! Before going to work today I just set up for all of my music to transfer to my ipod. And now there is a bunch of stuff on there I am NEVER going to listen to. And my dumb ass can't figure out how to get it off.

Grrr .. and the apple website has been no help. Maybe I'm searching with the wrong words. Help?

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Danielle — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 11:42:19 GMT

I told pet dept guy about deviant nation. I honestly wonder what attracts me to people sometime because I swear he's been living under a rock for the past oh I dunno fifteen yrs or so. He doesn't have email, he doesn't have the internet. None of it. Very odd if you ask me.

Well a lil backstory. Pet Dept guy works as a photographer for a local magazine here in Ocala when they need him. He wants to get into doing photography a lil more seriously but is lacking the finances to back him on this to guy some of the items he needs. So I asked if he had ever looked at ebay. Then I got to talking to him. He actually knows I'm a lil more than a piece of ass he missed now lol. I could see the thought click in his head when I was telling him about all these websites where he can find things he needs. From photography supplies for cheaper than what you would pay at a store to models and muas and stuff like that. He was intrigued.

He really wants to do nature photography. I do lack in that dept I told him I didn't know much about that ... but if he wanted to make some money he should work with people. Get the money he needs and then work into the nature thing as well. With the money he's making photographing people.

I Told him about DN and how if he was interested in shooting naked women he could probably make some money because there aren't many central fl photographers. I also told him about some other sites and such where he could do the same thing if he had the interest in it.

He seemed interested. And he's a totally nice guy, and after talking to him about something other than nookie yesterday I see he has a lil more depth as well. I also saw he is miserable in Fl and tried to talk him into moving ... He says he doesn't have the money too. Neither do I ... I'm just doing it. I tried to explain it to him .. but he didn't seem to get it. Oh well.

I was supposed to call him last night but fell asleep before he got off of work.

Spoke to the hubby for a bit yesterday. I'm always really happy to talk to him, but yesterday he mentioned being as hard up as I am lol. That made me happy. I'm gunna get in town on Sat. Sun the people we are staying with go to church and we are gunna spend all day in bed! I can't wait. I have a second countdown going in my head now lol.

I spent money I didn't have and got a new IPOD .. I'm putting all of my music on it right now. I'm hoping it'll be done before I go to work. *crosses fingers*

I need to go get into the shower. I feel like I'm crawling with bugs. I can't wait to get away from these flees in this house. Gah!

New Music ...

Danielle — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 11:54:33 GMT

I d/l Who Killed Amanda Palmer -Amanda Palmer
Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace -The Offspring
Tidal / Extraordinary Machine / When the Pawn-Fiona Apple
Sleep Through Static -Jack Johnson
Something To Be -Rob Thomas

I also got the Movie Camp Nowhere. I used to love that movie as a kid and last month SatansMonkey and I were talking about it and he had never seen it. So I d/led it so that when I get back Ed can watch it with me lol.

I had fazoli's for dinner last night. My tummy isn't happy with it. :-(

The new Amanda Palmer cd is amazing. But I already knew that.
I dunno about the other cds because I haven't listened to them yet.

Currently The Black Eyed and Peas and Jack Johnson are playing from my winamp. My musical taste today is kinda folky rockish. I have Regina Specktor, Joss Stone, Jack Johnsons, The Dresden Dolls, Amanda Palmer and Jason Webley on my player ... But I also have Fiona Apple and The Offspring, dunno how they are gunna mix in lol

I'm sitting here crying ... my stupid eyes are watering like really bad. Like if someone walking in on my now they would think something was seriously wrong lol.

It's almost eight am and I need to get up and get ready to go run errands. I need to go do something at nine am but I don't have the motivation to get my ass off this chair lol. I didn't sleep to well last night. Stupid Lulu woke me up at two am to go out. I left her out all night then. I'm about to just leave her out everynight until we get back to Ed because she listens to Ed and doesn't always pull this shit. Either that or I was always able to sleep through it when he was here lol.

Three days more of work. Four days till my friend gets here! Five days till the club and Six days till I'm in Ohio. I'm really excited.

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Danielle — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 12:41:12 GMT

Hi everyone!

Not much to report on.

Lulu let me get some more sleep last night. Instead of waking me up at 2am to go outside she woke me up almost at six. That was nice.

Since this time yesterday morning I'll I've eaten in two bananas and a volcano taco. Although I am doing pretty good with my water intake. Today my goal is to actually finish that half gallon. How odd is it that I'm drinking more water than ever and I wake up thirstier than ever?

I need to leave for work in fourty mins and I'm still in my undies and bathrobe.

I'm gunna go look at Baunfires new set before I get ready. I don't want to go to work!

I'm home...

Danielle — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 00:56:20 GMT

... it's a Sat night. I can't wait till I can't say this anymore.

I can't wait to have a life again. Ohio woot!

Umm besides that not much is going on.

Work was long and stressful.

My doggy is all nice and clean but bug bombing the house did nothing for the fleas. Stupid fleas that last forever.

ummm....

Danielle — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 16:23:06 GMT

Whats up DN land?

I'm in this crazy sorta mood. Like playful and giddy and flirty.

It's a shame I have to waste it at work :-(

It's beautiful outside.

I'm gunna flea bomb my house today and Lulu is going to the groomers while I'm at work to get herself flea dipped. The fleas are driving me nuts!!!! Nuts!

Umm..

Listening to a lot of Manson today. Dunno why my winamp wants to keep playing him. I'm not complaining to much but normally it switches it up a bit better.

Dum dum dum dum... I'm bored can ya tell?

Welps time to go get myself all beautiful for work. Eat some ice cream. Then time to skidaddle.

Leave me lots of comments to come home to!

I never really use smilies so I used a lot of them here to make up for the ones I never use...

Okay I had to add this after I already posted because it made me laugh and kinda want one lol.

All Dogs Go To Heaven

Danielle — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 14:30:17 GMT

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Danielle — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 01:52:04 GMT

I'm going up to G-ville tomorrow after work! I'm gunna hang out with my friend. Do some drinking and some cuddling and some movie watching and music listening. I can't wait.

Live NIN COncert going on now

Danielle — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 00:54:11 GMT

http://site.10musica.com/micro_site/pepsi2008/home/envivo.php

:-(

Danielle — Thu, 02 Oct 2008 17:37:22 GMT

I just got called into work and I have dinner plans at six. WE close at six. Poo. I'm gunna be late. Oh well. I called and left a message with my cousin about it and left a message on her myspace just in case. I dunno what number is right and I only have one phone number for her. Maybe I'll call my Dad and get a number for her from him.

The girl who was working todays' husband fell at work and is on his way to the hospital! But we close from 2-3 so she is going to stay till 2 and a lil after two I have to leave and drive up there. It takes me 20-30 mins to get there. If I get there early I can find paperwork and figure out what's been done all day.

Blah! Crazyness.

At least it is more hours for me! Yay overtime !

Rocky Horror Game

Danielle — Thu, 02 Oct 2008 14:55:44 GMT

It's stupid .. and I'm addicted.

http://www.rockyhorror.co.uk/timewarp/

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Danielle — Thu, 02 Oct 2008 13:48:35 GMT

It sucks when you get your last bowl of cereal and come to eat it and the milks bad. No breakfast for me.. Stupid milk was supposed to be good for six more days. Grrr

I really want an Ipod. I wish I had the money to go buy one. Even a generic one, but our back account is negative right now. I get paid at midnight so it will all be cool. but damn I want a music player. Specially for the ride up to Ohio. Anyone want to send me one overnight so that I can listen to some musics on my way to Ohio next week? And have music in my day to day life. I'll even listen to whatever you have on there and send it back when I get to Ohio lol.

I think all the time by myself is making me go coo-coo in a whole new way. Yeps.

I have a friggin' cold sore! Did I mention this? I'm seriously pissed about it. I haven't had one in years and years. Since like highschool. Any quick fixes? I need to get rid of this fucker, I feel like it is huge. I actually have like three or four lil ones all bunched up together because I can see them on my lip. I feel gross.

My hair looks cute. My Dad's girlfriend just cut some layers into it and shaped it up for me. I really need to redye it.

Pet Dept guy never called last night. Ya know it kinda makes me feel undesireable. I've never had to work to get laid before. It's very disapointing, makes you feel sucky about yourself.

I'll see him again today because around five or so I'm gunna stop into my store and check to see what the girl working is wearing because she is really bad about wearing jeans to work. Then I am going to dinner with my cousin. We are going to a seafood place that is New Orleans themed. It's okay food. It's free so I'm all for it.

I got really sick last night and when I woke up this m orning I still had the bubbly guts. >.< But I think it is passing. I just wish I could put something in my tummy right now. I'm hungry dangit. Yesterday I had a pb&j sandwich .. and I think I had some juice. Umm.. the day before I think I had a bowl of cereal.

I'm bad at taking care of myself. No wonder why I want a harem of people in my life ... I'm to much work for one person to deal with lol.

I'm effin' bored people.