[Deviant Nation] Gish's Journal

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Gish — Wed, 07 May 2008 01:36:33 GMT

YAY! something GOOD happened today finally! so glad this set went up :) hope you all like it!

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Gish — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 21:02:44 GMT

german. friday is my final & i have to do well so that i can go on the the next course! i've also been booking photo shoots for my website...i have almost every sunday booked till the end of june! yay!
my boyfriend is back, i met his family-they love me and i've been invited by his grandpa who is a pastor to attend a special church ceremony on friendship :) i haven't been to church since i wa sa child, i'm actually looking forward to it, and i have the BEST hat to wear :P

do i just want to dress up? lol...

anyways, pretty busy w/ finals & working with my new schedule. new job (plus existing one) new classes, photoshoots and i have to squeeze in the boy somewhere :P haha...

my boyfriend comes home today!!!

Gish — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 19:20:37 GMT

i haven't seen him in almost 2 months. & that was for 2 days. he hasn't actually been home for 4 months! i'm so excited!

i am amazing!

Gish — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 05:54:16 GMT

i am amazing! i am amazing! finally stopped PMS-ing...getting on w/ the schoolwork, worked the Tabboo Sex show all weekend, picked up some crazy contraption that looks like a dick on a pogo-stick...i'll keep you all posted on how it is :D

also found these sponge tampons that you can wear while having sex! apperently the guy can't even feel it at all...it'll be a few weeks before i get to try em' out-but i'm totally excited!

re-realised that i really actually DO have the most amazing boyfriend ever, & that i don't have to be a paranoid untrusting mess of a girlfriend. i totally love & trust him. we're like the same person, it's totally freaky. in an amazing way.

today i also finally got my shirt off while hulla hooping in my living room. progress! only pants & bra to master! yay!

have 10! photo shoots. sorry. 11 photo shoots coming up in the next month of so. along w/ a fashion. no. 2 fashion shows. one for Flaming Angles (local designer who i will be working for) and for Wiggle, which is a huge even put on here in van that has to do w/ wigs & crazy head/hat type artwork. i've done it before & it's SOO much fun!

anyways, off to bed now :)

love!

update

Gish — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 22:55:54 GMT

just wanted to thank you for your nice comments & suggestions...i'm feeling better, i've just had an incredibly stressful week and along w/ that, some very emotional PMS. i suppose i'm just going to have to put my fears aside & trust. i'm not sure how, yet. but i'll just do it. otherwise i'll just fuck this up. it's very hard to learn to trust someone when they're on the other side of the country. 22 more days. only 22. i can do that.

besides: i have a mother of a german exam tomorrow morning. what's love when there is german??

what to do

Gish — Sat, 22 Mar 2008 17:40:31 GMT

when something is SOOO good, too good. how do you relax & let it just BE what it is. how do you trust again, when you've been hurt so bad in the past. how do you stop your mind from running away on you...running in a direction that makes you paranoid, crazy and depressed. how do you stop the terror from permeating your very soul, ultimatly fucking up the little piece of perfection you though you couldn't possibly have, but you did.

i hate computers!

Gish — Wed, 19 Mar 2008 05:46:17 GMT

i think i have a virus or something...can't get on hardly any websites (except THIS one, thank goodness) i have noooooo faceboooook!it SUCKS. luckily i am not completely cut off from some form of internet goodness :)

things about my week:
my mouth hurts alot today. back on T3's instead of advil. will be calling dentist
i lost my credit card (that i'm currently living on) last night
i wrote an exam yesterday
i found out i may have some type of learning disorder-in my last year of university. excelent. this explains alot. but doesn't help me much now.
i shot a wicked set on sunday
i'm still struggling to finish a paper on kabbalah. i'm ready to pull out the REST of my teeth lol
my boyfriend told me he's never known anyone who had so much shit going on and handled it so gracefully. gracefull? ME? i thought i was a bit of a comical trainwreck. how sweet
my cat has started to chew on my SHOES. yes. my SHOES. this is NOT cool & driving me nuts.
i have to stop eating so many carbs. people will start asking me if i'm pregnant. again...haha
one month till my boyfriend comes home! (well. not quite, he'll still be 4 hours away, but it's better then across the country)
i have to get back to work now.

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Gish — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 00:30:12 GMT

did a play piercing demo last night. 34 needles in my back! PICS SOON. it was awesome! today i shot for a death metal CD cover/jacket. naked, looking like i've been dead for three days, up on a shelf. haha, it was cool-but super super cold! we were out in a shed & there was dirt, cobwebs & who knows what all over! as soon as i figure out why my camera wont let me upload pics, there will be pics of that too! now off to get studying. have an exam tomorrow. ahh!

photo update

Gish — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 05:19:25 GMT

i've been really really busy but i've finally posted some pics of what i've been up to this year so far! enjoy!

a sore mouth

Gish — Thu, 13 Mar 2008 23:32:52 GMT

today i got yet another wisdom tooth yanked out. this one was a bitch. they had to SAW BONE!! how frightening! got to skip class though and had a 2 hour nap when i got home. surprised i don't need the T3's they gave me! having a relaxing evening in bed doing homework, waiting for the wonderful boyfriend to call

montreal!!

Gish — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 07:20:20 GMT

well. my friend natasha & i were just in montreal for the weekend visiting my best friend alex, my friend ben & my now boyfriend daniel...we had an amazing time despite a bit of bad luck & a few interesting situations.
natasha & i got totally drunk w/ some rocker dude in the plane on the way there...
met up w/ the boys no problem, got dressed up to go to a fetish night that turned out to NOT be a fetish night at all lol-got stuck in a blizzard in the middle of the night...which left me screaming in the middle of the street because there wasn't room for everyone once we finally (after what felt like 2 hours) got a cab & i was worried about alex's balls cause he was wearing only a rubber kilt & sweater & refused to take first cab. guys.

natasha totally busted up her hand somehow while drunk & it swole up so big we thought it was broked, daniel used his sailor skills & made her a very cute sling thing...maybe when we fell down on the dance floor she hurt it? who ever knows how these things happen :P

the hotel was gorgeous, room service breakfast rediculously expensive & the hangover-uuuy...my face was wind burned from the night before & by the time we got out to look for fetish stores-it was too late. the weather was ok. it wasn't as cold as i was expecting, montreal is beautiful, i can't wait to go back in nicer weather!

dinner & drinks weren't till midnight & the club we planned to go to no longer existed :P so back to club saphir where we were the night before...metal night, which was humourous...

another day-another hangover...time for the boys to leave :( the visit was short but worth every second...we were totally treated like princesses, & even got lifted & carried through the snow by our good sailors so as not to get our feet wet in our (of course) totally unreasonable shoes :D

sunday after the boys left nat & i got rediculously drunk in our room-passed out-got up & ready & to get drunk some more! with a list of 3 bars and a fun cab driver we headed out on our own. the last one actually existed & w/in 5 mins we were chatting away w/ some boys who took us to see strippers because i didn't want to leave montreal before i could get my own lap-dance & actually get to touch! does anyone know what the secret is to getting skin as soft as a strippers? i really want to know...it was amazing :P

ended up in a sketchy restaurant which we had to be let into, got left by the boys in a room of only guys who i quickly realised were ALL staring at us, & quickly got the hell out of there while we could. (before the guys came back at which point i have a feeling we would have been in ALOT of trouble) yikes!

anyways. we got back safe & with the worse hangover of the whole trip, dragged our poor asses shopping. after a few hours of wicked shops anziety attacks (due to being hangoverin public) & thai food we made our way to the airport. what a trip. flight was uneventful this time & it was nice to be picked up by a familiar face (our friend gram) :)

it's nice to be home after such an intense wonderful emotional and drunken 3 days. back to reality :(
-i'm SWAMPED w/ schoolwork, falling very behind very fast, trying to find motivation to get on track & also have nooooo money! ahhh!

oh well...makes life interesting! just another bump in the insane road of my life :P if it wasn't this way i'd never have any reason to get out of bed. and if all goes well-in 7 weeks my darling sailor will be here in esquimalt (vancouver island-4 hours away) soon back in my arms <3

gish update :D

Gish — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 18:39:58 GMT

well. it's been a pretty stressful few months (of COURSE) school is pretty intence this semester, or maybe i'm just getting lazy-er..i think i'm done w/ this school thing...good thing i'm done soon!
what else is new?
my website gishlovesyou.com will be up in a few weeks, totally excited about that...been doing a bit of robe bondage modeling as well as the usual...i'll post some picks sometime...
going to montreal on the 29th to visit my boy who's training for the navy over there (along w/ 2 of my really good friends) :D
YAY SAILOR FETISH!
i'll write more about HIM some other time...
BTW: anyone know of good stuff going on that weekend (in montreal)? i've never been... i also have to figure out the best place to stay (hotel wise) relative to where we'll be partying...

anyways, just got out of the shower....:P
more later...
love GIsh

soo...how was everyones xmass?

Gish — Fri, 28 Dec 2007 06:56:53 GMT

im FINALLY starting to get better-back to work, & enjoying the free time from school to catch up w/ friends...trying to come up w/ an amazing outfit for new years...& get caught up on other stuff thats had to be put to the side cause of school...not sure if i mentioned my 2 month celibacy goal (which turned into 3 months) but i made it!! & actually-may be going a bit longer, seeing as now i am so picky & there isn't really anyone i want to have sex with...this is a very interesting development that im certainly not unhappy with :D

anyways, things have been going very well actually :D

how is everyone else doing? did everyone make it through the xmass insanity in 1 piece?

merry christmas to everyone!

Gish — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 20:35:13 GMT

i am done school, but have the worse cold ever...i am on my way to stay w/ family for a few days (& be nursed back to health :P )

hope everyone has good holidays, be safe!
love gish

2 more exams!!

Gish — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 06:28:30 GMT

AHHHH!!! so close! yet so far awaaaaaay!

a lesson on trust and friendship.

Gish — Mon, 19 Nov 2007 06:03:04 GMT

what have i learned this weekend?
that you can't trust anyone. not even your best friends. they will tell your secrets, they will lie to your face. people suck. they will silently judge you while being soo sweet to you at the same time.

don't give so much of myself, because the more you give, the more hurt you will get.

ever since i've been back from europe, it's been one thing after the other. i'm exhausted, drained.

be careful who you trust. everyone talks. be careful what you say. you will be missunderstood. be careful who you consider your true friends. they will betray you.

on a happier note. i got the roses on my chest finished, finally...& will be getting more ink-prob. in the next week or so:D

more halloween photos!

Gish — Sun, 04 Nov 2007 00:54:11 GMT

so thanks to everyone for the wonderful comments! halloween is finally over, thank god! it was a crazy one! trying to get ontop of my school work still....lots of drama lately :( so i've decided to stay in, stop drinking for a bit & hang out w/ friends i dont see often, & family! the boy problems are super intense, it sucks, my heart is breaking but we'll see what happens...i think i need to hibernate for a bit & get my head together....
hope eveyone's doing well!
xoxo
gish

for those of you that were stoked 'bout my halloween costume:

Gish — Mon, 29 Oct 2007 21:37:36 GMT

i put up a few new pics! & there's more to come in the next few days!
except for the actual dress, i made my entire costume! i knew that vinal was hard to sew, but HOLY CRAP! i almost went insane! i even made it to the finals (costume contest)!
can i be strawberry shortcake everyday?
xoxo

well what a surprise!

Gish — Sun, 28 Oct 2007 22:05:26 GMT

i was just coming on to write a long overdue journal entry, & what did i find? me set!! wow! Its so fun cause i hadnt seen ANY pics till today! it was fun to do, i almost froze my ass off & it was sooo wet & gross out! miesha & kumkuat make an awesome team!

anyways...
i hope everyones having a good halloween! last night i went to SIN city (fetish party) dressed as a very naughty strawberry shortcake, which i made myself & was sooooo fun! i wish i could wear it everyday! ill have pics up soon!

i have been swamped w/ school lately, which is why i havent wrote in so long, there hasn't been anything to write about! (except for boy problems and stupid friends letting me down...grrr)
anyway, things are super good now, if i could just get caught up w/ my schoolwork!

i hate boys.

Gish — Sat, 13 Oct 2007 19:25:27 GMT

they hurt me.

new set waiting to be put up!!

Gish — Tue, 25 Sep 2007 01:09:02 GMT

it's on the way ladies, & gents...gwindylyn has it...so. now. we. wait...
(& there's more coming!!)

just an update.

Gish — Fri, 14 Sep 2007 03:03:08 GMT

i never got that cold sore :D yay! im swamped with german homework. im getting new tattoos in the next few weeks!

thats all.
G

ps: my dad is still not talking to me....

poo...

Gish — Tue, 11 Sep 2007 01:17:29 GMT

well-i am really sorry to say that i can't go to austen anymore. I have to go to a wedding. it's my ex from grade 10. i made him a man. i am best friends with his brother & very close to the whole family. i can't miss it.

oh well...

i haven't had internet in 2 weeks! but i do now, thank god!
i've settled into my new place, i now have my own wonderful room, 2 wonderful boy roomates who have adorably wonderful girlfriends and NO MORE COCKROACHES! yayayaay!

my dad saw a pic of my kissing a friend on the lips, so he's convinced i'm a lesbian and won't talk to me. so i guess i won't be working with him. so no money, no car. it sucks.

school has started again and I LOVE IT! it's gonna be alot of work though, my classes are english (autobiographies), cultural anthropology, religion studies, german and a history class called "gender, politics and culture in modern europe" which fucking rocks!

miesha and i have shot 4 sets in the past week! yey! they are wonderful and we are working with a very sweet makeup artist and having a FUCKING RIOT!! i am so excited to get them up!

anyway...i am in the middle of a crap load of homework, so more later!

love ya!
xoxox
gish.

Austin in October?

Gish — Fri, 24 Aug 2007 19:06:19 GMT

OMG!! i am so excited, however i have NO idea what's going on. i just know that i am 90% going....
how do i get ahold of LP to do a shoot i wonder?
& what's this EVENT?
mbe i'm out of the loop. sorry.

but anyway! schools done for a few weeks & we FINALLy got some good weather, except i have a cold now, of course, & moving is stressful :(

oh well! it's better then writing essays!

oh & i gota job w/ my dad as his receptionist/personal secretary makin $18/hr, and i get a complany car! yeye! so i havent started my training or got the car yet, but if it all works out i'll for sure be able to afford to go to austin!

keepin my fingers crossed!