[Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal

[Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal We believe that people who love erotica are more than just faceless members sitting at a computer looking at photos of nameless models. We are a community, a cooperative, a society of people that are more than the dollar amount of their site memberships. Deviant Nation We believe that people who love erotica are more than just faceless members sitting at a computer looking at photos of nameless models. We are a community, a cooperative, a society of people that are more than the dollar amount of their site memberships. We are striving to combine community, subculture, artistic expression and erotica all at once. Deviant Nation satan@deviantnation.com Girls,Pinup,Tattoo,Pierced,Goth,Punk,Rockabilly,emo,Metal,Subcultures yes http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk en-us Copyright 2003-2008 Deviant Nation, Inc. satan@deviantnation.com Sat, 15 Mar 2003 07:00:00 GMT Fri, 21 Nov 2008 10:18:02 GMT 60 DN Logo http://i.deviantnation.com/i/dn-logo-small.png http://deviantnation.com Deviant Nation 76 144 im so happy now! http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81826 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk we found my doggy. and im so excited! he's too adventurous for his good. someone picked up that lived around the corner from our street. this morning, we went to the pound to see if anyone dropped him off but no luck, so we went searching around the area that he was last seen and found so we turn into that street and my husband tells me to stop! there was a sign saying found dog-good boy with no tags on collar. call to describe. and fortunately it was him! unfortunately they actually wanted to keep him for good so im glad they at least tried to make sure he did have a family. i had a friend once that lost a kitten and after 6, 7, 8 years later she sees a cat wandering out and her sister tries to call it and it came to her, and they believe it was the lost kitten (they believe someone stole it) so she decided to take it to where she lives now, on the other side of the city, and couple of months later, it runs off and decided not to look for it, believing it found a better home with the apartment neighbors. i don't want to be that family that is still posting signs about missing a loved one, still believing it's near by just wandering the streets and i don't know it. But im pretty glad we got him back. Blog yes
someone picked up that lived around the corner from our street.

this morning, we went to the pound to see if anyone dropped him off but no luck, so we went searching around the area that he was last seen and found so we turn into that street and my husband tells me to stop!

there was a sign saying found dog-good boy with no tags on collar. call to describe.

and fortunately it was him!

unfortunately they actually wanted to keep him for good so im glad they at least tried to make sure he did have a family.

i had a friend once that lost a kitten and after 6, 7, 8 years later she sees a cat wandering out and her sister tries to call it and it came to her, and they believe it was the lost kitten (they believe someone stole it) so she decided to take it to where she lives now, on the other side of the city, and couple of months later, it runs off and decided not to look for it, believing it found a better home with the apartment neighbors.

i don't want to be that family that is still posting signs about missing a loved one, still believing it's near by just wandering the streets and i don't know it.

But im pretty glad we got him back.
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81826/#comments 9 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81826 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81826 Wed, 12 Nov 2008 00:07:57 GMT im so freaking tired. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81763 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk i shouldnt be so tired, I know why I'm tired partly cuz we took a trip to philly and left around 5 in the morning and didnt come back till 2 am. my dog ran away while we were gone so i'm pretty upset about that. somehow he always runs away around this time and of course in my city, every pet has to have a city license and im the good ol citizen and i pay it only because that's the only way to get my dog out of the pound. he does run away spontaneously this whole year but it breaks my heart every time he does. im so afraid one day he'll be caught or be killed and he will never come home. He is a beautiful pitbull so I'm so afraid of someone catching him for dogfighting. He is a family dog so I'm just scared he will either be the bait dog or he'll be the loyal dog that he is and do whatever that person makes him do. im just scared but it'll take time to find him. on other news, i did some lovely shoots, one with jon mmayhem and kencredible. they were completely fun and i hope everyone else likes them too. we went to eat at this place called amada (? i think that's how you spell it) and it totally sucked. my expectations were very high because my husband who is a chef raved about it and when i eat out, i like to eat and get out. and i am critic about restaurants from the time that i step onto their sidewalk to when i walk out, either disappointed or love loved it. so i left the comment card for the waitress stating everything that i thought about it. It only gives you 3 or 4 lines so i tried to word it nicely. But pretty frank. And I didn't leave my address, email or phone number. okay im done. till then. xo.msjesshawk Blog yes
my dog ran away while we were gone so i'm pretty upset about that.

somehow he always runs away around this time and of course in my city, every pet has to have a city license and im the good ol citizen and i pay it only because that's the only way to get my dog out of the pound.

he does run away spontaneously this whole year but it breaks my heart every time he does.

im so afraid one day he'll be caught or be killed and he will never come home.

He is a beautiful pitbull so I'm so afraid of someone catching him for dogfighting. He is a family dog so I'm just scared he will either be the bait dog or he'll be the loyal dog that he is and do whatever that person makes him do.

im just scared but it'll take time to find him.

on other news, i did some lovely shoots, one with jon mmayhem and kencredible. they were completely fun and i hope everyone else likes them too.

we went to eat at this place called amada (? i think that's how you spell it) and it totally sucked. my expectations were very high because my husband who is a chef raved about it and when i eat out, i like to eat and get out. and i am critic about restaurants from the time that i step onto their sidewalk to when i walk out, either disappointed or love loved it.

so i left the comment card for the waitress stating everything that i thought about it. It only gives you 3 or 4 lines so i tried to word it nicely. But pretty frank. And I didn't leave my address, email or phone number.

okay im done.

till then.
xo.msjesshawk
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81763/#comments 5 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81763 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81763 Tue, 11 Nov 2008 02:49:17 GMT my fortune today is... http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81437 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk well fuck i left it in the car. and it's raining. exciting news for me, It's almost christmas!! so i put together my list o' things that i want and need on my myspace blog. Mainly good for my family members but take a lookie and gimme. Other news: I will be heading to Philadelphia. My second "I wish" home. Where I love to go to to every chance that i get. The place that i wish i could move to but i really dont want to leave my family down here. but i will be doing shoots for a day, pack it all in one day, before heading home, get a philly cheese steak and be a happy camper. well here's photo's for all you that sit and read this shit: <img width="167" height="250" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/153028/" /> <img width="220" height="330" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/153029/" /> from the wonderful j. baxter, who is also located in philly. woot woot. till then, xo.msjesshawk Blog yes

exciting news for me, It's almost christmas!! so i put together my list o' things that i want and need on my myspace blog. Mainly good for my family members but take a lookie and gimme.

Other news: I will be heading to Philadelphia. My second "I wish" home. Where I love to go to to every chance that i get. The place that i wish i could move to but i really dont want to leave my family down here.

but i will be doing shoots for a day, pack it all in one day, before heading home, get a philly cheese steak and be a happy camper.

well here's photo's for all you that sit and read this shit:

from the wonderful j. baxter, who is also located in philly. woot woot.

till then,
xo.msjesshawk
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81437/#comments 9 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81437 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81437 Wed, 05 Nov 2008 21:55:13 GMT the world needs to know... http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81219 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk apparently what i'm doing with my life, so my husband says. i havent had time to blog and i am ashamed. After the Dn event, I've got a house full of my stuff unorganized and clutter everywhere. I am a pack rat but at least I know where everything is. I have photographic memory which defintely helps me through all this crap. But unfortunately with my house not completely together, I just can't seem to find anything. What use to be where it should be, I've gotten rid a lot of furniture so what's left in it's spot are boxes. I always like to have a brand new fresh start but with the lack of funds, it'll take some time. My husband got a beautiful giant wall clock. It surrounded with black with gold scrolls with roman numerals. I'm obsessed with clocks and mirrors. Mostly clocks. And most of them are not even working, I just like to keep them around. Well back to what I've forgotten to mention: the Deviant Nation Event in CA. What an event! It was just the bestest. I got to meet so many ladies and I had such a great time.   I brought 4 different heels and forgot to put "walking everywhere" into my agenda, so I ended up buying a pair of black slippers so I can reach the hotel without killing myself and getting a pair of flats at a payless that ended up killing my feet anyway. I literally came home with 3 bandaids on and only because the front desk had that many left. The sets were amazing, I was suppose to be a part of one but horrible miscommunication arose and no one was on the same level. Which was fine at the end because as much as I love to meet and perform and be on stage, I get anxiety now and then. It's odd, I can't explain. Stitch and Arin's suspension was amazing. It's in awe when I get to see suspension. I've always wanted to just have rings across my back and on my arms but now that I have my back done, I don't want to mess up the ink. We ended the night going to LP and Lalo's hotel room with hussar and his girl. We did some sets and I can't wait to see them up. So keep a look out for it. For two, actually. ;) I know this is long so finally, Halloween came and I didn't get to decorate like I usually do. Halloween is my biggest event of the year and I plan things back in July or August, actually I'm planning for next year's, little by little. But all I did was take my bro. and my daughter trick or treating and that's always fun. I've already eaten half her candy. enough said. xo.msjesshawk p.s. look at east coast ink mag. it's free and i've got my photo in it. geek. Blog yes
i havent had time to blog and i am ashamed. After the Dn event, I've got a house full of my stuff unorganized and clutter everywhere. I am a pack rat but at least I know where everything is. I have photographic memory which defintely helps me through all this crap.

But unfortunately with my house not completely together, I just can't seem to find anything. What use to be where it should be, I've gotten rid a lot of furniture so what's left in it's spot are boxes.

I always like to have a brand new fresh start but with the lack of funds, it'll take some time.

My husband got a beautiful giant wall clock. It surrounded with black with gold scrolls with roman numerals. I'm obsessed with clocks and mirrors. Mostly clocks.

And most of them are not even working, I just like to keep them around.

Well back to what I've forgotten to mention: the Deviant Nation Event in CA.

What an event! It was just the bestest. I got to meet so many ladies and I had such a great time.

I brought 4 different heels and forgot to put "walking everywhere" into my agenda, so I ended up buying a pair of black slippers so I can reach the hotel without killing myself and getting a pair of flats at a payless that ended up killing my feet anyway. I literally came home with 3 bandaids on and only because the front desk had that many left.

The sets were amazing, I was suppose to be a part of one but horrible miscommunication arose and no one was on the same level. Which was fine at the end because as much as I love to meet and perform and be on stage, I get anxiety now and then. It's odd, I can't explain.

Stitch and Arin's suspension was amazing. It's in awe when I get to see suspension. I've always wanted to just have rings across my back and on my arms but now that I have my back done, I don't want to mess up the ink.

We ended the night going to LP and Lalo's hotel room with hussar and his girl. We did some sets and I can't wait to see them up.

So keep a look out for it. For two, actually. ;)

I know this is long so finally, Halloween came and I didn't get to decorate like I usually do. Halloween is my biggest event of the year and I plan things back in July or August, actually I'm planning for next year's, little by little. But all I did was take my bro. and my daughter trick or treating and that's always fun. I've already eaten half her candy.

enough said.

xo.msjesshawk

p.s. look at east coast ink mag. it's free and i've got my photo in it. geek.

]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81219/#comments 8 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81219 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/81219 Mon, 03 Nov 2008 02:26:19 GMT im making this harder than it seems. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79821 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk everything that i do, i always make it harder for myself than it should be. i always take the longest route. i am always late on things. no. it takes me awhile to get things going, i mean. i try not to be late. i bought a mask but now im considering to changing my whole new wardrobe for this masquerade event. im having a hard time finding someone to split a room with. im only staying for a day but i carry a lot of baggage. im also thinking of changing my model name, can i really do that or is it too late and ive already established myself as my name and wait, i dont think i can even change my url for my site for this so it's possible that it's a little too late for changes. i was just thinking of dropping the "ms." in the front of my name or having my last name be just 2 initials and dropping the "ms." i dont know i'll still think of it more. and i bought this kick ass wig and everytime i look at it i feel like it's too over the top and not even be what i should be wearing but when i put it on, i hate taking it off, i literally want to wear everywhere i go and just wish my hair was this big. i freaking love it. it was pretty costly but i keep thinking it's an investment, that i will wear it more than once. knowing me i'll wear it like 5 times before i have to wash it and it'll brand new. i dont know. im just so excited. Blog yes
i always take the longest route.

i am always late on things.

no. it takes me awhile to get things going, i mean.

i try not to be late.

i bought a mask but now im considering to changing my whole new wardrobe for this masquerade event.

im having a hard time finding someone to split a room with. im only staying for a day but i carry a lot of baggage.

im also thinking of changing my model name, can i really do that or is it too late and ive already established myself as my name and wait, i dont think i can even change my url for my site for this so it's possible that it's a little too late for changes.

i was just thinking of dropping the "ms." in the front of my name or having my last name be just 2 initials and dropping the "ms." i dont know i'll still think of it more.

and i bought this kick ass wig and everytime i look at it i feel like it's too over the top and not even be what i should be wearing but when i put it on, i hate taking it off, i literally want to wear everywhere i go and just wish my hair was this big. i freaking love it. it was pretty costly but i keep thinking it's an investment, that i will wear it more than once. knowing me i'll wear it like 5 times before i have to wash it and it'll brand new.

i dont know.

im just so excited.

]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79821/#comments 8 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/79821 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79821 Tue, 14 Oct 2008 00:38:55 GMT hello ello http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79548 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk oh i forgot to mention i'm on www.drivenbyboredom.com if you scroll down one entry you'll see me boobies. and booty. done by <a href="http://deviantnation.com/members/ithinkthatshot" class="member" rel="tag">ithinkthatshot</a> pretty cool kid that i finally got to meet when i was in new york and he drove down here to hang out and i met up with him in richmond. took the photos at a porn shop called taboo. unfortunately i didnt get to "really" shop. i need a new pair of really high slutty shoes. hahaha. oh also, more tidbit of me. im in east coast ink mag. and unfortunately with that, i can't save that photo onto my computer. ill have to figure something out. that shoot i drove down to meet <a href="http://deviantnation.com/members/sayer" class="member" rel="tag">sayer</a> and that was pretty fun. i drive way too much. im exhausted. ill drink a beer. ha. Blog yes
if you scroll down one entry you'll see me boobies.

and booty.

done by ithinkthatshot

pretty cool kid that i finally got to meet when i was in new york and he drove down here to hang out and i met up with him in richmond.

took the photos at a porn shop called taboo. unfortunately i didnt get to "really" shop. i need a new pair of really high slutty shoes. hahaha.

oh also, more tidbit of me. im in east coast ink mag. and unfortunately with that, i can't save that photo onto my computer. ill have to figure something out. that shoot i drove down to meet sayer and that was pretty fun.

i drive way too much.

im exhausted. ill drink a beer. ha.
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79548/#comments 10 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/79548 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79548 Fri, 10 Oct 2008 01:45:32 GMT i drink my favorite beer. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79397 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk ah, good ol' beer. i'm actually not that fond of beer, cheap beer, i should say. but i love me some belgian beer. I buy this particular one, it's called lambic and it's flavored with raspberry, or currant, or grapes or whatever. i personally love the raspberry but they didnt have it in stock so I'm sipping on the currant flavor. i bought my outfit for the dn event and i bought all the necessities to go with it. The more I look at it though, the more I feel like I'm getting myself into a whole marie antoinette style, elizabethan era and I get worried but then I think it's not over the top yet. I really like my mask though, I plan to fix it up a notch, add a handle to it and put huge feathers on it. it's gonna look sweet. i need a beer. Blog yes

i'm actually not that fond of beer, cheap beer, i should say.

but i love me some belgian beer. I buy this particular one, it's called lambic and it's flavored with raspberry, or currant, or grapes or whatever.

i personally love the raspberry but they didnt have it in stock so I'm sipping on the currant flavor.

i bought my outfit for the dn event and i bought all the necessities to go with it. The more I look at it though, the more I feel like I'm getting myself into a whole marie antoinette style, elizabethan era and I get worried but then I think it's not over the top yet.

I really like my mask though, I plan to fix it up a notch, add a handle to it and put huge feathers on it. it's gonna look sweet.

i need a beer.
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79397/#comments 4 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/79397 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/79397 Wed, 08 Oct 2008 02:10:13 GMT Photos from the Art Show http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/78225 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk <img height="444" width="333" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/146273/" /> The big photo above me was bought by Todd of Shmack Clothing.  $$$  Dolla Dolla Bill Y'all $$$ <img height="250" width="333" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/146275/" /> <img height="444" width="333" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/146276/" /> <img height="444" width="333" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/146278/" /> Yeah, I wonder what my daughter is going to think years from now when she see these photos?  Anyhow, Halloween is almost here and I am utterly excited!!!  It's the only time of the year where I can buy gothic related houseware and decoration relatively cheap!  And since my house is almost done being renovated, so you know...hehehe   It's gonna be awesome!!! Well, I should be sleeping and dreaming of wonderful things yet to come. xo msjesshawk Blog yes

The big photo above me was bought by Todd of Shmack Clothing. $$$ Dolla Dolla Bill Y'all $$$

Yeah, I wonder what my daughter is going to think years from now when she see these photos?

Anyhow, Halloween is almost here and I am utterly excited!!! It's the only time of the year where I can buy gothic related houseware and decoration relatively cheap! And since my house is almost done being renovated, so you know...hehehe It's gonna be awesome!!!

Well, I should be sleeping and dreaming of wonderful things yet to come.

xo msjesshawk]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/78225/#comments 3 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/78225 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/78225 Mon, 22 Sep 2008 06:21:18 GMT i knows it's been awhile. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/78080 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk but damnit, this is the shittest wireless connection to the internet i ever saw! it's so horrible. it's too unpredictable. im pretty afraid right now that it'll lost connection while im typing and ill just be pissed off and not go on the internet for the next 2 or 3 days. and unfortunately i hate waiting that long. my house is almost done and im pretty excitied about that. it's getting a little too crapped up in this one room. i'm already trying to find an outfit for the san fran. event. woot woot. im really thinking more like elizabeth  style masquerade ball. like i want my hair to look huge! ill stuff a couple huge feathers in there. haha. it'll be sweet. oh the nyc thing was a blast! open bar for an hour was great, the jack and coke costing 16 bucks was not. meet the designer, meet a few friends, meet photographers, and got a goodie bag. unfortunately we went to a wal mart and got a digital camera for $20 bucks and it was a bad idea. but i'll post some pictures though: <img width="333" height="500" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/145882/" alt="" /><img width="501" height="753" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/145883/" alt="" /> Blog yes
it's so horrible. it's too unpredictable. im pretty afraid right now that it'll lost connection while im typing and ill just be pissed off and not go on the internet for the next 2 or 3 days.

and unfortunately i hate waiting that long.

my house is almost done and im pretty excitied about that. it's getting a little too crapped up in this one room.

i'm already trying to find an outfit for the san fran. event. woot woot. im really thinking more like elizabeth
style masquerade ball. like i want my hair to look huge! ill stuff a couple huge feathers in there. haha. it'll be sweet.

oh the nyc thing was a blast! open bar for an hour was great, the jack and coke costing 16 bucks was not.

meet the designer, meet a few friends, meet photographers, and got a goodie bag. unfortunately we went to a wal mart and got a digital camera for $20 bucks and it was a bad idea.

but i'll post some pictures though:

]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/78080/#comments 2 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/78080 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/78080 Sat, 20 Sep 2008 03:19:45 GMT off i go again. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/77344 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk i should be going to bed since i will be waking up early tomorrow to head to new york city. woot woot. but i should take something to help me fall asleep. im glad i cant take pills cuz i can take half a benadryl and fall right asleep. so today i rented a dvd from the library, i got bored today and it's a documentary called "american meth" and it was pretty interesting. im really glad i never wanted to ever ever try it and as i was watching it, i was going over my head the conversation im going to have to deal with my daughter when she grows up and realizes drugs are out there. fortunately, i have a long way to go from that conversation ever happening. but i will have to deal with that "drug talk". and i dont know why, but im getting obsessed over watching Bravo shows, like Rachel Zoe Project. And of course Project Runway and all that. i think new york and fashion is getting into my mind. and now that i mentioned drugs, i did a shoot last sunday that involved me doing lines of "coke" (a mix of baby powder and flour) and trying to make it look artsy and awesome and neat. i mean, i dont condone it, i dont use it so i hope the images will only affect the consequences of the actions not implementing that that's what i do and enjoy doing. and i hope soon that i can show it to you guys. plus side to it too, it'll be in an art show at the beach so hopefully i get to see up. And the photos turned out great so im not that worried that it'll send a different image. okay im done. see you guys thursday! xo.msjesshawk and see you guys in san fran!! woot woot!! Blog yes
woot woot.

but i should take something to help me fall asleep. im glad i cant take pills cuz i can take half a benadryl and fall right asleep.

so today i rented a dvd from the library, i got bored today and it's a documentary called "american meth" and it was pretty interesting.

im really glad i never wanted to ever ever try it and as i was watching it, i was going over my head the conversation im going to have to deal with my daughter when she grows up and realizes drugs are out there.

fortunately, i have a long way to go from that conversation ever happening.

but i will have to deal with that "drug talk".

and i dont know why, but im getting obsessed over watching Bravo shows, like Rachel Zoe Project. And of course Project Runway and all that.

i think new york and fashion is getting into my mind.

and now that i mentioned drugs, i did a shoot last sunday that involved me doing lines of "coke" (a mix of baby powder and flour) and trying to make it look artsy and awesome and neat. i mean, i dont condone it, i dont use it so i hope the images will only affect the consequences of the actions not implementing that that's what i do and enjoy doing. and i hope soon that i can show it to you guys. plus side to it too, it'll be in an art show at the beach so hopefully i get to see up. And the photos turned out great so im not that worried that it'll send a different image.

okay im done.

see you guys thursday!

xo.msjesshawk

and see you guys in san fran!! woot woot!!
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/77344/#comments 4 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/77344 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/77344 Wed, 10 Sep 2008 04:37:42 GMT oh the days get tiresome. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76880 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk finally a day off tomorrow. i end up spending it shooting. which i cannot say is a bad thing because i love what i do and nothing more. i keep fighting the urge to move away from this place. i see things and i dream of being there, at that moment. i've traveled more this year than i ever had and it's wonderful to me. im alone in a room right now and i've got shit laying all over the place. and im hating the fact i've got to clean it all up. its just my craft stuff. unforunately i am not living at my house so that's why im sitting in a room all by myself, being bored. ive got 16 pieces to do and ive started on it but i am really sick of doing it right now. maybe ill finish them up this weekend when im off for the entire weekend and i feel like ive got nothing better to do than to craft. im still trying to figure out what to wear for this fashion show. alright im done. ill post pictures if i get them tomorrow. yay. xo.msjesshawk Blog yes
i end up spending it shooting.
which i cannot say is a bad thing because i love what i do and nothing more.

i keep fighting the urge to move away from this place. i see things and i dream of being there, at that moment. i've traveled more this year than i ever had and it's wonderful to me.

im alone in a room right now and i've got shit laying all over the place. and im hating the fact i've got to clean it all up.

its just my craft stuff. unforunately i am not living at my house so that's why im sitting in a room all by myself, being bored.

ive got 16 pieces to do and ive started on it but i am really sick of doing it right now. maybe ill finish them up this weekend when im off for the entire weekend and i feel like ive got nothing better to do than to craft.

im still trying to figure out what to wear for this fashion show.

alright im done.

ill post pictures if i get them tomorrow.

yay.

xo.msjesshawk
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76880/#comments 2 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/76880 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76880 Thu, 04 Sep 2008 00:52:04 GMT money going down all around. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76460 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk you gain money and you lose money. everyone talks of money. im looking for an outfit for this nyc thing but i should be looking for body paint to fix up my car and get rid of it. anyone going to it? i plan to do some networking if i dont end up getting all shy but i should put in some drinks in me then i'll be all good. and toasty. but then that night, we're gonna drive back home which is gonna suck. i've got to plan our sleep schedule in this. lol. but im very excited for my future because it's taking me to so many places that im shocked that i didnt do it before the baby days. makes me think what the hell did i do with myself? oh yeah. work. and work. but i bought everything and anything. i should just look through my clothes and find something but everything is all whacked. half my stuff is in this room, half in uhaul storage unit, and the rest in my shed. oh i hope none of it gets damaged. we rid of so much stuff because i figured we're getting a new house (technically not really, but it'll def. look a lot different) so it needs new stuff. we can finally pull out our new 42 in. flat screen and mount to the wall. which is gonna look freaking sweet. i plan to paint the walls, i dont know yet, i really want to do some type of decals, like a giant tree growing out of the sides, or something. I've been looking on etsy.com and there is a lot of different companies with some cool ideas. like i want a picture of a jellyfish attached to my toilet. its gonna look sweet. okay im done. xo.msjesshawk no wait. I put my mini top hats on sale on etsy.com so you should check it out. Blog yes

im looking for an outfit for this nyc thing but i should be looking for body paint to fix up my car and get rid of it.

anyone going to it? i plan to do some networking if i dont end up getting all shy but i should put in some drinks in me then i'll be all good. and toasty. but then that night, we're gonna drive back home which is gonna suck. i've got to plan our sleep schedule in this. lol.

but im very excited for my future because it's taking me to so many places that im shocked that i didnt do it before the baby days.

makes me think what the hell did i do with myself?

oh yeah. work. and work.

but i bought everything and anything.

i should just look through my clothes and find something but everything is all whacked.

half my stuff is in this room, half in uhaul storage unit, and the rest in my shed. oh i hope none of it gets damaged.

we rid of so much stuff because i figured we're getting a new house (technically not really, but it'll def. look a lot different) so it needs new stuff. we can finally pull out our new 42 in. flat screen and mount to the wall. which is gonna look freaking sweet.

i plan to paint the walls, i dont know yet, i really want to do some type of decals, like a giant tree growing out of the sides, or something. I've been looking on etsy.com and there is a lot of different companies with some cool ideas.

like i want a picture of a jellyfish attached to my toilet.

its gonna look sweet.

okay im done.

xo.msjesshawk

no wait. I put my mini top hats on sale on etsy.com so you should check it out.

]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76460/#comments 5 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/76460 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76460 Fri, 29 Aug 2008 03:41:09 GMT Fashion Show? NY? http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76307 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk Oh, I think so!  Hope to see you there!!! <img alt="" src="http://www.newyorkcouture.net/other/91008show1stpicc.jpg" /> Will post an update soon.  Pretty hectic!!! xo ms jesshawk Blog yes Oh, I think so! Hope to see you there!!!

Will post an update soon. Pretty hectic!!!

xo ms jesshawk]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76307/#comments 6 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/76307 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/76307 Wed, 27 Aug 2008 05:32:58 GMT packing sucks. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/75561 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk i am a horrible proscinator. im still packing. and my husband is getting mad at me for not packing. what's left is pretty much my stuff. but i cant help having too much stuff. so, im trying to figure out how i'm going to get to the official deviant nation event. i requested the weekend off just in case i make a trip of it. but it would be pretty rock star of me to fly there for a day then come right back. no luggage, just me and my pretty little purse. but my dad lives in california and i havent seen him for 2 years now and i figured i could take my daughter too and he can watch and hang out with her while i do some shopping and hanging with fellow deviants. but ill probably be really wasted at the event so maybe that would'nt be a good idea. and i wouldnt want to go on a airplane really drunk and past out before i arrive home. now that would be funny. hhmmm...what a pedicament. and i dont know how much it would cost for the models to attend or participate. who knows. anyone? Blog yes
im still packing.

and my husband is getting mad at me for not packing. what's left is pretty much my stuff.

but i cant help having too much stuff.

so, im trying to figure out how i'm going to get to the official deviant nation event.
i requested the weekend off just in case i make a trip of it.
but it would be pretty rock star of me to fly there for a day then come right back. no luggage, just me and my pretty little purse.

but my dad lives in california and i havent seen him for 2 years now and i figured i could take my daughter too and he can watch and hang out with her while i do some shopping and hanging with fellow deviants.

but ill probably be really wasted at the event so maybe that would'nt be a good idea. and i wouldnt want to go on a airplane really drunk and past out before i arrive home. now that would be funny.

hhmmm...what a pedicament. and i dont know how much it would cost for the models to attend or participate. who knows. anyone?
]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/75561/#comments 4 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/75561 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/75561 Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:13:33 GMT my nails hurt. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/75097 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk im still freaking packing. we had a yard sale today. and it started raining. and it ruined some stuff. it lasted for 15 minutes. then it got all nice and sunny. stupid fucking rain. Blog yes
we had a yard sale today. and it started raining. and it ruined some stuff. it lasted for 15 minutes.

then it got all nice and sunny.

stupid fucking rain.

]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/75097/#comments 5 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/75097 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/75097 Sun, 10 Aug 2008 20:48:09 GMT busy busy and more busy. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74798 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk and my child is not here to keep me more busy...but i do miss her and she'll be home today. she's with her grandmother up in her mountains. i know my daughter loves the great outdoors and farm animals and ride her ponies. and she'll be 2 this weekend. she's a wild one, i tell ya. ive been packing up for my home to get fixed up next week. what urks is that there is no actual date to be out of here and so ive been kinda slack to get things packed up. ive been busy with my etsy and making more stuff too. i havent gotten my camera fixed cuz i just dont have money for that sorta thing. it'll cost me at least 250 to replace that one little part. and im hungry right now and i dont want to cook. ill go eat some swedish fish. yum. more to come. Blog yes
she's with her grandmother up in her mountains. i know my daughter loves the great outdoors and farm animals and ride her ponies.

and she'll be 2 this weekend.

she's a wild one, i tell ya.

ive been packing up for my home to get fixed up next week. what urks is that there is no actual date to be out of here and so ive been kinda slack to get things packed up.

ive been busy with my etsy and making more stuff too.

i havent gotten my camera fixed cuz i just dont have money for that sorta thing.

it'll cost me at least 250 to replace that one little part.

and im hungry right now and i dont want to cook.

ill go eat some swedish fish.

yum.

more to come.]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74798/#comments 7 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/74798 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74798 Wed, 06 Aug 2008 18:37:59 GMT so it goes. what a day. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74183 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal Members Only Journal JessHawk Members Only Journal Blog yes JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74183/#comments 3 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/74183 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74183 Tue, 29 Jul 2008 22:02:19 GMT oh im freaking excited!! http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74004 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk my set is up and its early and im wide awake. here's all my grand thanks you's to everyone: thank you deviant nation. thank you daniel k for the make up. thank you LP for shooting me. thank you baxter for using your place. thank you atilla for coming with me to philly. and thank you fans for supporting me. xo.msjesshawk Blog yes
here's all my grand thanks you's to everyone:

thank you deviant nation.

thank you daniel k for the make up.

thank you LP for shooting me.

thank you baxter for using your place.

thank you atilla for coming with me to philly.

and thank you fans for supporting me.

xo.msjesshawk]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74004/#comments 3 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/74004 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/74004 Sun, 27 Jul 2008 13:44:52 GMT oh shit. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73919 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk beavis and butthead is on mtv2. i havent seen this is a long time. gosh. the weekend is here and i'm off this entire weekend which is awesome. i have a shoot this sunday and im going in with nothing. i know its a guy publishing a book but i have no idea what the direction will be. his work is pretty interesting so im excited about it. i hope my husband can come because i hate going alone to them. i know the world means well sometimes but i carry a can of mace everywhere. ive gotta learn how to use it. my set will be up soon and im so freaking excited. yeah ive been counting down and its been fun. ive been so freaking busy lately its ridiculous. more to come. xo.msjesshawk gonna stop eating these chips and cook some real food. Blog yes
the weekend is here and i'm off this entire weekend which is awesome.

i have a shoot this sunday and im going in with nothing. i know its a guy publishing a book but i have no idea what the direction will be. his work is pretty interesting so im excited about it.

i hope my husband can come because i hate going alone to them. i know the world means well sometimes but i carry a can of mace everywhere.

ive gotta learn how to use it.

my set will be up soon and im so freaking excited. yeah ive been counting down and its been fun.

ive been so freaking busy lately its ridiculous.

more to come.

xo.msjesshawk

gonna stop eating these chips and cook some real food.

]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73919/#comments 4 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/73919 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73919 Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:06:38 GMT im a little tired. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73491 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk im kinda beat. i wish i could sleep right now. i just realized the day my set debuts i will be at a shoot. so maybe it won't take too long and i could check out my naked body on the internet. hhahaha. when are shoots ever quick and easy? im obsessed with this site. its one of my top five sites i go on everyday. i enjoy everyones company. i finally got elliot smith's latest, new moon. i know he's dead and it took me this long to get it. im pretty slow on the whole technology stuff, 4 years from now ill finally get an ipod. or wait till they become obsolete and they beome 20 bucks a pop but then everyone will laugh at me. im just going to wait. more to come. Blog yes
i just realized the day my set debuts i will be at a shoot. so maybe it won't take too long and i could check out my naked body on the internet. hhahaha.

when are shoots ever quick and easy?

im obsessed with this site. its one of my top five sites i go on everyday. i enjoy everyones company.

i finally got elliot smith's latest, new moon. i know he's dead and it took me this long to get it. im pretty slow on the whole technology stuff, 4 years from now ill finally get an ipod. or wait till they become obsolete and they beome 20 bucks a pop but then everyone will laugh at me.

im just going to wait.

more to come.]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73491/#comments 7 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/73491 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73491 Sun, 20 Jul 2008 02:52:00 GMT here i am. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73374 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk so i havent been that busy but i havent written in awhile to assume that ive been busy. i dont know. ugh. my etsy is doing pretty well than i expected. i made myself a myspace page just for it so you should add me cuz i need friends. :) www.myspace.com/ascarletcreations yay! im hoping i get to go to philly soon to do some shoots. i miss philly . everytime i go i have the urge to move there. and everytime i sit here in va i wanna move to california. lol. i feel like i need to find a home or something. like this isnt my place. i dont know. more to come. xo.msjesshawk Blog yes
i dont know.

ugh. my etsy is doing pretty well than i expected. i made myself a myspace page just for it so you should add me cuz i need friends. :)

www.myspace.com/ascarletcreations

yay! im hoping i get to go to philly soon to do some shoots. i miss philly . everytime i go i have the urge to move there. and everytime i sit here in va i wanna move to california. lol. i feel like i need to find a home or something. like this isnt my place.

i dont know.

more to come.

xo.msjesshawk]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73374/#comments 3 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/73374 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/73374 Fri, 18 Jul 2008 15:47:05 GMT No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72901 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk <img height="300" width="196" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135033/" /> yay. i loved this shoot with Destroy Inc. He's a photographer from CA. Enjoy! <img height="372" width="300" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135034/" /> and more.... <img height="300" width="209" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135035/" /> getting ready to pack, my house is getting fixed up and im ready to go shopping for new decor. i plan to get flocked wallpaper and finally get our big t.v. mounted on the wall. so stoked. going fabric shopping tomorrow morning. i know im excited. Blog yes

yay. i loved this shoot with Destroy Inc. He's a photographer from CA. Enjoy!

and more....

getting ready to pack, my house is getting fixed up and im ready to go shopping for new decor. i plan to get flocked wallpaper and finally get our big t.v. mounted on the wall. so stoked.

going fabric shopping tomorrow morning. i know im excited.]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72901/#comments 9 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/72901 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72901 Fri, 11 Jul 2008 23:42:32 GMT war all the time. http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72636 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk <img height="350" width="350" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/134755/" /> this is what i did over the weekend. And got lost 2x going that way and only 1x going back home. Oh i hate getting lost and wasting gas. This is me and model LiLi. She's such a doll and she did the make up. I got to listen to a bunch of c.d's that I totally forgot that I own and it was great to think about the good times. the old times. i listened to some beta band, kid kilowatt, thursday. Blog yes

this is what i did over the weekend. And got lost 2x going that way and only 1x going back home. Oh i hate getting lost and wasting gas.

This is me and model LiLi. She's such a doll and she did the make up.

I got to listen to a bunch of c.d's that I totally forgot that I own and it was great to think about the good times. the old times.

i listened to some beta band, kid kilowatt, thursday.]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72636/#comments 7 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/72636 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72636 Tue, 08 Jul 2008 17:44:16 GMT why havent i written? http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72377 [Deviant Nation] JessHawk's Journal JessHawk i havent written in a while. im digging all these new girls. and its only been the 4th day. gosh i cant wait to see more boobies. <img height="300" width="225" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/134388/" /> i dyed my hair red for an upcoming shoot. and i cut pretty much all my hair in the back. im stoked i was even able to do that. also, this photo was more for my etsy.com but hey, i try to post as many photos as i can. gonna go see the fireworks soon. yay. more to come. oh i did an awesome shoot with sayer photography and hopefully it gets into east coast ink magazine. im going to keep my fingers crossed. Blog yes
im digging all these new girls. and its only been the 4th day. gosh i cant wait to see more boobies.

i dyed my hair red for an upcoming shoot.
and i cut pretty much all my hair in the back. im stoked i was even able to do that.

also, this photo was more for my etsy.com but hey, i try to post as many photos as i can.

gonna go see the fireworks soon. yay.

more to come.

oh i did an awesome shoot with sayer photography and hopefully it gets into east coast ink magazine. im going to keep my fingers crossed.]]> JessHawk Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72377/#comments 2 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/72377 http://deviantnation.com/members/JessHawk/72377 Fri, 04 Jul 2008 23:38:22 GMT