[Deviant Nation] Jessie_Lee's Journal

Don't you hate..

Jessie_Lee — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 09:50:51 GMT

After you have crazy good sex, you're completely awake after? I swear I've been sleeping all day because I knew I was going to be having sex all night haha. I've been so fucking horny lately, that today is just what I needed. My adorable boyfriend is all tired out and sleeping in my bed, while I look at internet porn in the other room.

Anyway, I'm super pumped for this weekend. My mom and sister are coming into town for the weekend. They want to do all the tourist type stuff while they're here. Which means I'm going to have to take them to Times Square. Ugh I hate heavily populated tourist areas in NYC. This is why I have yet to do any kind of sight seeing. But I guess it could be fun. :D

JIM ROSE IS A BAD MAN

Jessie_Lee — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 19:03:37 GMT

He seems like a super nice guy at first. Well at least he did to me. But these past couple of days rehearsing with him have proven that horribly wrong. The first day of rehearsal I was supposed to do this levitation trick. It involves me supporting my whole entire body weight on my knee. The knee I was supposed to support everything on, I broke about 15 years ago. So apparently because I couldn't do the trick, it counted as me complaining. So what does he do to express this to me? He pulls me into a side room (with my boyfriend), and begins to tell me what a disapointment I am, how I'm high maitenance, and that I complain too much. Oh and everytime I tried defending myself he would start telling me I was giving too many excuses. That was just day 1. Day 2 consisted of him cutting half my stunts, telling me "it's insurance to make sure the show goes well". The fucking nerve of this guy. Usually when someone is the director, they tell you whether you should be on stage right or stage left, right? Well when I asked him which looked better, he seriously screamed at me. He's a fucking monster. I feel so bad for the rest of the crew that has to put up with his bullshit. They deserve better, way better. I'm a very strong person, but he made me feel helpless. These past 2 days after I got home from rehearsal, I cried my eyes out for 3 hours straight. He does this thing where he makes you feel unhuman. He'll talk to you like you're his dog. All while demanding your respect.

Jim Rose, I hope you rot in hell. :D

I always try and keep busy..

Jessie_Lee — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 06:28:55 GMT

By doing absolutely everything in my power to book every second of my life up. Fun right? I guess I'm kind of OCD about it. Tomorrow morning I have a last minute shoot for Darestars. I've worked with them twice before and they love me. I have no idea why haha. NYMatt and Emily work for them, so I kinda get paid to hang out with my friends all day. It's pretty awesome. Thursday we get to hand out flyers and stuff. Yay for being social with NYC strangers. It should be interesting. Later that night I get to hand out Sparks and Sparks merchandise to drunk hipster kids at Don Hills. Oh, and then I get to Gogo right after.

Friday is the 4th, so I expect my boyfriend to take me somewhere fun. I'm making it his job ha. Saturday might be another Stairway To Hell performance at Rebel. I'm not sure if we're still doing the weekly performances anymore. Oh yeah, so Jim Rose decided to take over STH and make it his own. He's bringing the production to the Fringe Festival in Scotland late July. Awesome right? An experience of a lifetime. Although I have to hustle on making money for the next 3 weeks so I can pay my bills while in Edinburgh. Once I hit the $2,000 mark, I'll be content. :D

Anyway, I talked to my friend Igor at DrivenByBoredom.com, and I'm going to have him take photos of me for DN. I'm actually super excited, and I think we can make some photo magic happen. I have some really awesome and funny concepts for sets. You're just going to have to wait and see!!!

Now it's off to bed for me! I have to be up in like 6 hours for my shoot tomorrow. Oh and I'm making my boyfriend dinner right after. This should be fun. ;)

i was on howard stern wednesday morning.

Jessie_Lee — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 23:50:49 GMT

i was a contestant in the gameshow "porn stars vs. slow adults". it was me, memphis monroe, and brooke scott on the porn stars team. andrea (miss howards stern), bigfoot, and mark the bagger on the slow adults team. you can actually go to howardstern.com to look at what went down. it's on the "best of the week" at the top. or you can go to the june 4th archived show to see everything! it was super fun, and everyone was sooooooo nice to me. it was seriously a dream come true. oh and the best part of it all was that memphis, brooke and i won 5 grand to split between us. yep, i made $1,666 in that short hour i was on the show. this was all thanks to mitch and joanna angel. if it wasn't for them, i wouldn't have got put on the show last minute. although i have wait a week or so for the check with my winnings. i hope it comes to me before i go to buffalo. i have a tattoo apointment when i go back home. the only other money i'll have is the money from "stairway to hell", and the money from my set that went live on DN that should be coming to me soon, i hope.

oh yeah btw, every saturday night for the next 8 weeks, i'll be dancing in the off broadway play called "stairway to hell'. you can catch it at rebel on 30th between 7th and 8th avenue. its right near penn station. if you want more details, go to stairwaytohellny.com!! it's totally worth it. come and see me shake my thang!! :D

oh and p.s. i got myself one of those boyfriend things that i'm absolutely crazy about. <3333

SUPER DUPER!!

Jessie_Lee — Thu, 22 May 2008 09:15:07 GMT

I'm super excited about my new set going up. I had a lot of fun with Marcos that day shooting it. I honestly forgot that was even in the Q for going up until they changed my banner and little icon thingy lol. I'm in a good 4 month rotation for new sets on this site. I want to keep it like that. I might shoot a few more within the course of the next few weeks. I have lots of ideas. Lots and lots!! Although I would absolutely love to shoot with Lithium Picnic for this site. It would make me smile a bunch. So um dear Mr. Lithium Picnic.. Come to NYC and make some photo magic with me. I swear it'll be grand. :D

Anyway.. My first feature DVD came out Tuesday. Go buy it and watch me get railed from behind in a bathroom. It's super hot I swear. ;)

I guess that's all for now. I kind of have a lot of nothing going on lately. I've been super busy, yet not productive. It kind of sucks. Oh yeah, I quit smoking. Like last week'ish. It's super hard, and I find myself wanting to give in every few hours. Now I have no more vices left. I have no more bad habits. I need to indulge myself in something. Any suggestions?? <3

busy busy busy!!

Jessie_Lee — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:24:09 GMT

Hello hello! So the whole not drinking thing has been going super awesome for me. Thank you to all of you out there that gave me support with it. I've actually lost a ton of weight from not drinking either. It's awesome!! I've been getting people telling me they've noticed it in my face. Now that i don't spend all my money on drinking, I can buy myself more important things.. Like tattoos, getting my nails done, traveling, and maintaining my hair. I think I was spending a good $150 a week on alcohol. Plus, I have seen myself as being more fun when I'm out. Instead of depending on alcohol to have a good time, I just try to have my own fun. :D

Anyway.. I got myself a new tattoo! TRUE LUST across my knucks. I love it! Oh and I finally redid my hair. I shaved one half, and put extensions in the other half. Just like Maja from The Sounds. But instead of blonde, it's Atomic Pink and Black. It looks rad.

I guess I don't have much to update about. I've just been super busy with everything lately. When I'm not doing something, I'm sleeping. It's nice to finally catch up on the sleep I've been missing out on for the past month or so. I feel sooooooo refreshed!!! Oh yeah, friday night was the 6 year anniversary party for one of the sites myself, and other dn girls model for. It was crazy and wild. Although someone stole our fucking banner. I hope that person rots in hell haha. If you missed it, go to drivenbyboredom.com. It has all the evidence. It was an insane night. Absolutely wild!!!!!! I'm posting a few pictures from the night. <3

Oh and p.s..
Some of the dvds i'm featured in come out soon!!!! I have like 5 things coming out this year on dvd. :D

P.S. GO TO THEROCKVINE.COM
i'm the hot girl of the month!!!!! <3

So I've been kind of neglecting this journal..

Jessie_Lee — Sat, 22 Mar 2008 14:17:14 GMT

And I apologize!!! This actually use to be one of the ONLY journals I posted in. Now I have tons. I rather make every entry personal. Because I think it's lame to just copy and paste every time I have something to say. Which I'm actually guilty of a couple times. Whoops. :P

Anyway, I quit the dungeon. It's too much work for me at this moment. Plus, it's definitely something I don't see myself doing 10 years down the road. Money isn't very consistent with it anyway. Being an alt girl kind of sucks in that business too. The mainstream girls usually get sessions handed to them. It doesn't even matter if they are drop dead gorgeous. They just have to be "innocent" looking. So fuck that, I am not competing with mainstream. Being discriminated in a such community is retarded. Maybe I just need a break from it. I might possibly consider going back part time in a year. If it doesn't work out again, I'll know it's not meant to be.

This year is going to be a good year for me. I have a bunch of features released in 2008. My first feature will be out next month for ba. Then the Spice/Playboy movie will be out sometime in Spring. That's pretty much back to back. I'm super excited!! Oh and, sometime over the next few months I'll be trying to shoot a bunch of content for my own site. I haven't bought the domain or designed anything as of yet. But it doesn't hurt to get as much content as I can for the time being right? :D

Oh also, I have BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG news. It's basically life changing. Or at least feels that way. Ready? So, I've stopped drinking, doing drugs, and having sex. GASP!!! Ha yeah, I'm trying celibacy and sobriety for once. It was super hard at first, mainly because I am an alcoholic. But the more I was at bars with certain individuals (mainly Apathy and Dusty), the easier it was for me to find fun without being intoxicated. I just like to have fun, act like an idiotic retard, and dance. I'm so glad to have friends to support my decisions. It makes my whole world a lot easier. I know you're probably saying, "Celibacy? But she does porn!". Correction, porn is a job. It's a lot of work. Ask anyone who does it, they will say the same thing.

Well, that's a bit of an update of my current state. Joanna and I might be doing some warped dates, and making appearances. She's going to talk to bands this week after the Holidays. So, we might be in your city at some point this summer. I'll keep you all posted on what dates I'll be on. I'm having 8x11's printed out for me, so feel free to ask for a signed one when you see me.

Okay, time to rap up my rambling. Love you all!! Ciao! <3

i have a proposition for you..

Jessie_Lee — Sat, 15 Mar 2008 13:07:06 GMT

This year I would love to do some merch for a band on Warped Tour. I already have my friend Dennis over at Alesana working on this for me. Because he's super rad and stuff. :P

Anyway, these are perks of bringing me on tour with you..
-I am a hot chick who does porn. Who doesn't want to buy shit from hot chicks?!
-I am super fucking awesome. Just ask anyone, including a bunch of the DN models. You will see me as one of the guys in no time.
-I will promote for you on the many sites I model for. People do read my blogs. :)
-I model for a bunch of altporn sites, so you could watch endless amounts of porn on my computer. :D

If you need any other reasons on why this is an awesome idea, send an email to my myspace page..
myspace.com/jessieleemodeling

<3

vegas

Jessie_Lee — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 20:03:35 GMT

was amazing. for sure. had the time of my life! met so many great people that night. thank you mario for flying me out and placing me in a room for the night. anyway, here's a photo from the red carpet! you can find lots more on spyonvegas.com <3

it's almost here.

Jessie_Lee — Fri, 08 Feb 2008 02:06:29 GMT

Here is the official flier for the Cat O'Nine party this upcoming Wednesday night. :D

FETISH PARTY!!!!!!!!

Jessie_Lee — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 23:24:42 GMT

ever wanted to go to a sweet ass fetish party in nyc? right in the east village? at LIT lounge of all places? well now you can. i am hosting a fetish party, along with other lovely nyc mistresses. it's called cat o'nine. here's an article on it..

http://www.skintwo.com/wordpress/2008/02/04/cat-o-nine-sm-play-party-in-new-york-february-13th/#more-604

or the myspace is http://www.myspace.com/catoninenyc <3

february 13th.
93 2nd ave. btwn 5th and 6th.

and thennnnnnnn..

i'm hosting the next rated-x party on the 16th.
it's at don hills more then likely.
i'll also be topless more then likely. ;)

whoa.

Jessie_Lee — Thu, 31 Jan 2008 17:03:17 GMT

so after giving up on this one guy, i meet another one. totally unexpected. we had a wonderful night last night. he's probably the best kisser ever. for reals. i'm all smiles today. :D

yummy.

Jessie_Lee — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 18:57:23 GMT

how can you tell if yogurt went bad? i don't normally eat yogurt, but my diet plan tells me to eat it. gross. it got thrown out after 4 bites. i should have bought silk yogurt. that stuffs the bomb. word up.

last night i gave michael t a lap dance. it was his birthday. i did a special birthday performance to nasty naughty boy by christina aguilera. i was drunk ha. but everyone loved it ha. then the other ba girls and i presented him with a black penis cake. mmm it was delicious. i wish i could have ate more. stupid diets ha. anyway, now i'm at work and bored. i'm still in my ba booty shorts from last night because i'm too lazy to shower ha. i should probably go do that soon. after my coffee it might be an option. after i shower i might go buy some yarn. dear emily, teach me how to make other things then a scarf. i need your guidance! <3

amazing.

Jessie_Lee — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 00:31:41 GMT

my nye was crazzzzzzzy. i met and hung out with draven all night. we even made out a bunch! eeeeee! then the hot body contest happened. we totally should have won. we made boners magically appear. haha. anyway, i have a new place. in williamsburg. right by all the sweet hip things. it's "dorm style". so even though i don't have a big room, i have my OWN room. sure beats couches right? oh and, my own mini fridge! zing! haha. friday was my really good friend january's birthday. she celebrated it at the adult drawing that was held at cosm. it's alex grays gallery. the guy who drew the newest tool cover. his work is amazing. i definitely recommend checking out his gallery. you will be in awe. well, life seems to be ultra sweet for me at the moment. i'm so glad all the stress is finally over. it's been a long couple of months. now i get to enjoy my 2008. <3

p.s. i saw matt and emily friday night!! yay!! i love love love them! <3333

anyone else have this sort of problem?

Jessie_Lee — Wed, 19 Dec 2007 12:28:53 GMT

anticipating a review on altporn.net and having the guy being a total dick? all of my reviews have been the same. he'll say something about my hair, tattoos, or boobs. then he'll go and say something completely negative? he seems to favor other sites, or other types of girls. it just bums me out because i think marcos did an amazing job on my set. the guy didn't even say anything about that. eh, can't win em all i guess..

Next in line???

Jessie_Lee — Sat, 01 Dec 2007 23:56:08 GMT

I'm totally next in line for their set going up. I can taste it! Ahhhhhhhhh I'm dying with anticipation!!! Oh and, December 11th.. I GOT TO PORN LAND!!!! YAY!!!! I'll come back with nothing but a smile on my face haha. <3

i'm drunk ha

Jessie_Lee — Wed, 21 Nov 2007 10:02:11 GMT

and in buffalo. my home town!! woohoo!! after my 10 hour train ride (which was supposed to be 7 and a half hours) i finally arrived! i saw soooooo many of my old friends tonight. got drunk on $20!! $3.50 captain and diets are my favorite. sure beats $7. tomorrow night is going to be crazy fun. thanksgiving eve is the biggest party night of the whole year. i plan on going to at least 6 bars, and spending very little, or no money. i love coming back home to visit. everyone always gives me the best hugs. :)

mmm porn

Jessie_Lee — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 00:56:26 GMT

I get to go to LA from December 8th til the 15th for some sweet porn. Ahhhhh I'm excited!!!!!!! <3

fleshbot.com

Jessie_Lee — Wed, 24 Oct 2007 21:20:28 GMT

i made it to fleshbot.com

for my set with my friend dusty, that was in a bathroom featured on drivenbyboredom.com

check it out.

i'm very proud. :)

so yeah..

Jessie_Lee — Wed, 17 Oct 2007 21:39:27 GMT

i'm glad i'm such a great person, and actually care about others well beings. if it wasn't for this girl, i would have found an apartment, and would still have well over a couple hundred dollars. i looked out for her because we were both in the same situation. it's not my fault she decided to look for a job at the last moment. i even brought her along with me to a couple ba shoots so she could get some mua shots for her portfolio. now, i'm homeless, and she still gets to sleep in that same apartment with everything still being bought for her. she's manipulative, and a very bad person. but now i never have to see her again. i have a pair of her worn out cowboy boots, and a few makeup brushes. which i thought she gave to me. but now she wants them back. she didn't text me with anything close to, "hey, how are you doing? have you found anywhere to live yet?" instead it's, "i want my boots and brushes back." okay you little snot, give me all the money i spent on you back, and then i'll return your things. sounds like a fair deal right? ugh i wish things got better for me at the moment. :(

well now..

Jessie_Lee — Wed, 10 Oct 2007 03:47:54 GMT

today was my first day as a domme. it was fun. i love a profession where you get paid to torture gentlemen. :)

dear diary..

Jessie_Lee — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 06:49:12 GMT

tonight was the night from hell. i clenched my fists for hours. ugh so frustrated. grrrr.

boobs

Jessie_Lee — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 19:52:06 GMT

so on a happier note, my friend jess who dj's trash at rafifis every friday in the east village, put my photos up from our mini shoot. on indierotica.com. they look hot. it seems like the only thing i have to look forward to lately is porn and shoots. blah.

great!!!!!!!!!

Jessie_Lee — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 05:10:48 GMT

i was told i have 2 weeks to find a new place now. apparently, my roommate (yeah the one i had an issue with before) was sublenting (yeah i also probably spelled that wrong) my room to me. the lease was for 2 people. which didn't include me or my roommate danielle. so now we have 2 weeks. YES 2 FUCKING WEEKS TO FIND A NEW PLACE!!!!!!! wonderful. ugh. this is so annoying. grrrrr.

p.s. does anyone want to donate me money? or furniture?? anything would help right now.

so sore.

Jessie_Lee — Sat, 29 Sep 2007 02:19:56 GMT

my legs hurts. especially my thighs. who knew porn would be this horrible on someone's body. i have 2 more videos on sunday and monday. one with tommy pistol, and one with james deen. ugh they're super hot. i'm very much looking forward to it! tomorrow i get to go back to the set and hangout. joanna told me mtv will be there, and i should come so i can be on tv ha. so i guess you will all see me on tv soon. woohoo!! i need to set up more shoots these next couple weeks. i'm also trying to set up some vividalt stuff. i talked to eon mckai via myspace today. hooray for porn!!! my goal is to become a porn star ha. anyway, i'm going to williamsburg to get some coffee with my roommate. mmm fun! <3