[Deviant Nation] Shotgun's Journal

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Shotgun — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 20:36:27 GMT

my account expired.

I'll be back when i can sort stuffs out

ily

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Shotgun — Sat, 19 Jul 2008 13:47:39 GMT

ooooooooooooooooooo

so yeah, my ass hurts.

Things are a bit better, I confronted the person head on, because myspace is for children (of which he is one)

I've been working a lot lately, have a lot of stuff to upload for ya'll; new tattoos and new piercings.

Speaking of piercings.. My second barbell came out of my left nipple, and then mysteriously my right one did.. so I had to go get my second holes re-pierced for the third time in a year.

He went behind the scar tissue, so hopefully they won't reject/fall out.

My titties are sore though.

pictures tonight after work... i gotta go sell some mad tattyzappins. YAY.

Thank you Mayhem and BAUNFIRE for making me feel lovez0red.

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Shotgun — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 06:24:50 GMT

Goodbye deviantnation my life is officially fucked up thanks to two pieces of shit.

thanks for ruining my marriage, and thanks for ruining my life. I will miss you guys, but the real world drama has hit me full fucking force.

Mayhem convinced me to stay, but I am not a happy camper. AT ALL. Who the FUCK has the right to sit here and tell me that I'm a frivolous spender with mine and my HUSBAND'S money? The same money that my HUSABND gave them 3500$ of to pay bills, tickets, and medical with but yet they spend on toys? THE SAME FUCKING PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO PROBLEM LETTING ME PAY FOR DINNER AND OTHER THINGS?! Then they have the fucking BALLSACK to to tell me to fucking use that money to go get therapy because I'm 'bi-polar'?

I'm sorry but my husband is married to ME not them.

I am sick of highschool bullshit. STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE.

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Shotgun — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 23:06:53 GMT

So I just got out of the hospital. I'm not going to be here for a while.

<3

July boobies made me feel a little better though, everyone please take care of yourselves.

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Shotgun — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 06:43:08 GMT

Is it ok that I'm compromising my happiness just because he's in Iraq?

I feel stuck....

In other news. I'm still in dallas, but having the time of my life... GUILT TRIPS INCLUDED.

touuuchhhh meee down theerrree

Shotgun — Sat, 12 Jul 2008 16:02:32 GMT

DALLAS WAS AMAZING.

nix the part where I broke my hand.
Nix the part where my photoshoot partner didn't show up.

Add the part where FATE smiled at me and said; We're putting all your hard work in theatrical make-up to the test.

I did the hair and make-up of the most beautiful girl ever. In the most beautiful penthouse suite ever, with the most high-stress enviroment ever.

I am now OFFICIALLY a professional hair and make-up artist. My credentials will tell you that I've only had training in bruise wheels, horror, bullet/body casting, but after this weekend I have been tagged a pro. No joke. I was so proud of myself, I have never been praised that much in my life. So hopefully I really will be backed/sponsored by U.D.

we shot at the Mosaic in dallas, in the penthouse. The owner of VisualVixens' place, he is obviously very tasteful in art and decor, I drooled for fucking hours.

I can now add make-up artist to;
Being a writer
and a model-ish
A bomber car racer
a paintballer
and a GANGSTA.

I'm in the process of making my pro page on myspizzle. I will be called DIRTY SOUTH M.A.U.

The name comes from my new oh so awesome toe tattoos which do read 'dirty south'

So all I have to say is
THANK YOU LADIEBIRD PHOTOGRAPHY

THANK YOU VISUAL VIXENS
THANK YOU DEVIL TOWN TRIAD
THANK YOU CASH FELLLLLOOOONNNN
THANK YOU JAY
THANK YOU EVERYONE.

My tragedy led to the most amazing and promising experience of my life, this is my calling, I honestly believe it. Not many people have the opportunity to get to do what I did friday.

Ahhhh I love horrorcore rappers.

Shotgun — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 17:41:36 GMT

So tomorrow I have a shoot with another model from 'visual vixxens' I don't know her, but whatever.... Hopefully LincolnLush will be there since I didn't get to see her at warped. :( It's a shoot for my friend Sandra's b.d.'s rap group.. we get to look like rape and strangle victims! Yayyyyyy!!!! I've been informed that I will be ducttaped to a chair in my Hello Kitty dress. hahahaha... Oh lawd. I am super excited.

I am also going to be in the Shop Girl issue of Inked Mag. :: claps hands :: I'm pretty excited....

So here'sa picture!

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Shotgun — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 23:15:27 GMT

I love it when people leave song lyrics in my truth box to 'describe' me.

This is what I got today.

beauty over wisdom to fit in with their style
your Cinderella story's for a price
vanity's a business built to fleece the unique
silicon and stars collide, the rest will fall in line

just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
you should have seen this coming all along

visually you're stimulating to my eyes
your Cinderella syndrome's full of lies
your insecurities are concealed by your pride
pretty soon your ego will kill what's left inside

just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
you should have seen this coming all along
It's so pitiful what you are
as beautiful as you are
you should have seen this coming all along

you're everything that's so typical
maybe you're alone for a reason, you're the reason

it's so pitiful what you are, you should have seen this coming all along

just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
you should have seen this coming all along
It's so pitiful what you are
as beautiful as you are
you should have seen this coming all along

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Shotgun — Tue, 08 Jul 2008 22:49:00 GMT

You say you’re down on your luck
Hey baby It’s a long, long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears
You say you’re really down and out
And you feel like there’s no way out now
Let go now let go of your tears some more

How many times have you asked yourself?
Is this the hand of fate now that I’ve been dealt?
You’re so disillusioned this can’t be real
And you can’t stand now the way you feel

I don’t care about what they say
I won’t live or die that way
Tired of figuring out things on my own
Angel’s wings won’t you carry me home?

And when you’re down on your luck
Hey baby It’s a long, long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears
And when you’re really down and out
And you feel like there’s no way out now
Let go now, let go of your tears some more

I triumphed in the face of adversity
And I became the man I never thought I’d be
And now my biggest challenge, a thing called love
I guess I’m not as tough as I thought I was

I don’t care about what they say
I wanna marry you some day
Gonna wake up, it’s a brand new day
Angel’s wings gonna carry you away
Angel’s wings gonna carry me away
Angel’s wings gonna carry us away

I love this song something fierce, I've been listening to it over and over again all day, I'm just in that mood. We got rained out, so we couldn't do the set, it's fine though I have tomorrow and thursday. :) I am in a weird mood, not really upset or happy, just kinda blah. I'm pretty hungry too, I get to eat sushi tonight with my momma. I love sushiiiii.

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Shotgun — Tue, 08 Jul 2008 06:51:32 GMT

I GOT MY HELLO KITTY DRESS TODAY, YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY

I OT IT!

IT'S SOOO CUTE ON ME.

And we're doing a shoot in it tomorrow.

omg it actually supports my massive tatas!

Speaking of tatas! july is the best month EVAR EVAR.

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Shotgun — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 03:07:34 GMT

I'm going to jail!

Yay!

murder!

No, but seriously, my anger management coach thinks I need to be heavily medicated. I'm about to kill a fucking bastard.

I'm an angry person, sorry.

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Shotgun — Sat, 05 Jul 2008 21:08:10 GMT

I'm going to start writing again, starting with an interview with The Bronx, and then hopefully against me... Damn it feelsgood to be a gangster. I had almost given up on modeling until my friend sandra came along with her ladie bird photography, and offered to shoot me for a head shop in rockwall... Yeppers. So there's that... Alamo city convention is 11th-13th.. I'll be getting tattooed by CMFL from I-45, then on the 27th the very talented Mattskin (my best mother fucking friend) is coming down to guest spot at Bombshell with DJMinor in houston, and hopefully I-45. He is the one that tattooed my hand and thigh, so if you're in the area come get something done.

On a more serious note, some of you know my husband and I have been having problems.. well... They sent him on an iraqy policing mission where they previously lost some hmmm six guys and 20 vehicles... well.... there's rumors going around.. and i haven't heard from him.. Idon't know what to do. His birthday is the ninth, he's going to be ok, I still love him, I really do... I don't know what I'll do if the rumors are true...

hmmmmmmmm

Shotgun — Fri, 04 Jul 2008 23:30:34 GMT

www.youtube.com/watch

This song pretty much explains me.

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Shotgun — Fri, 04 Jul 2008 18:34:29 GMT

Dear MC Chris;

You.... made me so happy..... Nrrrd Grrrl.. and you spoke to me, and you signed my things without me standing in line like a dumbass.

And now, we have a picture together for forever!

I think I love you.

Your biggest Nrrrd Grrrl.

Kayla

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Shotgun — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 16:41:58 GMT

WARPED TOUR WARPED TOUR WARPED TOUR IS TOMORRROOOOWWWWWWWW.

:: dances ::

Then Alamo City tattoo convention next weekend, art walk in hotsprings this weekend...

MAN busy busy busyyyy.

somehwere in between there i need to get my throat finished, and my ribs started.

BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

I'm sooooooooo excited dsfjkfddhsfsfhfkjsdfhdsfjskdhskfsfsdds

:: dances ::

BTW I haven't been to sleep yet, but, all's fair in excitement and shit.

waorped tourzzzzzzz

Shotgun — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 05:32:59 GMT

THURSDAY.

hopefully the lovely LincolnLush will be joining me.

mai headz iz shaevdz

peectures 2morrow.

I look like I'm starting to show, I'm not pregnant... unless you count 20 years of eating!

Hahahaha mmmm food babies!

And yes RAPTOR JESUS and CTHULHU rib pieces coming soon.

P.S. I'm pretty sure I have a hellacious UTI. Disgusting, but i just spent like an hour and a half bent over in pain, and I could almost feel my fucking kidneys coming out of my back.

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Shotgun — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 19:55:48 GMT

I LOVE GWIN HOLY SHIT.

You guys are going to see the most beautiful lady ever EVER, seriously.. i swear i bugged her for a week to submit here. :: dances :: I'm so excited.

P.S. I LOVE JULY boobie month!

and, with my 99$ digital camera, and it's shitty flash i present to you....

ME ON THE TOILET

Such a difference between who I am and who you see.

Shotgun — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 07:08:55 GMT

I love alanis morissette's new cd!

Strait Jacket makes me all agro.

Especially when she's all 'I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU'RE TALKING TO WITH SUCH FUCKING DISRESPECT'

Yeah you tell 'em girlfraaaaannnddddd.

anyways.

How is everyone doing?

<3

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Shotgun — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 02:00:23 GMT

Chalking it up to experience, just because my BMFF is going to teach his a lesson.

Thanks you guys for the support.

I've been getting a lot of random penis pictures on my phone? hahahaha like two wrong numbers in the last 12 hours.

Maybe more people need to wrong number it up.

COCKS!

Caturday was awesome, we celebrated with a litter box cake, decorating backpacks for warped tour 'deviant nation' style, and shaving my head.. ok so we didn't shave it yet, but we totally will.

I...

Shotgun — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 07:49:23 GMT

Hate boys.

Where's the real men?

I hung out with the guy that took my virginity tonight.

THREE YEARS! i haven't spoke a single word to him in three years!

And before that it was two years.

So.. I get to his hotel, because he's in town for the night.

We hug, and talk.. and I take him to Wal-mart so he can get some stuff.. And then I bust my ass at wal-mart.

We get back to his hotel, and I ONLY WANT TO HANG OUT. i know it's wrong for me to be there, because he's always fucked with my head, and hurt me emotionally and physically, but I thought he could change in five years.

Nope.

We were joking around in the room, and he poked me, so I popped him in the chest.
He grabbed my wrists and shoved me, YES SHOVED ME, into the wall.

i was done at that point, I left, walked out, and he chased me like a madman to my car.

I didn't know what to do, I'm hysterical. I can't tell my husband, because he's so jealous and paranoid, and I WAS AT A HOTEL with a guy I have history with.

Should I press charges? I don't know, I'll wait until my dad wakes up.... He's a cop, he'll tell me what to do.

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Shotgun — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 16:15:21 GMT

OH MY GOD WHERE THE FUCK DID NOXIOUS GO?!?!?!

WHERE'S MY GIRLFRIEND?!?!?

:: bawls ::

p.s. I'm going to Baunfire's house.

We're going to get naked.

hehehehe

poots!

Shotgun — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 05:23:16 GMT

I think flatulance is HILLLLAAARIIIIOOOUSSSS (when I stretch words out like that, it means I can't spell them right) anyways, I just farted... and it SOUNDED just like TAPS on the trumpet.. I've never had noisy farts. I'm amused.. I will eat the same thing I ate today every day for the rest of my life. SERIOUSLY.

anyways. I got a new job today :D

i'm the desk girl at the nicest shop here in town.

It pretty much went like this.

owner: heard you need a job?
Me: yeahhh...

Owner: ok well, you can start by answering the phones, and making people fill out paperwork..

PIYAW.

really.

Seriously.

and I'm working with my big brother! I miss him, we don't see each other much.
today was amazing

Getting tattooed tomorrow.

<3

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Shotgun — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 02:06:16 GMT

I really like bubble baths. I really like deviantnation.

So I thought I'd share my bubble bath fun with deviantnation.

I also like guns... which i got a new 9mm today. <3

life is good without a job, life is good period. I've been so relaxed. I'm going to south padre island friday to next friday to just relax drink, and go swimming.

Life is good.

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Shotgun — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 08:11:27 GMT

maybe it's just because my uterus is trying to claw my way out of my vagina, or it's because they're so cute...
BUT I WANT A FUCKING BABY.

So bad.. so very bad.

like really.

LOOK AT MY NEPHEWS. My sister makes beautiful kids, I'm jealous;