[Deviant Nation] Vera's Journal

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Vera — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 05:22:10 GMT

Sorry I havent been updating much.

I've been dealing with a REALLY bad toothache. Its horrible. I'm too scared to go to the dentist though. Ugh. I know what is wrong. 2/3 years ago my litttllleeee holes in my 2 right back teeth cracked, thanks to the air pressure in the cabin of a plane and i've been dealing with it since. But now is the first time it has caused me pain. Blahhhhhhhh.

So I did a shoot for DN on Thursday and I just about passed out. Yeah thnx stupid tooth. I felt really embarrased haha. I enjoyed it. The guy said the pics look reallllllllllllly cool. So I'm excitied to recieve the picturess.

Um im really hungry.
I've decided to go on a diet of sorts I guess.
I brought a really cute dress and when I got home the zip on it broke because I am so fat ;___;
All my zips have been breaking. I feel so emo haha.
I'm a size 12, going into a 14 I guess.
I weigh 65 kgs - about 140 lbs I think.
I want to lose atleast 10 kg.

So I'm gonna cut down on the fatty junk food I usually eat.
Go for a walk early in the morning around my area. Might start down my road, onto the main road walk up to the next suburb and then back down to my house.
Then a run in the evening.

I'm too poor to join a gym, but even if i did I would never go. I feel all light headed. I don't know why. uGH. I think I might make a baked potato for dinner.

Near death experience + Noodz

Vera — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 02:45:39 GMT

nearly died from asphyxiation today
srsly.
i had a photoshoot where i was been strangled with a piece of ribbon and the guy tugged it too hard and omg....
at first i felt light headed, then a bit of double vision. But I knew to freak out when I couldn't hear anything anymore.
I actually could feel myself like leaving my body. It was weird. Like I don't think I was going to die or anything, but i now know what it is like for people that hang themselves.
Its scary, yet peaceful. Hmmm.

Here is a picture from the other day.

Oooho ooooh and I am shooting a set next week. My crazy ass mother is fineeeee with it, cause I have shot with this guy before. I think you guys are gonna love it. Hopefully it gets accepted!
Its the cutest idea, very Kiwi, since I am representing Oceania I suppose hahaha. Well since I'm in New Zealand, I'm representing all kiwis :D

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Vera — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 22:21:18 GMT

Here are pics from a photoshoot on the weekend.

I cant beleive they are still together?!
It kinda hurts. Actually it reallllllllllly hurts. And HA, shes getting all pierced and shit now. Thats cause he lovessss his "alt" girls. Whatever, I bet she pulls that shit out the minute they break up. And he can say that all he wants. I was the first girl he got with that was pierced and tattooed. All his porn is of big boobed, bleach blonde girls with no tatts anywhere.

I am so bitter and alone its sad. No stupid man wants me and it sucks. All I am good for is being a friend or for a good fuck.
I hope my life gets better when I move to australia. If it doesn't I will be very dissapointed and wont know what to do with myself, to be honest.
I try but nothing good ever comes my way. I don't remember breaking any mirrors.
Ugh I am so sad. I just want to be happy about my life ya know. Have friends, people that love me, a job. I don't have any of that and its so lonely and depressing.

anyway here are pics.

oh jebus dramazzzz

Vera — Wed, 15 Oct 2008 04:08:20 GMT

k so i havent been on here for awhile.
anywho you all know my mother was very against my photoshoot last week.
well she totally freaked out and told me if i went i would be kicked out of the house, then she rung all my family in australia and told them i do xxx porn and not to let me move over.

so omg. i had to promise everyone i wouldnt go to this stupid photoshoot just so i would have somewhere to live.
one good thing did come out of it, my aunty is paying for my ticket now. but i just get the feeling my family rather dislike me right now.

Oh well. I have a month to go until I move over to Australia. I will do a set when I am there. I am so pissed, its mucked up everything. Grrrr. I'm gonna run out of time to submit a bloody set again!

My silly piercing got hypertopic scarring or something like that and I had to take the ring out and replace with a stud, whichhhhhhhhh you can see in the above pictureee.

I have a crush on a guy I have never met before. I feel super lame.
I have an Androgyny type shoot this weekend. Then a haute couture punk shoot next weekend, a possbile m/f shoot next friday and a g/g shoot the week before I leave. When I get pics I will indeed post. Oh and a semi nude shoot next week? I cant remember.

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Vera — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 22:41:47 GMT

So I have a photoshoot this weekend and my mother is opposed to it. She thinks I will be raped and killed.
Apparently she has been dreaming about babies which means death (?)
So yeah she is sure I am going to be raped, killed and buried in this guys backgarden.
She thinks any man willing to take pictures of a naked women is the devil and any women willing to get naked has mental problems.

In other news this passport thing is tricky. No one will be a witness and I need to get it sent off this week or else I'm not going to make my deadline.
Shitttt.

my ass :O

Vera — Thu, 02 Oct 2008 23:38:45 GMT

ha what the subject says, pics off my butt.

woah

Vera — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 00:22:10 GMT

So I'm back.
Hey thereee!

Ummm, hoping to be in Australia by mid November, ha we'll see.
Caregiving sucked didn't get the job.
Still addicted to red licorice.
And omg I put the washing on the line and now it is pissing down.

Here are some pics, because I can.
Warning there are a few :/

I <3333 wigs.

yet anottttttther one of these.

Vera — Mon, 11 Aug 2008 05:35:15 GMT

10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:

- why haven't you died yet?
- he is a deviant, you shouldn't get caught up with that kinda shit.
- where did your brains go?
- i hope you get knocked up soon, tard.
- ewwwwwww.
- i <333 you lets get married.
- i wanna hang so badd.
- you have a werid look penis. cut it off.
- stop telling me how to look. kthnx.
- i wish your party would explode.

9 Things about yourself:

- i give up very easily
- i am very picky
- i adore sweet things
- i hate everyone my age
- i hate gangsters
- i don't want kids
- i'm a size 12
- i lost 15 kgs in a month once
- i miss australia

8 ways to win your heart:

- money
- licorice
- spoil me
- dress nicely
- not be a total nerd
- no religion thanks
- <3 me for me
- take me to the museum

7 awesome movies:

- 24 hour party people
- grease
- control
- deathproof
- breakfast club
- ?
- ?

6 things you do before you fall asleep:

- make bed
- pee
- fluff pillows
- pee
- get changed
- pee

5 people who mean a lot:

- no one

4 things you're wearing right now:

- my new cardie
- frilly shirt. i loveeeeeee frilly shirts.
- dress pants
- simpson socks haha.

3 songs that you listen to often (currently):

- anything by joy divison
- jem theme song haha
- alot of madness

2 things you want to do before you die:

- marry johnny knoxville
- be a house hold name mwahahaha *plans to take over the world*

1 confession:
- I have changed into a bitter disturbed troll all because of one man and it makes me want to cry.

You'll have to speak up, I'm wearing a towel.

Vera — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 00:24:35 GMT

What is the nicest thing someone has said to you?

The nicest thing anyone has said to be is in regard to this picture:

(oh I am soooo young there hehe)

"You could totally be Robert Smith's edgier, cooler younger sister."

That made me smile so hard.

I have a great new motivation tecnique, it is donuts, and the possibility of more donuts.

Vera — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 04:34:03 GMT

Ugh.

Looking at these lame pictures from the weekend I have gained so much weight since my kitchen photoshoot 2 odd months ago.
For a while there I had a bit of a waist, but now I am pretty much just straight up and down.
Plus I have a stupid pouch. I can't get rid of it. I have the stomach of a 3 month pregnant woman!!

But I am much to lazy to work out and get sexy.

The Olympics start tonight.
Can't say I am going to be staying up to watch it.
I have a stupid cold.
It's horrible.
I spent all night awake with a poundingggggggggg headache.
But I have a fear of pills so I can't take panadol.

I think I may go have an apple for dinner.
It's all I can get down me, stupid headache making me not want to eat.

Ohh I brough another wig.
Yay!!

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Vera — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 01:16:55 GMT

Friends Only Journal

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Vera — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 05:40:30 GMT

Apparently I don't have diabetes, just high cholesterol.
Whatevs.
I am feeling quite angry right now.
Stupid New Zealand and the stupid cocksuckers that live here being all mean and only caring about themselves.
Did a photoshoot, but I have a feeling the pics are going to suck.
The guy didn't know what kinda things I wanted, he didn't get the genre I think.
Or what kinda pictures are expected of a site like this.
Oh well.

Stupid mother fucking fucker of a fucking cunt fuck off and die you stupid pig.
I hate everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
why can't I go back to Australia right now?
I hate my life here.

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Vera — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 01:21:38 GMT

I am so horny.
It's driving me insane.
It's only been like 6 weeks since I had sex but I can't take it anymore.
It's toooooo long.
Way too long.

But the thing is I don't want any male to touch me.
I'm over men, so fucking over them.

I keep having sex dreams. Ugh its so annoying me.
The dreams are great.
Usually involving myself and a few girls.

Sigh.

Aagh! It hurts! It burns! You've liquified me, you slags!

Vera — Thu, 31 Jul 2008 02:45:00 GMT

I rather like this site.
Indeed I do.
You are all so friendly and nice to talk to.
<3

I put my extensions back in. I kinda got bored of looking like a boy.
I mean I like the fact that I can pull off girly girl one day then, "umm is that a boy or girl?" the next. But it was kinda getting boring.
I was going through photos last night and holy crap up until the age of 7 I did look like a little boy.

Seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

www.myspace.com/just_another_blow

Add me guys!

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Vera — Mon, 28 Jul 2008 03:39:14 GMT

I went to the doctors today because I didn't want to go to winz :P
Butttttt turns out I probably have diabetes. So Ummm, I don't know if it was even worth it going hahaha.
Awww man, my life will be over if I do have diabetes.
No more licorice and hazelnut chocolate and omggggggg l&p :'(

I sewed my extensions back together, so I might glue those in tonight as I have a job interview for Tempt tomorrow afternoon. Oooohhhh, finally.
I'm not sure if I will take it as I was told I could be sent to any store in Auckland, and I don't drive so thats not something I can really do.
But if its within reach of walk, bus or train and its a proper full time position, I'll take it.

My photoshoot is this weekend. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY naked Yvannah. It would be fucking rad if it was accepted. Fingers crossed guys.

So here is some nakedness.

Scientists discovered that constant worrying shortens your life span by 16 years.

Vera — Fri, 25 Jul 2008 00:53:45 GMT

So this lovely lady from the council rung me to ask me some questions about the call centre job I applied for.
Apparently she is going to foward my cv and answers off to the manager and then decide if I should work there
I don't know but I think I might get it. Oh gosh I hope so. I name dropped, so hopefully if they go ask the person they say good things!
It's only part time, but I don't mind. Anything is good at the moment. I just need to get away from winz and all their crazy shit.
I also told her I can work after hours, so hopefully that will put me at an advantage. I only live like a 10 minute walk away. But if its late at night I can just take a taxi over. Shit I'd probably even just walk. Gangsters and triads don't scare me!

It's so annoying this is the only call I have received all week. Shit I've applied to over 20 places this week and this is the only person to call me.
I'm starting to think if I don't get this job I might have to stand on a stage and get my vag out for money.

I need to make an appointment to see the doctor some time next week. Ugh they are so useless. And I refuse to pay mwahahaha. But this whole 3 hours of sleep each night and peeing every half an hour thing is starting to really get to me.

ONLY IN NEW ZEALAND

Family Court Judge Rob Murfitt stated his concerns in a written decision after a custody hearing in New Plymouth revealed a couple had named their child Talula Does The Hula From Hawaii.

He was so disturbed at the effect on the nine-year-old that he ordered her temporarily placed under court guardianship so a suitable name could be chosen.

"It makes a fool of the child and sets her up with a social disability and handicap," he said.

The girl, who had not had her birth officially registered in NZ, had not revealed her name to her friends.

The judge was stopped talking yesterday by Principal Family Court Judge Peter Boshier. His office did provide some New Zealand-registered names the court knew of.

They included: Fish and Chips (twins), Masport and Mower (twins); boys Yeah Detroit, Spiral Cicada, Kaos, Stallion and Hitler; girls Cinderella Beauty Blossom and Twisty Poi; and sex unknown Keenan Got Lucky and Sex Fruit.

Photo posttttt

Vera — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 01:55:38 GMT

Modelmayhem finalllllly accpeted my model profile so here are a few pictures from there.
Warning there is nudity
Ugh I am so sick of men.
I managed to shame out one of my male friends on myspace.
So fucking glad I did it.
Awww so what the girl he likes might feel a bit sad now that the guy she likes is always asking me to suck his cock and sending me video of him wanking off and calling me to have phone sex.
Um we live in totally different countries, jerk.
You bore me and I am so happy I embarrased you/made you cry because you are a dick.

I was going to say something else but I forgot. So just look at me instead

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Vera — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 07:58:28 GMT

So so soooo, will be shooting a set on the 2-3rd of next month. Sadly couldn't shoot earlier thanks to the poorness.
Ooooohhh well.
Um, I just sold my uncles soul for a pizza.
Am I the best niece or what?!
I can't breathe, stupid cold, please just leave me alone. Third time in two months I have gotten you. I know I am great, but please leave me alone :'[
So I think I will stay at home all weekend and lounge around in front of the tv playing the playstation.

Who here has seen Flight of the Conchords?
I LOVE that show!!!

I watched Control last night. Oh wow, depressing. But it made me really angry too.

I want one of those!

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Vera — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 01:38:42 GMT

I had a job interview last night but I ended up having a panic attack before I went in so I ran to the nearest bus stop and went home. Possibly the worst job interview I have gone to. Haha.
I couldn't find the place, went to ring the chick up to ask where to go, but my phone deleted her number, started crying, couldn't breathe and while this was all happening some guys at the parole office across the road were laughing, wolf whislting and just plain hounding me.

Oh dear. Always a drama in my life :P

I have to go into illicit one day and ask them if they will transfer my tattoo deposit into store credit. I don't think there is any chance in hell of getting my sleeve finished while on the dole. And OH MY GOD IT IS FREEZING. Stupid New Zealand *shakes fist*

fun times.

I've always wanted to write a book, but unfortunately I don't have a pen.

Vera — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 02:29:55 GMT

So I just got back from sitting down at social welfare for 3 hours.
Oh geeze.
Depressing.
They said I wasn't allowded to get any money so I broke down into tears.
I think the guy was a bit shocked by it so he went ahead and processed my application.
I get a sweet 120 dollars a week.
and 30 dollars to help with rent.
Fuck I love the government and everything owned by it.

I guess it is better then getting NO money at all.
Gots to find a job. Ugh.

Woooo

Vera — Sun, 13 Jul 2008 05:03:42 GMT

Hey everyone.
How are you all?
Wellllll gwindylyn sorted out this profile for me yay.
I had a free trial yearrrrrssss ago, but recently I was asked to be a model.
double yay!

Will be doing a photoshoot in the next week or two, so that will be exciting!
Got a few ideas for neat little sets.

I'm so excitied about moving back to Australia. Gah it's going to be awesome. New Zealand is such a downer, like you will never understand. We have triad gangs that want to kill all the gangsters here. While I may not complain, holy crap!
Too much violence for my virgin eyes!

I look oh so innocent in that wig :P

New Member

Vera — Wed, 01 Aug 2007 02:18:43 GMT

Hi! I'm new here