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[Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal We believe that people who love erotica are more than just faceless members sitting at a computer looking at photos of nameless models. We are a community, a cooperative, a society of people that are more than the dollar amount of their site memberships. Deviant Nation We believe that people who love erotica are more than just faceless members sitting at a computer looking at photos of nameless models. We are a community, a cooperative, a society of people that are more than the dollar amount of their site memberships. We are striving to combine community, subculture, artistic expression and erotica all at once. Deviant Nation satan@deviantnation.com Girls,Pinup,Tattoo,Pierced,Goth,Punk,Rockabilly,emo,Metal,Subcultures yes http://deviantnation.com/girls/kr1pl3d en-us Copyright 2003-2008 Deviant Nation, Inc. satan@deviantnation.com Sat, 15 Mar 2003 07:00:00 GMT Wed, 03 Dec 2008 19:45:20 GMT 60 DN Logo http://i.deviantnation.com/i/dn-logo-small.png http://deviantnation.com Deviant Nation 76 144 Three Words.... http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81419 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d FUCKING OBAMA BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Blog yes kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81419/#comments 6 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81419 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81419 Wed, 05 Nov 2008 15:08:53 GMT Almost $1,000 in fines to the state of Florida http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81317 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d Man I really need to slow down. I've gotten 5 tickets within a month and a half and now I have to pay Florida almost $1,000 in fines......as,ldmaslkfjasdlkfjafljsdjjfaslasdkjlfjaljslsdf fuck!!!!! Oh well, who wants to get tattooed and help me keep my liscense? On another note, I'm feelin pretty good today outside of being broke and owing so much money. I really think I have too much coffee in me to care right now..... I could probably get up and walk if I wanted to I'm so fucking caffeinated. I'm off work today and I want something to do besides voting... Any ideas? I have to take my dog in for surgery prep tomorrow morning at 8:00 a.m. lab tests, blood work, all that jazz... He tore his acl in his hip threee times(fuckin thick headed bulldog) so now I have to take him in for some major surgery called TPLO and it's gonna cost me a couple grand to do that, but I want him to be ok. Hopefully I can work out an easy payment plan, we'll figure that out tomorrow. So much money going out and not much coming in..... story of my life. I hate money, the world should work on the barter system. It works for poor farmers in South America, why not us? Blog yes
Oh well, who wants to get tattooed and help me keep my liscense?

On another note, I'm feelin pretty good today outside of being broke and owing so much money. I really think I have too much coffee in me to care right now..... I could probably get up and walk if I wanted to I'm so fucking caffeinated.

I'm off work today and I want something to do besides voting... Any ideas?

I have to take my dog in for surgery prep tomorrow morning at 8:00 a.m. lab tests, blood work, all that jazz... He tore his acl in his hip threee times(fuckin thick headed bulldog) so now I have to take him in for some major surgery called TPLO and it's gonna cost me a couple grand to do that, but I want him to be ok. Hopefully I can work out an easy payment plan, we'll figure that out tomorrow.

So much money going out and not much coming in..... story of my life. I hate money, the world should work on the barter system. It works for poor farmers in South America, why not us?]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81317/#comments 8 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81317 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81317 Tue, 04 Nov 2008 16:45:56 GMT Speeding! http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81264 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d Speeding tickets suck..... 87 mph in a 65. Traffic school and a $203.00 fine. That was just today. I also have a mandatory court appearance for doing 97mph in a 65, and improper lane usage. Had to get a lawyer for that one. Florida is a bad luck state for me, nothing good has happened to me here, everything just falls apart... but it's so damn warm here and I have nowhere else to go but Myrtle Beach, or St. Louis and I don't think I want to move to either right now.... much less afford it. Anybody know any good/ busy tattoo shops hiring in any warm states? I can't do snow anymore... Blog yes
I also have a mandatory court appearance for doing 97mph in a 65, and improper lane usage. Had to get a lawyer for that one.

Florida is a bad luck state for me, nothing good has happened to me here, everything just falls apart... but it's so damn warm here and I have nowhere else to go but Myrtle Beach, or St. Louis and I don't think I want to move to either right now.... much less afford it.

Anybody know any good/ busy tattoo shops hiring in any warm states? I can't do snow anymore...]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81264/#comments 12 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81264 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81264 Mon, 03 Nov 2008 23:06:00 GMT No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81069 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d So I got back in town and it's pretty good to be back. I do miss Illinois though. I really needed the vacation, but it didn't help out my health very much. I had a blast up there visiting friends, and hitting up house parties.... Damn I miss them. I had a few nights of drunken debauchery which was lovely. I really miss the atmosphere up there, and the friends I have. I think I'm going to try and live there in the summer and come back down here in the winter. I have some friends that run shops up there so I think I might be able to work it out. I dunno, keeping my fingers crossed tho.    On another note I didn't get a new car. The dealership decided they would just spend $9,000 repairing my car they should have rightfully, and lawfully replaced. They totalled it, so they should have replaced it. I lost any kind of trade in value on it, I'll never be able to sell it, and on top of it all it doesn't drive the same or sound the same. They fucked me and now my lawyer is getting in their ass. I'm taking them to court and filing every lawsuit I can against them. It's gonna be a long process, but it'll be worth it in the end. They spun me around every corner and had me jump through hoops cancelling shit on my car because they were gonna replace it, only to fuck me over... But it's all good, they will get theirs. Tonight I'm going to West Palm for Fright Night. Apparently they have a pretty cool Brother's Grimm sideshow and haunted houses. A lady friend of mine asked me to accompany her so we're headed up there after I get off work. Should be good times ;) Have fun trick or treating kiddies and stay out of trouble tonight Blog yes
On another note I didn't get a new car. The dealership decided they would just spend $9,000 repairing my car they should have rightfully, and lawfully replaced. They totalled it, so they should have replaced it. I lost any kind of trade in value on it, I'll never be able to sell it, and on top of it all it doesn't drive the same or sound the same. They fucked me and now my lawyer is getting in their ass. I'm taking them to court and filing every lawsuit I can against them. It's gonna be a long process, but it'll be worth it in the end. They spun me around every corner and had me jump through hoops cancelling shit on my car because they were gonna replace it, only to fuck me over... But it's all good, they will get theirs.

Tonight I'm going to West Palm for Fright Night. Apparently they have a pretty cool Brother's Grimm sideshow and haunted houses. A lady friend of mine asked me to accompany her so we're headed up there after I get off work. Should be good times ;)

Have fun trick or treating kiddies and stay out of trouble tonight]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81069/#comments 14 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/81069 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/81069 Fri, 31 Oct 2008 19:58:23 GMT My car was totalled... Which is lovely http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/78924 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d So I got a 2009 Scion Xb about 3-4 months ago, and decided to make a road trip home for some much needed r and r. On the way up here I hit my 5,000 mile mark on my car and at 5,000 miles I am granted a courtesy maintenance check up so I made an appointment at a Toyota dealer here in Illinois to get a few minor things fixed and get my maintenance inspection....Well they did all that, but when they were done some mechanic thought it would be a good idea to drive my car in to a fucking car lift and a fucking hybrid Prius fell off the lift onto the roof and hood of my car smashing it to shit. Which ironically is pretty funny because when I got there I was talking to a salesman about trading my car in for a black one but didn't want to start payments over and all that. I went to lunch and when I got back the salesman asked me how bad I wanted that black one, I thought he was just trying to make a sale real quick until the gm of the place comes over and tells me they wrecked my car. My car was so fucked up I almost cried( needless to say there were some very colorful metaphors spewing from my mouth at incredible volume.) Then they fuckin teased me with this tricked out Scion with 19 inch rims, ground effects, leather and suede interior, dvd player, tv's in the headrests, and a system that'll blow out your ear drums, took me on a test drive in it, and led me to believe they were gonna trade me outright for my car because of the inconvenience, only to tell me there's too much money invested in it and they wouldn't trade... Fuckin bogus. But I am getting a brand new 2009 black Scion xb with all the same features my car had so it's not a total bust. It's the color I originally wanted so that's one upside. Now I just gotta wait a few days and go through all the paperwork and I got another new car, and hopefully I have better luck with this one because I seriously need a streak of good luck. Blog yes ]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/78924/#comments 23 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/78924 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/78924 Wed, 01 Oct 2008 15:34:38 GMT Wow... http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/76815 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal Wow... kr1pl3d So if you read my journals you know that I was looking forward to opening our new shop at work. Well the new shop was opened, and the one co-worker that hated me from the get go became business partners 50/50 with Chris, my boss. So I get into the shop, and set up all my stuff, spend $90 getting artwork framed for my walls.I  ordered, and payed for more things to put on my wall to set it up the way I want it, only to be fired after I did my first tattoo out of the shop....Why? excuse after excuse, I got everything but the truth. Plain and simple it was workplace discrimination and a complete violation of my ADA rights. Ted Mendoza who is now co-owner just doesn't like me, but the excuse they settled on is ( drum roll) that I am a drug addict. Addicted to what you may ask? Apparently I'm a pill junkie... And why am I a pill junkie? Because I am in pain 24 hours a day and when I can't deal with the pain anymore I eat ibuprofen and prescription vicodin. I never exceed my directed dosage, and never do I take them to get fucked up. If I did, I'd get something a lot stronger than vicodin. I fucking hate eating pills, and for that to be their excuse offends me more than anything I can think of right now. It shows me that they never took the chance to get to know me... I worked there over a year and not once was I called and invited out with the crew. It was always a bunch of bullshit. To add insult to injury I did go out with them one night and they were all stuffing shit up their noses, I was the only one not partying with them...and I'm a drug addict. ha ha. Well my doctor prescribes me my medicine in order to get through my day in my condition, and the fact that they fired me because I take a prescription drug is a direct violation of my ADA rights... But we'll talk about that some other time.   I now work for Scott Srock at Vatican Tattoo Studio located @ 99 e. Oakland park blvd, Oakland Park, Fl.(954) 561-9646&lrm;. I'm totally stoked to be working there, the crew is awesome, and the shop is fuckin sweet. So I really have high hopes for this place and hope I finally found a home down here. That's all Blog yes I now work for Scott Srock at Vatican Tattoo Studio located @ 99 e. Oakland park blvd, Oakland Park, Fl.(954) 561-9646‎. I'm totally stoked to be working there, the crew is awesome, and the shop is fuckin sweet. So I really have high hopes for this place and hope I finally found a home down here. That's all]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/76815/#comments 28 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/76815 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/76815 Wed, 03 Sep 2008 05:01:40 GMT bleh http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/74387 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d  It's been hard getting out of this rut I've been in for about 3 months or so. It seems when I take a step forward I get pushed two steps back. I found out last weekend that the filthy fucking cunt of an ex fiance, and my piece of shit sell out so-called "brother" and best friend are dating, fucking, whatever... I know why she goes by the name filth now at least.... Both of them know exactly how I feel about that, and when we were together she hated him and had nothing good to say about him....We actually stopped talking because of her so wtf? I think that's the lowest thing a person could possibly do...and they know that, so that shows me exactly what kind of people they are. They have no respect for me, and no sanctity whatsoever. So now I am less two people in my life, people that I actually believed in and at one time loved with all my heart.  That's just something you don't do. But the upside is they're both leeches and need someone to support them, and  he has 4 kids and 3 baby's mama's, no job, nothing... but he has pimped one of his ex's for cash in the past so there's at least one way they can survive. She has no self esteem so she probably won't mind her old man pimping her out. He hasn't spoken to me since I found out because he's too chicken shit and ashamed to even face me, and really I have a few things to say but I don't even know if it's worth it. It won't change how I feel, and I will never forgive him so it's almost pointless.... But this big part of me wants him to hear exactly what I think of him and how disappointed I am after a lifetime of friendship. And as for her, I will never speak another word to her, and her parents have sent me the $388 that she owes me because she's too useless and lazy to get a fucking job and pay her own debts or support herself... leech.                Oh and yet again I was rear ended in a parking lot. I was at a medical supply store and some old man next to me pulled out of his parking spot and while in the middle of him pulling out he decides to run the front of his car across the length of my rear bumper. Then he proceeded to drive off. I got his liscense plate and filed a report with the cops so hopefully they'll find him and I can get it fixed.               We should be opening our new shop within a week so I'm pretty excited about that. That's the one thing I'm looking forward to right now. I went there today and set up my station, and damn is our shop beautiful! It looks like an art gallery that happens to do tattoo work. It's so decked out, I can't wait to get in there.             So I'm trying to put all that negative shit behind me, but it's hard.... I found out tonight that my sister stole my mom's car, stole $30 from her own son, and drove down to East St.Louis in my mom's stolen car with no liscense and was picked up by the cops for buying heroin. So she's in jail, and my mom had to pay $140 to get her car out of impound and that's just another straw on the camel's back..... and it's gonna break soon, that's why I'm trying so hard to maintain a positive mindstate because I can only take so much before I'll break.      Oh, and here's a pic of the honda I broke my back in.<img height="451" alt="" width="600" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/138306.jpg" /> Blog yes Oh and yet again I was rear ended in a parking lot. I was at a medical supply store and some old man next to me pulled out of his parking spot and while in the middle of him pulling out he decides to run the front of his car across the length of my rear bumper. Then he proceeded to drive off. I got his liscense plate and filed a report with the cops so hopefully they'll find him and I can get it fixed.
 We should be opening our new shop within a week so I'm pretty excited about that. That's the one thing I'm looking forward to right now. I went there today and set up my station, and damn is our shop beautiful! It looks like an art gallery that happens to do tattoo work. It's so decked out, I can't wait to get in there.
 So I'm trying to put all that negative shit behind me, but it's hard.... I found out tonight that my sister stole my mom's car, stole $30 from her own son, and drove down to East St.Louis in my mom's stolen car with no liscense and was picked up by the cops for buying heroin. So she's in jail, and my mom had to pay $140 to get her car out of impound and that's just another straw on the camel's back..... and it's gonna break soon, that's why I'm trying so hard to maintain a positive mindstate because I can only take so much before I'll break.
 Oh, and here's a pic of the honda I broke my back in.

]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/74387/#comments 27 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/74387 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/74387 Fri, 01 Aug 2008 03:43:19 GMT Talk about Awesome... http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73680 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d So if you read my journal yesterday, you know that Sunday on my birthday after I wrecked my car I lost my money clip with all my credit cards, my liscense, and $400... Well I was pretty upset about it, but I still kept myself positive. I cancelled my credit cards yesterday, and today I get a phone call.............. well, it just happened to be the lady who found my money and everything in a parking lot. She returned it all in tact, no money missing, nothing. You talk about awesome! So I'm very greatful, and so fucking happy today I can't believe it, if I could walk I would be doing so on clouds...dig? So when I get home I'm going to call her and offer her $50-100 or something like that for returning it and being honest. So just when I was starting to lose faith in humanity someone comes along and slaps me in the face with kindness. And damn it, today I'm proud to be human. There are still some good people in this world and it's refreshing to know that. So thank you miss lady for returning my money and liscense. You made my day. Blog yes kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73680/#comments 31 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/73680 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73680 Tue, 22 Jul 2008 23:40:04 GMT Birthdays can kiss my ass http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73581 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d So yesterday I started off my birthday with a bang.....literally. I took my brother to the deerfield pier because he was bugging me all weekend to see the ocean because he wanted to take some pics.... So I go down to Deerfield Beach where I never go because I hate it down there and what happens.... I get in a little car wreck and cause almost $1,000 damage to my car. Fuckin lovely. Well, I didn't let it ruin my day because I still had a lot going on later that night so it couldn't be too horrible, right? WRONG. Wrong.... I go out to dinner with my family, and then back to my aunt's house for cake and presents and all that jazz.... Well I got a whole bathroom set which I needed badly, and a bunch of socks as a joke. I got some money, and a gift card to Best Buy for $125, and well I decided to go to Best Buy last night before I went out.... So on my way there I stopped for gas and when I reached into my pocket to grab my money I noticed that my pocket was empty, so I drove home, tore up my apartment, tore apart my car, called the restaurant I was at, called my aunt to see if I dropped it there, and no luck.... So after wrecking my car on my birthday I also lost around $400, two credit cards, and my liscense..... Woo fuckin Hoo! Needless to say I am not ever leaving my house again on my birthday...EVER. So I cancelled my credit cards this morning and all that jazz, called my bank to cancel my debit card, and get informed that my account is overdrawn $136 because my lovely ex has no idea of fucking responsibility..... and my stupid ass opened a joint account with her. So I get harrassed by my bank everyday because apparently she thinks money manifests itself like magic and she can frivolously spend it with no reprocussions.....WRONG. So it's yet another mess I'm probably going to have to clean up. So she now has 25 days to pay it or our account is being closed and it starts taking shots at our credit... Son of a bitch I need a vacation from all this fucking drama. So, yeah that's my rant for the day. Sorry to drop all this shit on here but I need to vent this out somehow... Blog yes kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73581/#comments 14 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/73581 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73581 Mon, 21 Jul 2008 16:04:00 GMT Midnight Tonight http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73484 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d I will officially be 27. Damn I'm getting old. Birthdays just aren't what they used to be..... Honestly I'd love to still be opening boxes filled with G.I. Joes, and Transformers again. I'd probably still play with them too.lol. Anyway, I'm getting shitfaced tonight with my brother who surprisingly flew down here from St. Louis for my birthday.... which was awesome. I haven't seen him in a while so it's cool. Tomorrow I'm doing dinner at some swank Hibachi and sushi place with the fam, my aunt made reservations last week for us so I know I'm going to be stuffing my face like a muthafucka.... Then I'm supposed to go to Hollywood, cuz a friend of mine is throwing a party. So all in all it should at least be a good day tomorrow.... I just want it drama free, and full of drunken debauchery (after dinner of course.) So yeah, that's about it. I feel good, I look good, and I'm happy..... and I normally get depressed around my birthday so it's a refreshing change. So.....yeah, I got nuthin else. ... Oh yeah, I changed my screenname too. Thanks Gwindylyn. Blog yes kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73484/#comments 11 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/73484 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73484 Sun, 20 Jul 2008 02:04:06 GMT update and pics of the ride. http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73091 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d       Well, haven't been on here in a while so I figured I'd update a little. Life has been life, good times, bad times....etc. I went out this weekend to a fetish party with a girl from work. She brought two friends with her, and I kinda hit it off with the cute one. She's from Brazil and moved to FL about 4 months ago from ATL. Like me she doesn't know many people down here and really wanted to hook up, so we exchanged numbers and we're going out next week.  I've been doing a lot of driving and it feels good to be doing it again. I feel a lot more free than I did a month ago. Only problem is I still don't like Florida. I just can't call it home. It doesn't feel like home. I feel like I'm drowning here. I really want to go back to St. Louis. I miss everything I had there.....mostly my life and my friends. I don't feel like myself down here, and haven't since I came here. This fuckin state will suck the life right out of you if you let it. I'm really trying to pull myself out of this rut I'm in, but it's hard. It's hard to let go of the past, hard to let go of her... I just don't know if I can afford to move back home now that I got this car. Business back there isn't as good, and I wouldn't make near as much as I do here. I don't know. I just want to be around people who know me, and familiar things... and they aren't here. I can't say everything is bad, and I sure as hell can't dwell on it if I want it to change so I've really been trying to make myself happy again. I find myself being tired all the time now, and I'm always on the go. I need to rest and I need to find an outlet besides painting, or drawing. I try to write, but every time I try to write it's always about her, and it never comes out right. I have to forget her, and I can't do that by writing about her all the time. It's impossible. Anyway I'm done complaining so here's some pics of my car...and my gas mask<img height="375" width="500" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135592.jpg" /><img height="375" width="500" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135593.jpg" /><img height="375" width="500" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135594.jpg" /><img height="375" width="500" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135595.jpg" /><img height="375" width="500" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135596.jpg" /><img height="375" width="500" alt="" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/135597.jpg" />   Blog yes

]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73091/#comments 12 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/73091 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/73091 Tue, 15 Jul 2008 00:34:28 GMT My New Car http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71885 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d   Picked up my new Scion today and drove it to work. It's the first time I've driven in 5 years since my accident. Today is a good fuckin day!!! Blog yes kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71885/#comments 17 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/71885 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71885 Sat, 28 Jun 2008 18:43:00 GMT More good news http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71464 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d  I just spoke to the guy I did my driving evaluation with who was supposed to issue my driving permit and he informed me that the review board reccommend that I go back to the dmv that sent me to them to try and take my written test and get my permit through them. So that means I get to once again spend my days off running back and forth to that piece of shit dmv only to be pushed in some other direction to some other asshole thats gonna tell me to go back to the dmv..... I FUCKING HATE FLORIDA!!!!!. And I'm about to seriously have a fucking meltdown. Fuck everything, fuck life, fuck driving.......FUCK! Blog yes kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71464/#comments 2 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/71464 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71464 Mon, 23 Jun 2008 17:15:41 GMT life http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71462 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d Well, life in general has been up and down...My positive mindstate has kinda taken a turn for the worse. I'm just tired, tired of thinking about her and how she's changing for the worse. I'm tired of worrying, and being alone. I'm tired of waiting for all my car shit to go through, and I'm tired of not having anyone I can call a friend down here. I'm tired of caring about someone who doesn't care about themselves, and trying to make sense of things. I hate that feeling of love. It's such bullshit. You care about someone and do everything to make them happy, and meanwhile they take it and take it only to leave you high and dry when things get hard. It sucks when you care about someone and you see them destroying themselves, and you know they care about you, but are afraid so they run.     I've had so much pain and stress lately, and it's been hard to focus on the positive things in life. My head swims with emotions and feelings.... I can't stop thinking about her. Something feels so wrong and I can't pinpoint it. I guess it's just really hard when you think you have your life planned out, and after you've suffered and lost so much you get that little piece of happiness and purpose it all falls apart like the blink of an eye. It's hard to adjust and start over and just pretend it was nothing and I'm ok. I'm not.     I found out recently that my sister along with a couple friends have no loyalty whatsoever and will turn around and stab you in the back like it's nothing. Though the circumstance was not a big deal it was the principle of the matter that I'm speaking of. ( I won't get into detail.) I confide in them something and they turn around and open their mouths when they shouldn't. So yet again I am faced with "close friends" that I can't trust. What the fuck happened to humanity? Loyalty? The value of friendship? Trust? Honesty?     I'm coming so close to swearing off humanity as a whole because it's all full of fake fucking people who only care about themselves, or drugs and getting fucked. I hate fake gangster motherfuckers, and people who can't be themselves. People who have to change when they hang out with people to be accepted are so fucking pathetic. And people who have so-called values and morals that they stand by so firmly and turn around and do the same shit they were completely against a month earlier.... hypocritical bullshit. Fucking fake. I think most people don't even know who the fuck they are but say they have certain beliefs and values only to more relate to someone else... To be what they think that person wants them to be. And that's only because they have no sense of self or let alone any self respect. What the fuck happened to genuine people?? Is it too much to ask that you mean what you say? And do what you say you're going to do?   I'm so fucking over caring...        On another note, Richmond was cool. I made some money and some good connections. Made some cool ass friends and I plan on going back in November to the fall convention. I'm going to start traveling more often and doing tattoo conventions as much as possible. I'm just tired of being complacent being a small town artist that nobody knows about. I have much more potential than I'm able to utilize tattooing hearts, stars, and kanji. I'm a damn good artist and I've worked very hard to get where I am, and I am nowhere near where I want to be. I need challenges and I need a creative atmoshphere. I at least deserve a thriving career, one that I'm proud to have. Hell I've lost everything else I ever cared about and it's the only thing I have left, so I'm determined to make the best of it.     I'm still waiting on the results for my evaluation for my driving course, and as soon as my scores are approved I am gettind a driving permit. After that it's only a matter of time until I have my liscense and I'm mobile. Then I'm taking a fucking road trip. First probably Myrtle Beach for a week or two to guest spot at a shop my buddy owns, then I'm probably making my way towards Washington. I just want to drive until I can't anymore. Hopefully I can get some roll dogs to join me on the trip. I might get a passport and drive to Mexico, Canada....idk. I just need a fucking vacation. Btw I just bought a PS3 and an X box 360 with assassins creed for the ps, and Ninja Gaiden2 for the xbox, and that game alone is reason enough to buy the 360. Anyway I've rambled enough. later Blog yes I've had so much pain and stress lately, and it's been hard to focus on the positive things in life. My head swims with emotions and feelings.... I can't stop thinking about her. Something feels so wrong and I can't pinpoint it. I guess it's just really hard when you think you have your life planned out, and after you've suffered and lost so much you get that little piece of happiness and purpose it all falls apart like the blink of an eye. It's hard to adjust and start over and just pretend it was nothing and I'm ok. I'm not.
 I found out recently that my sister along with a couple friends have no loyalty whatsoever and will turn around and stab you in the back like it's nothing. Though the circumstance was not a big deal it was the principle of the matter that I'm speaking of. ( I won't get into detail.) I confide in them something and they turn around and open their mouths when they shouldn't. So yet again I am faced with "close friends" that I can't trust. What the fuck happened to humanity? Loyalty? The value of friendship? Trust? Honesty?
 I'm coming so close to swearing off humanity as a whole because it's all full of fake fucking people who only care about themselves, or drugs and getting fucked. I hate fake gangster motherfuckers, and people who can't be themselves. People who have to change when they hang out with people to be accepted are so fucking pathetic. And people who have so-called values and morals that they stand by so firmly and turn around and do the same shit they were completely against a month earlier.... hypocritical bullshit. Fucking fake. I think most people don't even know who the fuck they are but say they have certain beliefs and values only to more relate to someone else... To be what they think that person wants them to be. And that's only because they have no sense of self or let alone any self respect. What the fuck happened to genuine people?? Is it too much to ask that you mean what you say? And do what you say you're going to do?
I'm so fucking over caring...

 On another note, Richmond was cool. I made some money and some good connections. Made some cool ass friends and I plan on going back in November to the fall convention. I'm going to start traveling more often and doing tattoo conventions as much as possible. I'm just tired of being complacent being a small town artist that nobody knows about. I have much more potential than I'm able to utilize tattooing hearts, stars, and kanji. I'm a damn good artist and I've worked very hard to get where I am, and I am nowhere near where I want to be. I need challenges and I need a creative atmoshphere. I at least deserve a thriving career, one that I'm proud to have. Hell I've lost everything else I ever cared about and it's the only thing I have left, so I'm determined to make the best of it.
 I'm still waiting on the results for my evaluation for my driving course, and as soon as my scores are approved I am gettind a driving permit. After that it's only a matter of time until I have my liscense and I'm mobile. Then I'm taking a fucking road trip. First probably Myrtle Beach for a week or two to guest spot at a shop my buddy owns, then I'm probably making my way towards Washington. I just want to drive until I can't anymore. Hopefully I can get some roll dogs to join me on the trip. I might get a passport and drive to Mexico, Canada....idk. I just need a fucking vacation. Btw I just bought a PS3 and an X box 360 with assassins creed for the ps, and Ninja Gaiden2 for the xbox, and that game alone is reason enough to buy the 360. Anyway I've rambled enough.

later]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71462/#comments 2 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/71462 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/71462 Mon, 23 Jun 2008 16:59:34 GMT Richmond Va. http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/69983 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d       I will be tattooing at the convention in Richmond, Virginia this weekend at the Big Brain 2 booth so if you're in the area you oughtta come get tattooed or stop by and say what's up. It's gonna be a blast, and we have a room at the hotel where the convention is being held so if anyone comes down and needs a place to crash we got ya...        Also I guess an update about the car and liscense is in order. I own the car, but I have to get a physical, driving, and vision evaluation before I can get the hand controls put on my car or get my liscense.... I have to pay $270 for the evaluation, and I also have to wait until the 12th to take it. Then I have another short period of time to wait until I take my driving test and get my liscense. So I will probably end up making my first month's payment without being able to drive it... It sucks, but it's definitely worth it to be able to drive again. I'm just happy I'll be mobile again. Apparently Florida likes to make things as hard as possible for people to try and get on their feet unless you came over here in a boat.....Then they take care of you, hell they'll even give you a small business loan... But someone that works 60 plus hours a week that's a productive member of society can't get a break on a fucking driver's liscense... It's just something I've noticed, not a real chip on my shoulder, I'd just like things to be easy every once in a while. Anyway I'm still in the mix on getting this stuff under control, and trying to maintain....       I also no longer have a computer at my apartment, mine is in storage and Meagan picked hers up last week. So now I can only check DN at work and I get booked solid most days so I don't get a lot of time. I would like to respond to more people's journals and be a bit more active, but right now I can't....But damn it I'm trying, so if it takes me a while to respond to your messages, I'm not blowing you off, just technologically  challenged at the moment.   Blog yes

 Also I guess an update about the car and liscense is in order. I own the car, but I have to get a physical, driving, and vision evaluation before I can get the hand controls put on my car or get my liscense.... I have to pay $270 for the evaluation, and I also have to wait until the 12th to take it. Then I have another short period of time to wait until I take my driving test and get my liscense. So I will probably end up making my first month's payment without being able to drive it... It sucks, but it's definitely worth it to be able to drive again. I'm just happy I'll be mobile again. Apparently Florida likes to make things as hard as possible for people to try and get on their feet unless you came over here in a boat.....Then they take care of you, hell they'll even give you a small business loan... But someone that works 60 plus hours a week that's a productive member of society can't get a break on a fucking driver's liscense... It's just something I've noticed, not a real chip on my shoulder, I'd just like things to be easy every once in a while. Anyway I'm still in the mix on getting this stuff under control, and trying to maintain....

 I also no longer have a computer at my apartment, mine is in storage and Meagan picked hers up last week. So now I can only check DN at work and I get booked solid most days so I don't get a lot of time. I would like to respond to more people's journals and be a bit more active, but right now I can't....But damn it I'm trying, so if it takes me a while to respond to your messages, I'm not blowing you off, just technologically challenged at the moment.

]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/69983/#comments 19 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/69983 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/69983 Tue, 03 Jun 2008 19:44:06 GMT Another new toy http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/69257 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d    So yesterday I went up to a Toyota dealership and looked at the new 2009 Scion's. I was there for about 3 hours and I test drove an xb. Well, I liked it so much I bought it. The dealer is putting hand controls for the gas and brake for me, I get free tires and batteries for life, and it has a 6 year/75,000 mile bumper to bumper warranty. After taxes it was $20,193 and some change. I pick it up Friday and I have to go take a driving test to get my Florida liscense. It's been almost 5 years since I've driven and I'm pretty stoked about getting behind the wheel again... It's been long enough. So it's one more step towards independence.    I finally feel like I'm getting my life on track. My health is getting better, I've been making great money at work, my tattoos keep looking better and better, I feel good, I got a car(w00t), I'm getting along with everybody at work really well, and tonight our cute little counter girl and I are going to the fetish party. For too long I put others in front of me and did nothing for myself, and I must say I feel very liberated. It's nice to be able to get things I want, and even better to not have to depend on other people for rides and shit like that.    So yeah, I'm probably going to be all smiles for the next year. Right now I couldn't be happier with the way things are going, and I attribute most of it to my positive mind frame. I know that if I was still as negative as I was 2 months ago I'd still be in the same rut unable to get out. But instead I've kept my mind on what I want and not what I don't want, and now I'm starting to reap the benefits. So yeah I guess that's it. Thanks for reading. Blog yes I finally feel like I'm getting my life on track. My health is getting better, I've been making great money at work, my tattoos keep looking better and better, I feel good, I got a car(w00t), I'm getting along with everybody at work really well, and tonight our cute little counter girl and I are going to the fetish party. For too long I put others in front of me and did nothing for myself, and I must say I feel very liberated. It's nice to be able to get things I want, and even better to not have to depend on other people for rides and shit like that.
 So yeah, I'm probably going to be all smiles for the next year. Right now I couldn't be happier with the way things are going, and I attribute most of it to my positive mind frame. I know that if I was still as negative as I was 2 months ago I'd still be in the same rut unable to get out. But instead I've kept my mind on what I want and not what I don't want, and now I'm starting to reap the benefits. So yeah I guess that's it. Thanks for reading.]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/69257/#comments 35 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/69257 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/69257 Sun, 25 May 2008 03:47:38 GMT Laundry Bar and a new toy http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/68692 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d Last night I went down to Miami with a friend of mine to the Laundry Bar and listened to some sick ass drum and bass. The place was live as hell. Digital, and Chase & Status were the headliners... It was a sick ass night. I danced my ass off, got some Cuban food that fucked up my stomach, met some cool ass people, got DRUNK as fuck, made some business, and got DRUNK as fuck! Did I mention I was drunk?    I got home late as hell and got to bed about 4:30 this morning and had to wake up for work at 9:30. Needless to say I'm running on fumes and I'm really hungry. (My stomach's talkin shit to me right now.) It doesn't feel too good either...   I mentioned in one of my past journals I was looking for a gun.... A Berretta. Well today one fell in my lap. I bought myself a new 9mm berretta with 2 clips. Funny now that I'm single I have money to spend on things I want. And damn it I wanted this gun. I gotta go take my carry concealment course for Florida, then I can carry that bitch on me wherever I go. I'm probably gonna go buy some bullets tonight and hit the shooting range tomorrow. I've wanted a gun since I moved here, well long before that. But I figured I could really use a gun right now. I usually carry a big ass knife with me, but people with knives get shot. And I don't particularly want to get shot. I hope I never have to use it, ever, but want to be prepared if anything goes down. Just thought I'd share that with you.   Oh yeah. Laundry Bar tonight DJ Mayhem, sick ass dark drum and bass. Free admission, washers and dryers in back for your dirty clothes,( yes you can actually do your laundry there) and good drinks It's 721 lincoln ln. N. Miami. If you're in south Florida you should come out. It's gonna be super.... and you know you want to go....everybody has laundry. Blog yes I got home late as hell and got to bed about 4:30 this morning and had to wake up for work at 9:30. Needless to say I'm running on fumes and I'm really hungry. (My stomach's talkin shit to me right now.) It doesn't feel too good either...
I mentioned in one of my past journals I was looking for a gun.... A Berretta. Well today one fell in my lap. I bought myself a new 9mm berretta with 2 clips. Funny now that I'm single I have money to spend on things I want. And damn it I wanted this gun. I gotta go take my carry concealment course for Florida, then I can carry that bitch on me wherever I go. I'm probably gonna go buy some bullets tonight and hit the shooting range tomorrow. I've wanted a gun since I moved here, well long before that. But I figured I could really use a gun right now. I usually carry a big ass knife with me, but people with knives get shot. And I don't particularly want to get shot. I hope I never have to use it, ever, but want to be prepared if anything goes down. Just thought I'd share that with you.
Oh yeah. Laundry Bar tonight DJ Mayhem, sick ass dark drum and bass. Free admission, washers and dryers in back for your dirty clothes,( yes you can actually do your laundry there) and good drinks It's 721 lincoln ln. N. Miami. If you're in south Florida you should come out. It's gonna be super.... and you know you want to go....everybody has laundry.]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/68692/#comments 14 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/68692 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/68692 Sat, 17 May 2008 18:40:20 GMT So..... http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/67956 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d I really haven't stopped moving since my trip back to Illinois. I had a great time there, and now that I'm back home I feel fucking great. Went out to a drum & bass show on Cinco De Mayo and got FUCT UP DRUNK! I met a shitload of cool peoples and got some business. My boy Matt got sick and kinda half passed out on the sidewalk and some guy told me to check his pockets and rob him not knowing he was my best friend...... So there was almost a fight but he left when I started yelling in his face. I paid $70 for the cab ride, but we made it home safe and Matt didn't get robbed. All in all it was a good night, and I finally made some Florida friends. I'm in such a great place right now mentally, and my health is improving. It's still really lonely at night going home to an empty room, but there's more of me in it so it at least is starting to feel like home. I do still miss it though, sharing my room, my life....my world, my everything. It's ok though.     I'm looking for a scion xb right now and I have a line on a couple. I have to take a driving test and get hand controls put on the car so I can drive it. I also have to get a Florida liscense which I am going to try and do sometime this next week. I at least need to get all my info together and see what I have to do about taking a driving test, and getting my liscense here. So I'm really looking forward to getting behind the wheel of a car again..... It's been 4 years since I've driven and damn it, I'm so fucking over depending on other people for rides.      I don't know how some of you feel about guns either, but I'm taking my 40 hour gun safety course and getting a carry/conceal permit for Florida so I can carry my pistol. In Florida you can carry a concealed weapon with a permit anywhere except for sporting events, bars and clubs, concerts, etc. I can carry it on my person at all times where ever I go for protection, and I'm getting a sick ass .22 LR Beretta. It's basically a 9mm that shoots faster and is more durable... I'm super stoked about that... and if I accidentally shoot myself in the foot  I won't feel it, so that's a plus. lol.     Work's going very well, we have a few problems with the city as far as the building on our new shop, but we're working that out. I've been doing some really kick ass work these past couple weeks and making good money from it.    I figured I'd share all that....oh and these pics<img height="338" alt="" width="450" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/121121.jpg" /><img height="338" alt="" width="450" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/121124.jpg" /><img height="567" alt="" width="425" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/121120.jpg" /><img height="338" alt="" width="450" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/121122.jpg" /><img height="700" alt="" width="500" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/121118.jpg" /><img height="630" alt="" width="450" src="http://i.deviantnation.com/m/121119.jpg" /> Hope you enjoy the pics.....sorry there's no full frontal.      Blog yes I'm looking for a scion xb right now and I have a line on a couple. I have to take a driving test and get hand controls put on the car so I can drive it. I also have to get a Florida liscense which I am going to try and do sometime this next week. I at least need to get all my info together and see what I have to do about taking a driving test, and getting my liscense here. So I'm really looking forward to getting behind the wheel of a car again..... It's been 4 years since I've driven and damn it, I'm so fucking over depending on other people for rides.
 I don't know how some of you feel about guns either, but I'm taking my 40 hour gun safety course and getting a carry/conceal permit for Florida so I can carry my pistol. In Florida you can carry a concealed weapon with a permit anywhere except for sporting events, bars and clubs, concerts, etc. I can carry it on my person at all times where ever I go for protection, and I'm getting a sick ass .22 LR Beretta. It's basically a 9mm that shoots faster and is more durable... I'm super stoked about that... and if I accidentally shoot myself in the foot I won't feel it, so that's a plus. lol.
 Work's going very well, we have a few problems with the city as far as the building on our new shop, but we're working that out. I've been doing some really kick ass work these past couple weeks and making good money from it.
 I figured I'd share all that....oh and these pics

Hope you enjoy the pics.....sorry there's no full frontal.
 ]]> kr1pl3d Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/67956/#comments 29 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/67956 http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/67956 Wed, 07 May 2008 22:14:04 GMT Update http://deviantnation.com/members/kr1pl3d/67074 [Deviant Nation] kr1pl3d's Journal kr1pl3d So, I'm in IL, and I got my doggie! He's doing great after his surgeries, but he has a broken toe, and I have to dress it and take care of him....But it kills me to see him in so much pain. I went to Meagan's house to pick him up and had my last goodbye's with the family, and it was a heart-wrenching experience, but they have come to be like my own family and I will miss them very much. The kids drew me a buch of pictures and they were all hugs and kisses. It was bittersweet.  I'm going to miss them all so much. :(      Wednesday night I went with some friends to The Old Rock Bar and saw the legendary mc Percee P and EPMD. It was good to see a REAL Hip Hop show. The vibe was sick, the show was awesome, I kicked it with Percee P and he called my boy from Long island that introduced me to his music on the phone while we were hangin' and it fucking made my boy Bobby's night. I saw at least 15-20 old friends at the show, and it was fucking awesome to get around real people again, REAL friends, people who are there for me, and familiar faces. It was exactly what I needed. We had some people come back to the hotel room and we kicked it for the night until everybody passed out, but me.     Last night, I did a couple tattoos and from the minute I woke up I was in a horrible mood, which was odd because I have been in great spirits the past couple days....But alas thoughts ran through my mind, memories of what I thought was going to be forever, and I don't know. The minute I stepped out of my positive thoughts and feelings, my day went to shit. So I called my Friend Krissy. And my friend Matt, her, and I all polished off a fifth of Crown Royal. It was the first time I kicked it with her and she's a cool ass chick. We all had a horror movie marathon and had a shitfaced blast. It really turned my night around. We all crashed at like 5 in the morning.     Tonight I'm going to another hip hop show. My boys, The Fufops are playing a show at this bar called Blueberry hill. It should be a blast too. I've been keeping myself busy with friends and shit so I don't dwell, and realized I haven't been fair to myself for a long time, so I'm soaking up every moment of happiness I can get. It's all been pretty short lived in the past few days, but like I said I'm taking as much of it as I can. I need the positive energy, and the people that Really care about me.     Everybody wants me to move back, but I don't know about that. I miss my friends, and Florida is full of manipulative, vindictive, false people with foul intentions, but I love my job. That's the only thing I have down there besides my dad who is my best friend in this world. The state is full of bad feelings, and I had nothing but bad situations down there....But I have an awesome job where I'm learning alot, so I'm really fighting with that. There's not much work up here for me either...but I know I can find a good shop if I do move.......but that's really not my first priority.     This has been hard on me because I did all my coping on my own until I got here, and I had my hopes, and so much for remaining close..... I was broken up with via a text message, a fucking TEXT MESSAGE!  And I was really fucking offended by that. I thought with everything I put into that relationship that I deserved better than that. I didn't deserve to meet a certain someone that I was introduced to, that had FOUL fuckin intentions, but apparently after everything, she is more important than me. I feel I  was really blown off and I was lied too. But you live and you learn.    I can pull punches and point the blame, but that won't do anything good for me or her, and though I have so much to say, I won't. I wish her the best, and hope that things work out for her in the end. I'm sorry it couldn't be with me, but sometimes peoples feelings change, and people change. So I'm doing my thing, and trying to get some well deserved happiness.  And although I have my bitterness, I really, really wish Meagan the best, and I hope she finds someone in her life that can make her feel the love that she made me feel.    I'm probably going back to Florida on Sunday and we're driving straight through. I got some awesome pics and video from the trip so far and I'll post them when I get back.  Catch you on the flipside.... Thanks to all who have replied to my journals, and sorry for not replying, but I've hardly had the time to get on the comp, so when I get back I'll respond and I want to thank you all for your kind words.....Late        Blog yes Wednesday night I went with some friends to The Old Rock Bar and saw the legendary mc Percee P and EPMD. It was good to see a REAL Hip Hop show. The vibe was sick, the show was awesome, I kicked it with Percee P and he called my boy from Long island that introduced me to his music on the phone while we were hangin' and it fucking made my boy Bobby's night. I saw at least 15-20 old friends at the show, and it was fucking awesome to get around real people again, REAL friends, people who are there for me, and familiar faces. It was exactly what I needed. We had some people come back to the hotel room and we kicked it for the night until everybody passed out, but me.
 Last night, I did a couple tattoos and from the minute I woke up I was in a horrible mood, which was odd because I have been in great spirits the past couple days....But alas thoughts ran through my mind, memories of what I thought was going to be forever, and I don't know. The minute I stepped out of my positive thoughts and feelings, my day went to shit. So I called my Friend Krissy. And my friend Matt, her, and I all polished off a fifth of Crown Royal. It was the first time I kicked it with her and she's a cool ass chick. We all had a horror movie marathon and had a shitfaced blast. It really turned my night around. We all crashed at like 5 in the morning.
 Tonight I'm going to another hip hop show. My boys, The Fufops are playing a show at this bar called Blueberry hill. It should be a blast too. I've been keeping myself busy with friends and shit so I don't dwell, and realized I haven't been fair to myself for a long time, so I'm soaking up every moment of happiness I can get. It's all been pretty short lived in the past few days, but like I said I'm taking as much of it as I can. I need the positive energy, and the people that Really care about me.
 Everybody wants me to move back, but I don't know about that. I miss my friends, and Florida is full of manipulative, vindictive, false people with foul intentions, but I love my job. That's the only thing I have down there besides my dad who is my best friend in this world. The state is full of bad feelings, and I had nothing but bad situations down there....But I have an awesome job where I'm learning alot, so I'm really fighting with that. There's not much work up here for me either...but I know I can find a good shop if I do move.......but that's really not my first priority.
 This has been hard on me because I did all my coping on my own until I got here, and I had my hopes, and so much for remaining close..... I was broken up with via a text message, a fucking