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Advice Needed

smalltownjuliet — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 20:11:24 GMT

one of my relatives is getting married this weekend.
it is an out of state wedding.
In Philidelphia.

My hubby cannot attend the wedding b/c he is working all weekend.

I could go with my parents and ~~crash in their hotel room...~~ okay well crashing with them is out. my brother just snagged the bed from me.

but I feel like that'd be weird...

and, I don't really have anything to wear to a black tie wedding at the Ritz Carlton...

and I don't know what I'd do with all my spare time in Philly while not at the welcome party, reception, or brunch... I've never been there... and don't really feel comfortable walking around a city alone.

I really love this cousin though... and it's going to be the "wedding of the century" and while it sounds bad... I think I'd be disapointed if I missed that party...

He came to my wedding... he usually skips them...

What should I do?????

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smalltownjuliet — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 06:46:42 GMT

darkwun rox my sox.

that is all.

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smalltownjuliet — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 21:12:03 GMT

Chronic Pain.

I keep trying to think of something... substantial to say about it. To explain what I'm feeling...
yet, all i can come up with is...

It sucks.

What sucks even more is that I've been diagnosed with something that a large percentage of the population does not believe exists.

So not only am I in pain, but apparently I'm a liar too.

This alienates a lot of people.

I have good days, good weeks even. But I am never not in pain.

I think this is why I love my animals so much.

They don't care if I'm in too much pain to run around or go to the mall or go bowling or go out to dinner.
They don't care if I can't bend down to get my shoes on, or if it hurts to much to put on "going out pants"

In fact, when I'm having a really bad day, they don't make me feel bad about it at all. Instead, they somehow know that I need them and the all hang out with me on the bed, sometimes they take turns, but I'm never alone.

They don't fight with eachother those days. They don't chase eachother, break things, make a mess, spill their water.

They just let me be, and let me know that they're there. And all they ask in return is that I let them under the covers too.

They know that just b/c I'm out of bed, doesn't mean I'm at full capacity. They'll follow me around as if to say, it's okay, if you can't make it back to the bedroom, sit on the floor, I'll sit here with you.

I'm never in their way.
I'm never a burden.

and they never make me feel like I'm just looking for attention.

They are what keep me from reaching for the bottles.

Today..... if I can just make it through Today... I promise I'll take the dog for an extra long walk tomorrow.

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smalltownjuliet — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 06:09:38 GMT

I wish I could blame the onions tonight.....

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smalltownjuliet — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 06:13:04 GMT

i miss my friends.

I Can't Stop Crying

smalltownjuliet — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 23:36:57 GMT

I've never had this problem before...

I just can't stop crying. Every time I think I'm done... my eyes just start tearing up all over again.

Apparently this onion, is a lot "stronger" than the ones I'm used to.

Don't worry, I killed it. I killed it good.

I guess this is it's revenge.....

This is my first attempt at making Pepper Steak.
We did not have nearly as much meat as I thought... so really... I'm making pepper/onion/soysauce soup with a few bits of steak thrown in.

Either way it smells awesome and should taste good over rice.

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smalltownjuliet — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 04:38:24 GMT

I just took my navel ring out.

I feel so old and fat right now.

Seriously. I know, I'm lame... and navel piercings are "lame and sooooo 1996" but whatever.
It was my first piercing/mod and it actually had sentimental value of sorts... and it was a symbol of my youth... and a reminder of a body that i no longer have...

ugh. i hate this....

Our Thank You Card

smalltownjuliet — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 20:51:33 GMT

Friends Only Journal

HELP!

smalltownjuliet — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 01:28:34 GMT

I need help picking out songs for my wedding video.

I need a song for:
Me getting ready
Us at the Church
While we're taking pictures
Cocktail Hour
Wedding Reception Recap
Growing up-dating-honeymoon photo montage

Please help.

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smalltownjuliet — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 05:25:24 GMT

So...
I'm confused.

I don't have children but I still found this touching.

smalltownjuliet — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 02:42:19 GMT

Since I've re-entered the world of the domestic goddess also known as the "house wife" I thought I'd share it with all of you as well.

Words of a Housewife
By Chelsea Peterson

God, I want to do great things for you,
And speak to all the nations!
God replies:
That’s well and good,
But for now
Fix your children’s complications.

Lord, I want to straighten up the world,
Feed the hungry and fulfill someone’s wishes!
God says:
Fine, but for the present,
You need to wash the dishes.

Lord, I want to preach, proclaim your name
And bring salvation to the earth!
God says:
Good! Then teach your children
And preach my name to those you’ve given birth.

At the end of the day,
I think of all I’ve done.
But as I look it seems,
I’ve accomplished nothing for the Son!
God I had no time to witness one on one,
I couldn’t join my church group,
They said I missed out on lots of fun.

My household is the only thing
That managed to be cleaned,
My neighbor is the only one,
Besides my family I could feed.

The only ones I’ve read Your Word
Are those within my home.
God I’ve done so very little
And I feel so all alone!

God says:
I’ve seen the way you cleaned and cooked
And taught your kids My name.
Tomorrow morning at eight o’ clock,
I’ll watch you do the same.

The work you do at home,
Though no one really sees,
Is helping to raise little ones
To grow and worship me.

My ways are not your ways,
I don’t expect you yet to see,
But the precepts that you’ve taught your children,
Will help others bow the knee.

Your children will reach out to others,
Your example in their mind.
They’ll do great work for Me
And their children will respond in kind.

The hand that rules the world,
Also rocks the cradle.
Because of you, your children love Me,
All their hearts are stable.

Though your house is your domain,
Your tasks seem rather plain,
Your efforts will reach the multitudes,
Though from humble work they came.

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smalltownjuliet — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 04:05:03 GMT

i bought a webcam today to help ease my boredom.

but Tango is not playing along with what I had planned.

So....
what should I V-Blog about?

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smalltownjuliet — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 19:16:37 GMT

i finally took the step and ordered business cards for my jewelery business.
they are nothing too special but they'll do the trick when someone asks if i have website or to include when people buy something or whatever.

i'm excited.

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smalltownjuliet — Sun, 09 Nov 2008 22:45:58 GMT

My dog is in love with Chixor's voice.

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smalltownjuliet — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 16:27:51 GMT

my pets bought me an early birthday/christmas present

By "my pets" I of course mean "I bought it" but it bothers me that i spent the money I spent, and it's the first piece of jewelry I've ever bought myself. Well, "real" jewelry anyway.

My jeweler is going out of business. So they are having a huge clearance sale.
There was a ring there that I fell in love with but couldn't bring myself to buy at the time. I went home for a few hours and Willum convinced me to go back and buy it. Only... it wasn't there.
I was very sad. But Will took me to the sister store that is also going out of business and they didn't have THAT ring, but they did have a ring that I'd been wanting for a few years now, at a 70% discount.

It's my birthstone, and I have tried it on like every time we've been in the mall. So...
I bought it.

I feel guilty about it. But Tango, Petey, Bella, Gozer, McDuff and Flapjack assure me that they'll pay me back in lots of love and snuggles and that it was their way of wishing me a happy "end of halloween" "Birthday" and "Christmas"

aren't pets the best?

As requested:
This is a photo of the lovely bauble. However, I'm wearing it on the wrong hand b/c I can't seem to use the camera with my left one.

My Birthday

smalltownjuliet — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 05:40:54 GMT

My birthday is a month from today and hubby as well as a few other friends have asked me what I'd like in the way of gifts.

So, I'm just gonna go ahead and post the wishlist. No, I'm not asking strangers to buy me anything, but I do have real life friends who read these things too, and some of you people speak to my hubby and other friends/family and can go ahead and point them in the right direction.

Amazon PENGUIN Wishlist

My cousin got married on Saturday.

smalltownjuliet — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 05:56:27 GMT

My cousin Jen got married on Saturday. She was my maid of honor at my wedding.
We are two months apart age wise, and the only girls in our immediate families as well as the only girls our age in our full extended family. This has made us a bit competitive over the years but the past two or three have really brought us close together.

She and I are the "Terrible Twosome" at all of our family events. We are the party girls, the fun girls, and the girls that all our older male cousins love to pick on. So at my wedding, the poor girl spent most of the night at her table, and I was terrified I'd do the same at hers. So instead, I grabbed my camera and took a "Myspace-style" photo with every member of my family that was in attendance. It was a blast.

Note the bridesmaid dress and how unflattering it is for my body type.

The hair is new this week, I dyed it on Monday, and again on Weds since my hair won't hold the color b/c I stripped it too much last time I dyed it.

The cut, (bangs) happened Saturday morning when the stylist at my cousin's house decided my hair needed "a little something" and gave me a free cut.

This is me and my hubby.
I think I'll make a set or something on flkr or whatever that site is of the rest. They really are quite amusing. Since I was looking at the camera, I had no idea what the person in the photo with me was doing, some of them are priceless b/c of it. Some uncles' heads got cut off a bit, but that's b/c they are all taller than me and wouldn't bend down far enough lol.

Enjoy!

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smalltownjuliet — Fri, 31 Oct 2008 04:06:10 GMT

this week sucks.

my job is kicking my ass, and in the process is taking all the fun out of my cousin's wedding b/c I don't get to participate in any of the fun, and I'm gonna be tired as fuck on Sat morning since I'm working 12+ hours tomorrow.

my bunny died yesterday. SUCKS.

I'm just a whiney miserable brat today.

Hope you all have a safe and fun Halloween.

What are you going to be????

brief update.

smalltownjuliet — Mon, 27 Oct 2008 16:55:16 GMT

Sprint still sucks.
BUT at least now I have the correct phone in my possesion even though they charged me an arm and a leg for the "free" phone. It should be taken care of in 2-3 billing cycles. UGH.

Halloween is Friday.
Needless to say I'm exhausted, and rarely have time to sit at the computer.

I am however, on AIM all day via my crackberry and I check LJ all the time. I can't do DN on it though. *Sad Panda*

So...
hit me up on AIM to chat lovlies. Help keep me sane while I'm at work.

ApatheticJuliet

Oh, I almost died on Saturday. It was scary. Details to come once I'm not so fuckin busy.

Miss you all.

Hope everyone who was at the event had a great time, and that the rest of you are doing well too!

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smalltownjuliet — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 21:14:45 GMT

The blue guy is me.
The red guy is Sprint Wireless.

The yellow guy is me.
The purple guy is Sprint Wireless.
They are both me after being on the phone with Sprint Wireless for 3 hours today, and dealing with the same problem since last Weds night.

Lesson Learned:
If something sounds too good to be true. It is!!

More Tuna For Everyone!

smalltownjuliet — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 18:48:25 GMT

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smalltownjuliet — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 15:15:11 GMT

I had the coolest dream.

I don't know how or why, but somehow I ended up in LA and I got to hang out with people that I've been trying to meet for years now.

It was awesome.

The dream was very jumpy though, like, i don't know why or how i got to cali, I don't know why the people lived in the mansions of Bel Air when I know they don't live like that... I don't know why one was blonde, or why one wore dresses...

but, it was still nice to have "met" them.

I woke up quite dissapointed that none of our adventures were real.

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smalltownjuliet — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 05:04:48 GMT

i ordered a crack berry

it's not pink.

but it'll do.

i just couldn't take it anymore.

plus...
I GOT IT FOR FREE!!

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smalltownjuliet — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 02:07:24 GMT

Personal Journal Entry

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smalltownjuliet — Wed, 15 Oct 2008 23:46:53 GMT

i so desperately want a pink blackberry pearl or curve it's not even funny.

it's to the point of such desire and frustration that i find myself spending hours staring at them online.

i can't order one, they are too damn expensive. well... no, not exactly, i can get the phone cheap enough, but i can't afford blackberry service.
which i don't even want.

i just want the blackberry for texting.

shit, at this point I just want a phone that will let me text without shutting off every two minutes.

i haven't had a new phone in over 3 years. I didn't realize how long ago that was until i started looking at new ones lol.

I almost feel like...

I don't even know how to explain it, i'm like ITCHING for a new phone.

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Advice Needed

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I Can't Stop Crying

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Our Thank You Card

HELP!

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I don't have children but I still found this touching.

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My Birthday

My cousin got married on Saturday.

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brief update.

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More Tuna For Everyone!

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