[Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal We believe that people who love erotica are more than just faceless members sitting at a computer looking at photos of nameless models. We are a community, a cooperative, a society of people that are more than the dollar amount of their site memberships. Deviant Nation We believe that people who love erotica are more than just faceless members sitting at a computer looking at photos of nameless models. We are a community, a cooperative, a society of people that are more than the dollar amount of their site memberships. We are striving to combine community, subculture, artistic expression and erotica all at once. Deviant Nation satan@deviantnation.com Girls,Pinup,Tattoo,Pierced,Goth,Punk,Rockabilly,emo,Metal,Subcultures yes http://deviantnation.com/girls/spazdor en-us Copyright 2003-2008 Deviant Nation, Inc. satan@deviantnation.com Sat, 15 Mar 2003 07:00:00 GMT Wed, 03 Dec 2008 23:22:36 GMT 60 DN Logo http://i.deviantnation.com/i/dn-logo-small.png http://deviantnation.com Deviant Nation 76 144 No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/9726 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor Dear world.<br /><br />You are, by varying degrees, sucky and awesome. Please continue to rock my socks, and refrain from raining on my parade. Except for my rain parades. Sometimes I have those. They're for celebrating airborne water.<br /><br />Aside, a hot-water-balloon fight is a rewarding thing to have in the middle of a barely-above-zero West coast winter raindump.<br /><br />But enough of that. Sense now.<br /><br />Wibble wibble.<br /><br />(If you're familiar with &quot;wibble wibble&quot; and aren't from the British Isles, please step forward so I may ask you to marry me.)<br /><br />my ARM is on FIRE!<br /><br />Love mike.<br /> Blog yes
You are, by varying degrees, sucky and awesome. Please continue to rock my socks, and refrain from raining on my parade. Except for my rain parades. Sometimes I have those. They're for celebrating airborne water.

Aside, a hot-water-balloon fight is a rewarding thing to have in the middle of a barely-above-zero West coast winter raindump.

But enough of that. Sense now.

Wibble wibble.

(If you're familiar with "wibble wibble" and aren't from the British Isles, please step forward so I may ask you to marry me.)

my ARM is on FIRE!

Love mike.
]]> spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/9726/#comments http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/9726 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/9726 Thu, 09 Feb 2006 10:26:33 GMT No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/7654 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor I have been up all night.<br /><br />My sleep schedule is proper fucked.<br /><br /><br />I feel lonely. Blog yes
My sleep schedule is proper fucked.


I feel lonely.]]> spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/7654/#comments 1 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/7654 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/7654 Thu, 26 Jan 2006 13:13:28 GMT nonsense http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/6748 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor So whispering just doesn't do it.<br />That's okay. Stand up. Shout. Say it to everybody who I can't. Breathe. Breathe. Inhale.<br /><br />I'm not always sure who I'm writing to here. I really just dump the ideas into a bucket and leave 'em on the side of the road, confident that they'll find their way where they're supposed to go. Since I'm not sure where that is, I'm not too particular about who hears what. If the thought wasn't for you, there's not much you're gonna be able to do with it anyway, without the AC adapter and special proprietary USB cable that you can't buy on its own.<br /><br />I'm reliving my own music, like always, and nitpicking at parts of... me. It's the way I do things. I'm always talking about what a revisionist process living is, and I think this is how I wish I could perfect myself. But I never seem to have the time or inclination. I'll do something the first time, and it'll be pretty impressive considering it was my first time, and then I'll wander off and be disconcertingly good at something <em>else</em> I've never done before. But I don't put in the time, I don't specialize. I'd rather be the neophyte savant. Call me a hack of all trades. <br /><br />It's not the case, though. All the time I'm whittling and carving myself into something sleeker, sharper, a better weapon and a better tool. It doesn't matter that i've got no one to fight and nothing to fix. I'm an end and not a means. This is what I'm just starting to realize. I don't have to point to some goal to justify me. All i've got to do is tap my own chest and tell you to reco'nize.<br /><br />Awwwwwwwww yeeeeeeaaaaahhhhh.<br /><br />Sweet dreams DN . Blog yes That's okay. Stand up. Shout. Say it to everybody who I can't. Breathe. Breathe. Inhale.

I'm not always sure who I'm writing to here. I really just dump the ideas into a bucket and leave 'em on the side of the road, confident that they'll find their way where they're supposed to go. Since I'm not sure where that is, I'm not too particular about who hears what. If the thought wasn't for you, there's not much you're gonna be able to do with it anyway, without the AC adapter and special proprietary USB cable that you can't buy on its own.

I'm reliving my own music, like always, and nitpicking at parts of... me. It's the way I do things. I'm always talking about what a revisionist process living is, and I think this is how I wish I could perfect myself. But I never seem to have the time or inclination. I'll do something the first time, and it'll be pretty impressive considering it was my first time, and then I'll wander off and be disconcertingly good at something else I've never done before. But I don't put in the time, I don't specialize. I'd rather be the neophyte savant. Call me a hack of all trades.

It's not the case, though. All the time I'm whittling and carving myself into something sleeker, sharper, a better weapon and a better tool. It doesn't matter that i've got no one to fight and nothing to fix. I'm an end and not a means. This is what I'm just starting to realize. I don't have to point to some goal to justify me. All i've got to do is tap my own chest and tell you to reco'nize.

Awwwwwwwww yeeeeeeaaaaahhhhh.

Sweet dreams DN .]]> spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/6748/#comments 1 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/6748 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/6748 Wed, 18 Jan 2006 12:46:07 GMT Oonce oonce unf. http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/6744 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor I did an hour-long trance set, and decided to post it. The levels jump too high in a couple places for some reason, but it otherwise turned out well. Here it is on Yousendit, since I don't want to dump a &gt;100MB download on poor little Mindstab. If enough people download, I might put a (violently compressed) version onto Mindstab more permanent-style.<br />Here it is:<br /><br /><a href="http://s11.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1IHKI0L0PG7Q01VBBVSKNVXYSQ">http://s11.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1IHKI0L0PG7Q01VBBVSKNVXYSQ</a><br /><br />love mike Blog yes Here it is:

http://s11.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1IHKI0L0PG7Q01VBBVSKNVXYSQ

love mike]]> spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/6744/#comments http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/6744 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/6744 Wed, 18 Jan 2006 11:44:15 GMT No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/5473 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor <p>I'm not always sure what your whispers mean. But I can't sleep.</p> <p>And I'm still flying.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>Yes, I'm talking to you. I&nbsp;have been&nbsp;all this time. You know that.</p> Blog yes I'm not always sure what your whispers mean. But I can't sleep.

And I'm still flying.

 

Yes, I'm talking to you. I have been all this time. You know that.

]]> spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/5473/#comments 7 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/5473 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/5473 Sun, 08 Jan 2006 18:20:22 GMT No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3768 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor i really wish I was<br /><br />a) selfish enough not to bother with self-denial, or<br />b) enlightened enough not to need it.<br /><br />as it is, i've got to settle for being self-indlugent and narcissistic. Blog yes
a) selfish enough not to bother with self-denial, or
b) enlightened enough not to need it.

as it is, i've got to settle for being self-indlugent and narcissistic.]]> spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3768/#comments http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/3768 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3768 Fri, 23 Dec 2005 11:11:17 GMT No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3681 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor I'm not sure whether it's narcissistic or what that I'm unable to stop listening to my own music. I mean, I have to listen to it a lot as I'm making it in the first place, but it seems like any proper emo kid full of good old-fashioned self-loathing would at least have the decency to get sick of the track and hate it after it's released.<br /><br />Not me. I've got this fucking thing on repeat. I'm not really doing it because I love it, or because I hate it. I'm just obsessing. I do this a lot. Is that weird? Blog yes
Not me. I've got this fucking thing on repeat. I'm not really doing it because I love it, or because I hate it. I'm just obsessing. I do this a lot. Is that weird?]]> spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3681/#comments 1 http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/3681 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3681 Thu, 22 Dec 2005 12:00:46 GMT No Subject http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3675 [Deviant Nation] spazdor's Journal spazdor new track. The internet's been impenetrable to my house of late, so I'm posting it from the data storage on my usb mp3 player. It was a lot of work. So download it. It's ambient. http://spaz.mindstab.net/djspaz_-_ether.mp3 Blog yes spazdor Blog http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3675/#comments http://rss.deviantnation.com/comments/journal/3675 http://deviantnation.com/members/spazdor/3675 Thu, 17 Nov 2005 00:37:00 GMT