[Deviant Nation] starlove's Journal

yeah!!!!

starlove — Fri, 16 May 2008 15:53:30 GMT

im so fucking excited today! hahaha.... we got a new washer!!!!!! you have no idea how badly we needed one. thank fuck!
J got his rebate check- return, that the state is sending everyone who filed taxes. Since i didn't have any to file last year i don't get one.. but pretty sweet...everyone at mininmum gets $600! so we got a new washer for $380. And i couldn't be happier.

So today is mass loads of laundry day. we don't use a dryer cos it jacks the electricity so much.

but here is my new baby!! hahaha....

and me in pimpin the money- yo!

haha im such a dork!! :P

sell ur panties? lmao

starlove — Thu, 15 May 2008 12:57:06 GMT

omg.

the world is nuts.
not that this is new, i know a girl who does this. so i had to look at the site.
http://www.usedpanties.com.au/pages.php?pageid=3&js=n

you can make $20 selling ur panties, but thing is- you can't wash them. EWW!

hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

WTF is with this "FEEDEE" SHIT?

starlove — Thu, 15 May 2008 01:05:55 GMT

ahahaha... OKKKKKK............if you want to be fat... and whatever.. fine.. if you cant help it and you have a condition fine too... but on purpose???

WHAT in the HELL is a FEEDEE? Type it in! myspace search (don't search for people but switch it to myspace) or even google it. it's all these huge fat people that WANT to be that way.. they are trying to get AS FAT AS THEY CAN and they all go by the word "Feedee" IM SCARED.
a cult???? lmao! ahahah what the hell?!?!?!

Here is one:
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=283768478&blogID=332019214

drama sucks

starlove — Wed, 14 May 2008 13:35:15 GMT

So much shit going on, personally. not ME but people very close to me, so it ends up being my problem. And it's awful and it just puts me in a depression.

im eating chocolate. to cheer up.
blah!

also im pissed cos i had this nice package of things for my friend in brazil .. and even made a bracelet and everything.. went to mail it.. cheapest (and this wasn't a big package!) postage was $20!! WTF IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD!gggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
Im too nice or something i dont know! :(

And now i gotta run...
this day better get better!
<333
I'll leave you with this.. it kinda reflects my mood, lol:

Just pics.

starlove — Tue, 13 May 2008 00:50:30 GMT

Some new pics of me and random stuff.. included a pillow i made...and a tattoo design im thinking about for my forearm.. something similar anyway...and some sushi (veg) i had over the weekend... (see above)

Ok im not going to post for a few days unless something magical happens lol. Have a good week!
looooooooooooove
starla xxxxxxxx

longgggggggggggggggg day

starlove — Mon, 12 May 2008 23:19:32 GMT

watch my niece from 7am to 6.30 pm. very busy all day. sister is very sick and cannot even see her little one... can't eat .. cant do anything but sleep.. mean while eva baby is saying "mama mama" all day and it makes me feel bad. she is so clung to me though, i think she thinks of me as her mom sometimes. attachment + me do not mix.

:[

im tired now.
i dont work tomorrow though.

my emotions are fucked up tonite*tonite.

nothing else to say......im going to go lay on the sofa, drink tea and watch family guy dvds.

ciao.

happy sunday.

starlove — Sun, 11 May 2008 18:22:55 GMT

I went out. got food. came home read, rest.. blah blah!

took some pics.

I love my new pink nail plish it's really nice. It's by "pure ICE"
It's so nice out today ......a bit colder than it should be but that suites me fine :)
Im gonna have something to eat.

see you soon
luv starla

Art. new piece ///////////

starlove — Sat, 10 May 2008 20:55:55 GMT

So i got this drawing done today- it's for a dear friend on Orkut.com (i have an account there, pretty cool site!) I believe she's buying it... She lives in brazil. and she is so cute and awesome.

Here is that:
"CherryBomb81"

Aside from that, i feel dizzy today and im fucking sick of being sicK! I took some benedryl because i thought it was allergies.. that just made me feel worse. That stuff is the devil for me i think! arg!

I am happy about my set being used for bsb. But i think after that, no more sites. I am going to continue at xplastic.net because that is like, family for me. hah. But i'm not going to do too much more of the alt modeling stuff. Just on a couple sites. I do want to get that huge penis blow up thing and do a set with that for xplastic. Haha! They are coming up with a beta site, so that will be good.
Tomorrow is mothers day and I don't even have $ to buy my mom a gift. ugh! But i'll call her. and she is the kind to understand. She lives like 15 minutes from me anyway.
I didn't want to go over there today because of the dog dying there. It would be too much for me right now and i would probably feel all sorts of weird things because that's what i do.
_
I've been drinking so much water lately trying to flush my system out. And of course my lovely Emergen-C!
The only thing is i always have to flavour my water with like, cystal light or something and that stuff isn't good for you. It contais aspertame. Shitty shit!
I need to read "SKINNY BITCH" again and get my ass in order! hah.

Well that's all for now. A couple pics from today.... and i hope you are all doing well. I love you

STARLA

RIP doggy :(

starlove — Sat, 10 May 2008 15:20:29 GMT

Sad news this morning- my parents called and said their dog (the family dog .. it was originally my sisters before she moved out) got hit by a car last night :( they came home late and let her out to pee and she ran up the driveway to the road and some asshole ... didn't bother to even stop... ran her over and she died instantly :(
my dad had to bury her last night.

so sad .. even tho i wasn't that close to her... any time an animal dies i cry so much. I keep sobbing. Poor defenceless thing.

2day

starlove — Fri, 09 May 2008 13:12:54 GMT

i rest.

my tummy hurts.

bleh!
i blame the weather. i hate how it's getting warm! :(

send off two things at the post office this morning. one to aussie land and one to missystar for my bsb set.
yay!
Yknow what's really YAY? i've got my job watching my niece back!! I'm super happy now <333333
I'll leave u with a couple pics from yesterday... xxxxxx byeeeeeee

I REALLY *LOVE* my art... appparently..... (below) hehe. ^_^

updates updates...

starlove — Thu, 08 May 2008 21:16:51 GMT

so yippie.
i figured out the issue with my set for bsb courtisy of MissyStarr - <33 can't wait for that site to be up it's going to rule. and i like this set much better anyway cos i got my pink/red hair :D

_
I did a cool art piece today for this lovely girl Named Soraya.
Here flickr stream is here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/soraya_marx/
She's one of those girls that is so beautiful it was hard to get it down on paper ;)
I think she might buy it which would be awesome.

here's the comparison & the result.

****************************************************

woot!

What else? Oh i may have good news later.. im not sure.. im hoping i can start watching my niece again... it's what i really want. wish me luck.
(again it's a long story so don't ask why im not anyway! lol)

ok. ta ta xxxx

more art today.

starlove — Thu, 08 May 2008 12:07:25 GMT

doing more art. whats new? hah.
I did this one last night- it's from a photograph a photographer friend on myspace did- i asked him if i could draw it.. with my own twist on it of course.
This picture:

and this is my result:

In other news, i have this $50 aussie money that i've had for years and haven't been able 2 do anything with it. It was a bday gift years ago from my good friend Peter in australia who has been friends with me now online and mail, sometimes phone, for a good 10 years! hah.
so i decided to purchase a tshirt from my artist friend you all may know of GlitterSniffer.
She's going to buy it for me and send it to me when i send her the monies. yay!
im getting this one: http://www.redbubble.com/products/configure/3320569

bye bye xxxx

No Subject

starlove — Wed, 07 May 2008 19:52:55 GMT

So today was good up until i started getting bad stomach aches :( I was seeing my niece and all was good though.. i'm SO happy wen i see her.. she cam walking/running fast at me and into my arms. she goes "aaaaaauuuuuuuunnnn...tee"
ahaha
awwwww sweet baby girl.
I am so close to her sometimes i feel like she is my baby. She is my baby that i will never have :)

HAHA what a cutie!! ^^

So then i came home with stomach aches. grr i think it's part 2 of my cold. and maybe having to do with weather changes.
Had some ginger tea and smth to eat and went 2 sleep.

Woke up and had the best thing: a package from Ladylazarus my lovely sky sky :) She sent me the drawing she did of me which i love so much! and some other sweet goodies. <3333333 Thank you honey!

I have a drawing i need to catch up on and some online crap. So i'll end this now.
Have a good night lovelies.
Also, say hi to the awesome miss MissyStarr lady in charge of bombshellbrats.com ;)

Random pic- me eating my Tofu "scrambled eggs" hehe

xxxx
S

lalala

starlove — Wed, 07 May 2008 13:20:31 GMT

so i'm re doing my set for bombshellbrats because I feel i want it to be better and other issues that shall remain nameless ;)
I think it's just as well.. atleast i can have my pink hair then :D

im going to get some sun today. i think i need it.

see ya later alligator :)
x

does anyone know

starlove — Tue, 06 May 2008 21:08:11 GMT

of any REAL legit work at home jobs? i've been looking to do that for years, and of course i know about the cam thing lmao
but something that i don't have do that sort of thing... ?
it's hard to find ones that are real, there are so many scams.

o.O!

=P~~~~

mixed feelings

starlove — Tue, 06 May 2008 15:01:49 GMT

goddammit i just don't know. haha! i keep going up and down about how i feel about this cam shit.
i just want to make money. but at the same time. it's not easy to make a lot of money. and im not going to. i really don't want to make like 100-200 bucks after fucking around with so many nasty men just to pay bills. when i dont HAVE TO! the most i would use this money for is for new tattoos. I pretty much only want to have "sex" with my bf- i know it isn't real, but it's still a bit awkward. Especially when my relationship is kind of in the middle of being mended.

hmmph.....i dunno. it isn't easy being a slut. LMAO J/K

I'll give it a few more tries... like i said tattoo money would be nice <3 Im up to $44.

ok that's it. i'll shut up now ;)
x

skype

starlove — Tue, 06 May 2008 13:28:25 GMT

If anyone has skype or wants to get it- i just downloaded it s i can talk to friends online. let me know if you get it! My name is Starla_art
and email starlove.amanda@gmail.com for searching

xx

Submitted some writing..

starlove — Mon, 05 May 2008 13:16:44 GMT

So I submitted some of my writing to this amazing magazine (which is more like a book) It comes out like 2 x a year or smth like that. To http://www.rattapallax.com

I've been writing for years, And most of my stuff i have on editred.com/starla if you ever want to read it ;)

I'm going to do some more art today. Of course! :P

I slept so good last night I just didn't want to wake up. I didn't have to but I always feel i need to see my bf before he goes out to work... so if im not up before him i get up to say have a good day. haha.

It's gorgeous outside today. I really *should* go soak some of it up.. maybe i will later.

have a good one babies.
xxxx

#2 new drawing of the day

starlove — Mon, 05 May 2008 01:17:12 GMT

Miss Kylee. Yes again :) I like drawing her, and i think this one she looks very STRONG and beautiful. It was inspired by a photo from her last set on BA.

<33

let me put it this way....

starlove — Sun, 04 May 2008 18:31:01 GMT

I've been trying to think how to explain my up and down feelings about being a cam girl.

It's best put this way:
When someone has me draw them and commissions me, and they love the drawing, i am extremely happy and satisfied. It makes me SO happy to know i made them happy and that my artwork is appreciated (my blood and sweat!) and put up on their walls. And getting paid is the cherry on the top.
Where as, doing cam work for money- although i do need money- does not make me feel good or happy about what im doing. It actually makes me feel a little cheap and used.

So you can see why Id rather stop the cam girl work.

yes?
<333

PS:
new Drawing- Miss Melodie Gore!!
(photo used to draw from was her new set on BA)

In other news...

starlove — Sun, 04 May 2008 00:34:17 GMT

I'm available for commissions if any of you want your portrait done. :)
I love to draw you.

Im going to go and rest. I still have the cold/flu thing hanging around me and it sucks.

-goodnight-

SXX

i cant do it. :(

starlove — Sat, 03 May 2008 23:11:32 GMT

i've come to realize i can't do this cam chat shit.

it just ain't going to happen.

:(

It's not that i feel i CANT do it.. but more that it just doesn't feel right... i know it's an somewhat "easy" way 2 make some $ but then again it's NOT...I am totally fine when im doing it and im pretty fun and yknow.. sweet on the customers. so i probably could do OK. but hey when you have a gut feeling, you should go with it.. atleast i think so....

BUT I STILL HAVE BALLS!

LMAO

((i know that sounds REALLY odd if you don't know what im talking about!)

SXX

Camcontacts.com now active

starlove — Sat, 03 May 2008 19:07:41 GMT

Im now an active member of camcontacts.com

Come check out my profile atleast ;) It's HotPinkSex (just search for it)

xx

<3

Maybe a better or new cam place

starlove — Sat, 03 May 2008 14:05:35 GMT

So i singed up for this other site, that is like.. kinda better.. it allows you to put your cam on their site.. it's the same one that this chick jessiekitty.com uses. (anyone know of her?) well she's pretty rad and successful as hell. so i thought why not :)

Im just waiting for my ID's to get approved before i can get on there.

Im using the alias HotPinkSex ^_^

User name: HotPinkSex !